Chapter 140: You kissed me.

He Yu vs Xie Qingcheng Only used blood compulsion a few times.

So little was used that Xie Qingcheng subconsciously overlooked the fact that He Yu had such sharp teeth and claws.

"He Yu, you ......!"

"I told you to stop trading your life for anyone else's. It was you who didn't listen. It was you who forced me. Now this is all I can do to make you do what I say, Xie Qingcheng." He Yu said softly, "You go."

He originally did not intend to say anything more to Xie Qingcheng, but when he came to this point, he saw Xie Qingcheng's eyes, so he paused for a moment and added some words.

"Never mind, I took your place, not because I liked you. Rather, it was because I didn't much want to live in the first place ...... I was most unattached."

"You just told Chen Man that if something happened to him, his parents would be upset. But-- think about it, if something happened to you, would Xie Xue be in pain?"

He Yu shallow smile, that smile with a few points of arrogance, a few points of loneliness, not at all like a person who is going to die.

"I'm different."

"......"

"When I die, no one will be genuinely sad."

"......"

"You're a very sensible, calculating man, and you know it's the sacrifice with the least loss."

"Come on, Xie Qingcheng, don't make the wrong choice."

He Yu said this and pulled down the emergency wrench on the control panel.

Xie Qingcheng had already been tortured by his blood parasites, and He Yu's words seemed to have transformed into invisible threads, sneaking into his body, wrapping around his bones and joints, to manipulate him. He could only mechanically follow He Yu's instructions and walk step by step up the gangway.

Hot sweat soaked Xie Qingcheng's back, and he wanted to turn back, but He Yu had too much blood in his throat this time, and his orders were too firm.

Xie Qingcheng can't break He Yu's control this time ......

He Yu stood still and watched as he headed upstairs, in the direction of Chen Man.

He Yu is not a forgiving person at heart, he would not want Xie Qingcheng and Chen Man to be together, even if he died, he would want Xie Qingcheng to have sex with only one man in his life.

Just the thought that Chen Man might kiss those lips that were as thin and pale as the ice of the first spring, the thought that Xie Qingcheng, so beautiful in bed, might be seen by another boy, made him so jealous that he could not wait to drag Chen Man down to hell with him.

That's why he had to warn Chen Man so grimly at the end -- Xie Qingcheng won't like you.

Xie Qingcheng is straight.

He will never love a man.

These words were originally thorns in He Yu's own heart, and they hurt when he thought about them.

But in this moment, he felt that the thorns weren't useless, at least they could make Chen Man a hundred times as many holes after his death.

He was pretty sure that Chen Man wouldn't survive the spikes.

Chen Man will give up.

In this life, people have a limited number of feelings, they are divided equally among parents, children, brothers, friends ...... lovers.

Chen Man is a person who came out of normal society, and the deeper feelings he can give to Xie Qingcheng are only a part of what has been split up.

He Yu is different.

He Yu has only one Xie Qingcheng.

His body life, all the feelings, are only placed in Xie Qingcheng one person.

So Chen Man couldn't get Xie Qingcheng to get hurt.

And He Yu will die if he loses Xie Qingcheng.

"Let's go." He Yu once again urged the Blood Compass and said this to Xie Qingcheng.

"Get outta here."

"Then ......"

It was as if the power of the blood compulsion was to be applied to Xie Qingcheng for the rest of his life.

He Yu said, "Forget about me."

Xie Qingcheng was so infuriated by these last words of his that he was burning up inside, his over the top anger actually caused him to suddenly break away from the blood compulsion's embedded restraints, and he choked and coughed violently, his ebony eyebrows rising angrily as he suppressed the trembling in his body and turned around to turn back!

He Yu's eyes sank, and he was just about to increase the power of the blood compulsion once again, pressing the power onto Xie Qingcheng, but just then, a creepy creaking sound suddenly came from the top of his head.

He Yu looks up, a section of burning rafters!

The section of wood burned and was already wobbling, and almost as soon as He Yu noticed it, the last bit of the connection holding it together burned through.

The broken wood fell straight down--

Only a loud bang was heard!

"He Yu!!!"

Xie Qingcheng endured the severe pain that tore his heart and lungs apart in that instant, like ripping a thousand puppet strands out of his flesh and blood in the blink of an eye, completely breaking free of the Blood Compass's grasp, and violently pouncing towards He Yu.

