Don't hold hands

Lu Xun watched as Ye Yao stood up and walked with the beautiful dancer to the open space a few steps away.

Ye Yao holds the dancer's fingers in a gentleman's grip as beautiful lyrical music plays and the dancer begins to spin and jump.

She spins outward with her arms wide open, her skirt flying. She spins until her arms are straight, then she begins to spin toward Ye Yao, and finally pretends to lean into Ye Yao's arms.

For all intents and purposes, this kind of interaction with strangers is not overly intimate, and the dancers appear to be leaning into the arms of the guests as they rotate inward, but that's just a kind of dislocation, and they don't actually lean into each other, they're still partly in between.

From Lu Xun's point of view, he can't see the empty space in the center, only the dancer's eyes closed and her face smiling.

Lu Xun's hands were shaking slightly as he held the chopsticks, not out of fear, but out of anger.

How can anyone lie in Ye Yao's arms and smile so happily?

What does this mean, this girl is in love with Ye Yao, too?

What about him? He's the one who happily asked Ye Yao to dinner, the two of them, and now he's the third party, the extra light bulb?

Obviously he was here first.

Lu Xun rationally knows that it's rude to rush up and interrupt someone's dance like that, but who can be rational in a situation like this?

Lu Xun stood up violently, his face extremely frightened. The table was shaken by his impact, and the ceramic dinner plate set on top clicked.

Ye Yao turned his head when he heard the commotion, and lightly glanced at Lu Xun.

This glance was not strong, nor did it carry any threatening emotions, it was simply to see what Lu Xun was doing, yet it was this glance that easily suppressed Lu Xun.

Lu Xun came up with a question.

He'd go straight up and interrupt the dance to pull Ye Yao away, and he'd be happy, but Ye Yao would be embarrassed.

Just as when a college student is forcibly taken away by his parents for surfing the Internet in an Internet cafe, it can be said that it is extremely frustrating to one's self-esteem, and maybe Ye Yao will be angry with him and not want to care about him after this time.

What can he do, he can't lock Ye Yao up in the Golden House and use coercion to keep Ye Yao from coming out if she doesn't want to make up with him?

Restricting someone's personal freedom is against the law, and Ye Yao happens to be a law student. Although Ye Yao probably won't send him in himself out of personal friendship, Ye Yao hates people who know the law and break it, so he can't make Ye Yao hate him.

Lu Xun suppressed the anger in his heart, slowly and stiffly sat down a little bit.

As Lu Xun waited for seconds and years, the dance interaction finally came to an end, and Ye Yao returned to him.

Lu Xun, still unable to fully control his temper, grimaced, "Oh, having fun dancing?"

"It was okay." Ye Yao wiped off the perfume scent left on his hands with a wet paper towel, "They interacted pretty well."

The sizing is also quite appropriate and doesn't make him uncomfortable.

Lu Xun's expression was already so hard to see that it was out of control, and he tried to give a gentle smile, but the end result was similar to that of a widow who ran away from his wife.

This anyone can see that he is not happy, Ye Yao helplessly said, "You ...... don t be upset, you also go to jump one? One of us will jump once, fair."

From a friend's point of view, he didn't do anything to wrong Lu Xun, right? But I have to say, Lu Xun is really too possessive of his friends.

"What kind of person do you take me for!" Lu Xun, even angrier and desperate to vent his anger, angrily grabbed his knife and fork, dragged it across the table over one of the steaks, and sliced it into pieces as if he were an enemy.

Ye Yao also didn't want Lu Xun to get angry, he thought for a moment and asked, "Why are you so angry at me for leaving you alone to have fun?"

"So Ye knows it too," Lu Xun's eyes were filled with anger and sorrow, "You're out there spending your time, and I'm out there all alone, heh, like a cabbage."

"......" Ye Yao asks directly, "How can I be happier after all the dancing is already done?"

Lu Xun slices his steak in silence as he cuts it to a size suitable for the mouth, revealing the tender red meat inside.

He actually prefers his steak medium rare, but Ye Yao likes it seven, so he orders it seven.

Will Ye Yao still order according to Ye Yao's taste when he's with that girl, and why should his people be subjected to this?

Finish cutting the steak all the way through, Lu Xun quieted down, silent for a long time and then suddenly spoke, "...... You like her?"

Ye Yao laughed and cried, "No, I simply wanted to experience the special activities here. They're all veiled, so I can't see their faces."

Lu Xun's eyes rolled as he cheered up a bit, picking up a cut steak with his fork and handing it to Ye Yao's mouth.