"BANG!!!"

The burning building materials smashed down, and at the same time, Xie Qingcheng jumped on He Yu, using the inertia to push He Yu to the side.

It was a close call, Xie Qingcheng rolled into the corner with He Yu, neither of them was hit by the flaming broken wood, but it was a Y-shaped building material, and there were steel bars next to the wood to hold it in place, and when the building material hit the ground hard, the steel bones broke and flew out, and hit Xie Qingcheng's back in an unbiased way.

Xie Qingcheng bore it in a muffled voice, but couldn't help coughing up a mouthful of blood.

How could He Yu not expect things to turn out like this, he was busy raising his hand to touch Xie Qingcheng's face, "Xie Qingcheng, you, how ...... are you?"

Xie Qingcheng threw a slap directly onto his cheek, causing He Yu's brain to buzz.

"Forget your mom forget you, watched too many bitter dramas you! You give me the fuck, get up!!!"

The corners of his mouth were still stained with blood, his cheeks were rubbed with ash, and his forehead was covered with cold sweat from breaking away from the blood parasites.

But he was still so tough that he yanked his opponent up by the lapels of He Yu's shirt.

It was just that he had been smashed too hard in the back, and that was right where his lungs were, and as soon as he got up he tugged at the injured area, and his face went white, and he couldn't help but wheeze low and cough, and his back went a little weak because of all the pain.

Seeing that he was still protecting himself like this, He Yu could not help but redden his eyes.

He hugged him tightly, almost choking, "Xie Qingcheng ... you ... why are you like this ...... You don't like me ... ...You hate me so much ...... why should ......"

Xie Qingcheng raised his hand and poked his forehead, "Don't talk so much nonsense. Hurry up and get up there. I'll pull down the emergency wrench. Hurry up!"

He Yu: "I'm not leaving."

"If you leave I can find another way, if you don't you're stuck here with me! There's only so much time left, do you still want to gamble with me on this?!" Xie Qingcheng threatening He Yu and threatening Chen Man were one and the same.

Either one doesn't waste another's sacrifice, and one is always saved.

Either that, or it's a gamble with two lives at stake.

Xie Qingcheng's drive has always been strong, and no junior has ever been able to hold out in front of him and stick to his own choices.

However, He Yu is an exception.

He Yu, in the firelight, in the basement, where it was getting harder and harder to breathe, looked at Xie Qingcheng, whose cheeks were bruised and whose clothes were in a state of disarray.

He said, "What's the best way for you to get out when I'm gone? You're just trying to sacrifice yourself!"

The refraction of the flames cast a bright light on the side of He Yu's cheeks.

His eyes blazed, determined, soft, but crazy.

He Yu said, "I won't leave if you don't. Xie Qingcheng, I told you as early as in the reservoir that I am not afraid of death."

"When you die, I won't have anyone in the world who matters. I don't know how many times I have to say this before you can believe me." He Yu paused for a moment and said, word for word, "--you're not dispensable. I cannot live without you. I can lose my life, but I cannot lose you."

"Xie Qingcheng. die together, I won't leave you."

Xie Qingcheng stared at him, listening to his red-eyed confession, his heart couldn't help but tremble heavily.

This love to the sickest words ...... is touching on the most helpless place in Xie Qingcheng.

The last thing in the world he wants to hear is "I can't live without you."

When he was in middle school, he was involved in a car accident, and it was Xie Xue's dependence on him that kept him alive. As he endured the infinite pain in the healing barn, he often thought of his parents' funeral, where Xie Xue, not yet knowing what life and death were, dutifully watched as Xie Ping and Zhou Muying were pushed into the incinerator after their bodies were said goodbye, without reacting too violently.

She is still ignorant of the concept of "death".

Until a few hours later, she followed Xie Qingcheng to pick up "mom and dad" home, she waited and waited, and finally waited for the staff to bring out two boxes of ashes, she stood still and refused to go, and asked in a daze: "Where are mom and dad?"

Xie Qingcheng held back his grief and told her that this was it.

These still warm, but soon to be cooled ashes, these fragmented bones, some unburned in their entirety can still be seen in their full shape ......

These are the same parents who once smiled and hugged them and protected them.

It took him a long time to explain to Xie Xue that their mom and dad had left. Finally, Xie Xue more or less understood, and tears welled up in her eyes.

She suddenly cried in fear and pulled Xie Qingcheng's hand, flung herself into Xie Qingcheng's arms and said, "Brother, will brother leave one day too? I don't want to! I can't live without my brother."

"Wow! I can't live without my brother! Brother don't go away! Brother don't have an accident! Brother don't go!"

Xie Xue's cries became a charm that invoked the soul and was stuck to Xie Qingcheng's heart.

Later, even as a walking corpse, he seemed to be awakened by the girl's cries, staggering back from the deep purgatory, to the April earth.

It was those words that summoned him back from hell.

--I can't live without you.

The words would make him feel that he was still needed, despite being crippled.

He's still useful.

He ...... is not a man who lives a meaningless life.

But, it was this very phrase that he hadn't actually heard anyone say with such pleading sincerity in a long time.

As Xie Xue grows up, she slowly develops her own ideas. Though she respects him, she often feels that Xie Qingcheng is too much of a boss and too strict with her.

Her mantra has changed from "I can't live without my brother" as a child to "I have my own ideas and I can do it on my own."

Xie Qingcheng understands that she is the right one, but he can't let go.

But the peanut leaves die and the fruit set and flowers die.

Relationships between people are like the growth of a manzanita, old and new. Flowers, leaves, and fruits are not carried on one stem and leaves at the same time.

Gradually he learns to let go too, and knows it's time for him to fade from her life.

This crippled and decaying body seemed to have accomplished most of its mission. No one needed it as insistently anymore.

The little girl that the rag doll sewed herself up and returned to earth to take care of as well, no longer needed it, the dirty, old doll was no longer something irreplaceable that had to be left in the world.

Until this moment, He Yu, with his face blackened with smoke and his skin bloodied from abrasions, said to him, "Brother, I can't live without you.

Xie Qingcheng chest of the broken, gradually losing color, will fall about the spell, as if only by a new life dead hold.

He Yu would not let the spell that held his breath fall.

He Yu said to the rag doll that has been tortured in the depths of his soul and is about to die, Xie Qingcheng, I will not leave you.

The flames crackled into the blazing fire of the rune that made the pact.

The two of them were in the center of the knot, the teenager embracing the man.

He's giving his life to Xie Qingcheng.

You're the one.

Xie Qingcheng.

You're the one.

I can testify with my life and death that what I say is true and not hidden.

I will live and die with you and never regret it.

"......" Xie Qingcheng didn't say a word. This old muppet bear that no one needed just looked at the teenager in front of him wordlessly.

And then, I don't know if it's He Yu's fault.

Xie Qingcheng's eyes, which had always been cold and emotionless, and which would at most become a little misty in the depths of lust, even turned slightly red.

Xie Qingcheng Suddenly closed his eyes, his voice is low and muddy, can not hear what kind of emotion in it: "He Yu ........."

He Yu choked and coughed, and raised his hand to stroke the broken hair in front of Xie Qingcheng's forehead: "Xie Qingcheng, if you don't leave, I won't leave either, I have accompanied you through life and death so many times, and this time will be no exception. I said that I will love you and protect you every second. I did."

Xie Qingcheng : "......"

He Yu hugged him, "I did it, don't bully me to be young, don't say that I don't know what I'm doing and that I misunderstood my feelings. I love you, like you, want you ...... I will die with you. I did not break my word." Said to the end, He Yu 竟哽咽了，受了太多委屈一般，带着哭腔道，"Xie Qingcheng ...... me ...... I didn't break my word!"

A certain feeling in Xie Qingcheng's heart seemed to have finally been awakened by the infatuation that the teenager had cried out with his life, and his hands were trembling slightly.

"He Yu ......"

The less smoke there was, the bigger it got and the harder it was for both of them to breathe.

He Yu gradually consciousness has been a little dizzy, but he still said, "Xie Qingcheng ...... If people die and there is a soul, you must remember, I will never mind you old, married, really, in case of death there is another world, you with me okay? In case ...... in case there is still alive ...... you and I date, okay?"

"......"

"You ...... you've never dated anyone properly ...... I'm very good at it ...... you'll...you'll love ...... you with me, I'll show you around and make you happy ...... I'll ...... cough cough cough ...... "

The air was blurred and distorted by the heat that was already rolling in around them.

He Yu wanted to go on, but choked again and couldn't speak for a moment.

And at that moment, I don't know whether it was out of pity, out of loneliness, or out of the softness of having gone through difficulties together so many times, or perhaps, out of the kind of feelings in Xie Qingcheng's heart that had just been shaken up from the land of ice and snow.

Xie Qingcheng suddenly plunged his slender fingers into He Yu's inked hair.

The teenager's somewhat lax eyes met the man's.

And then--

Xie Qingcheng slightly turned his face, closed his eyes, and for the first time, in a place that wasn't a bed, took the initiative and truly kissed He Yu's lips!

He Yu instantly gripped his lapels, momentarily feeling a choking sensation worse than the lack of oxygen caused by the fire in this damn basement.

His entire body shuddered, his eyes widening in disbelief, his eyes coming into focus all of a sudden, the light trembling in their pupils.

Xie Qingcheng ...... is kissing him?

Xie Qingcheng Is this ...... really kissing him ......?

He Yu's fingers were trembling, he was originally a very good kisser, but at this moment he became a wooden sculpture, a puppet marionette, as if there was a string pulling and manipulating him, so that he could move mechanically.

He felt something warm suddenly cross his cheek, like raindrops falling.

But there will be no rain here.

It took a while before he realized that they were his own tears.

He Yu came back to his senses, he started to turn the tables, he shed tears but was kissing Xie Qingcheng fiercely. He embraced the man and hugged him, thinking that if this was the last thing he did in his life, it would be enough.

Enough is enough ......

Though he knew that the kiss Xie Qingcheng had given him was certainly not out of love, but an echo, a silent thanks, a helpless apology.

These feelings caused He Yu's heart to suffer extreme pain in the midst of great joy.

But the moment he embraced Xie Qingcheng, and Xie Qingcheng finally embraced him back after some hesitation, He Yu thought without joy, without sadness--

That's enough.

That's enough.

Xie Qingcheng, hold me.

As long as you hold me, I'll turn into ash, dust and smoke, and turn into a churning past ......

And I'm not afraid anymore.

Two people kissing is to the love cut to the bone, surrounded by burning flames, they will be in the light of the fire into the silence. No matter what they had experienced, had how bad past, in this moment seems to be no longer important, in the flames surrounded by the blossoming of two lonely souls, they rely on each other to support each other towards the end.

Burning building debris was falling.

He Yu's hot tears fell on Xie Qingcheng's shoulder, so hot that they could melt the ice and fall straight into Xie Qingcheng's heart. Xie Qingcheng's fingers were in his hair-

He didn't know why he was kissing He Yu so hard, so genuinely, so hot and warm.

But in this moment, that's all he wanted to do.

In his entire life, he had never initiated a kiss with anyone while awake, and this was the last and only response he could give to He Yu.

"Rumble--!"

Another large section of iron was burned to melt the welds and fell violently from the top, hitting the ground. Xie Qingcheng embraced He Yu and brought the man to the far corner, against the wall and between himself.

"Xie Qingcheng ......"

Xie Qingcheng stroked his forehead hair soothingly, and in the increasingly murky air he told him, "It's okay, He Yu, it's okay. I'm here."

Scrap iron snapped off at the root of the hall behind them, smashing down in a constant blaze.

Xie Qingcheng hugged him, protecting him from looking, his forehead against He Yu's forehead.

"Don't be afraid ......"

"I'm here."

"I'm with you."

I can't force you to leave. I already know it's your choice.

My choice, then, is to stay with you like this and escort you to the end.

This is the only thing I can give you ...... He Yu ......

The teenager's eyelashes fluttered lightly under his palm, and Xie Qingcheng felt his palm moisten. Another piece of iron fell, this time smashing straight into the digitized control board near them, and the iron was so heavy that it directly smashed the control board, cracking ice-like lines on it.

Xie Qingcheng paused for a few seconds, staring at that screen, suddenly realizing something.

"Wait!"

He let go of the hand that was covering He Yu's eyes.

He Yu bemused, "What's going on ......"

Xie Qingcheng eyes did not blink and looked at the digital screen that was smashed to pieces, and there was suddenly a light in his eyes, and he said to He Yu, "...... hurry up and take off your clothes."

He Yu: "?"