"I'll feed you." Lu Xun said.

Ye Yao: "......"

"You wouldn't be willing to dance with strangers in public or eat what I feed you, would you?" Lu Xun said grimly.

It was true that Ye Yao didn't really want to eat, although it wasn't like they hadn't been like this before, but times were different now, before he was still straight and now he wasn't. Now eating what Lu Xun fed him one bite at a time gave him a strange feeling of being under Lu Xun's control.

If he refused outright, Lu Xun would definitely ask why it was okay in the past but not now.

Ye Yao thought for a moment, reached his hand up to the tabletop and spread it out, and said tentatively, "I'll feed you?"

But Lu Xun, such a debonair character, wouldn't necessarily be willing to bow down and eat from his hand ......

Before Ye Yao could finish his thought, Lu Xun, who heard the words, froze, and then shoved his fork into his hand with a flying motion.

"Then how sorry, how tired you ah." Lu Xun beautifully said, "Then it will be hard for Brother Ye, big brother, you look at the fork, want to just fork what you can."

Ye Yao: "......"

Another miscalculation.

Ye Yao feeds the forked steak into Lu Xun's mouth, who lowers his head without any reluctance and bites the steak from the fork.

He was genuinely happy, sitting upright with a strange smile on his face. Ye Yao couldn't help but think that if they were all dogs, then Lu Xun's tail would be wagging so much by now that it would be able to spiral into the sky.

Is it so much fun to interact with your friends? But he was pretty happy too.

Ye Yao softened his brows and forked something else to Lu Xun according to Lu Xun's tastes, and after feeding him a few times, Lu Xun opened his mouth and said, "You eat too, don't just let me eat alone."

Ye Yao thought Lu Xun had a point, so he took a bite for himself and gave Lu Xun another bite.

Lu Xun watched the same fork go into Ye Yao's mouth and then his.

Lu Xun's tongue licked at the fork, swirling the food juices away from it and narrowing his eyes in satisfaction.

Surely he's the only one who can do that with Ye Yao, right? If you're a good brother, you can eat what the other has eaten and drink what the other has drunk.

*

After determining that Ye Yao had no thoughts about anyone else, and after having a warm meal with Ye Yao, Lu Xun was relieved.

They returned to the school, and as they walked down the cold, quiet main street of the campus, Lu Xun went to hold Ye Yao's hand, and helped him tuck it into his pocket to keep it warm.

Ye Yao didn't object at first, but after a few minutes, Ye Yao spoke seriously, "I don't think this is right."

"?" Lu Xun puzzled, "What's wrong, you don't like the size of this pocket? Let's make do for now, I won't wear this one next time is all."

"...... No." Ye Yao delivers the planned line, "I don't think it's right for two boys to hold hands, it's weird."

Lu Xun was unimpressed: "And where did you read any strange statements? It's not weird at all, you can hold hands whenever you want, so many female friends hold hands with each other every day and no one says it's weird."

Lu Xun's pockets were warm, a warmth that was easy to become attached to. Ye Yao's fingers moved, seeking a gap from which to draw his hand.

Ye Yao faded, "Didn't see anything from anywhere else, it was my own sudden feeling of wrongness. Your hands are big and hard, a boy's hands."

Lu Xun puzzled: "Or else? Congratulate you for holding for so many years and finally realize I'm a man?"

Ye Yao turned his head to look at Lu Xun and said seriously, "After what happened today, I think I should hold a girl's hand, do you understand what I mean?"

After today, he touched a girl's hand and realized that he wanted to hold a girl's hand, not a boy's.

The wind whistled and the heat in his pockets disappeared in an instant.

Lu Xun stops in his tracks.

A faint fury covered his hardened features and he smiled, trying to cover it with a joke, "I don't understand, what you're saying, I'm deaf."

Ye Yao carefully measured Lu Xun's expression and affirmed, "You've understood, so in the future, don't just hold my hand, right?"

The smile on Lu Xun's face gradually disappeared, he still wanted to laugh, but couldn't: "There's no room for negotiation?"

Without the warmth of Lu Xun's palm, the temperature of Ye Yao's fingertips is rapidly getting colder.

The cold was killing him, calling him closer again.

Ye Yao did not speak, he looked at Lu Xun wordlessly and slowly shook his head.

*

Dormitory.

Ye Yao goes to take a shower, while Lu Xun frantically sends messages to harass his doggy master Lu Ming.

Unlike him, who has been single for 20 years, Lu Ming has a girlfriend and is not only a gay detector, but also has much more experience in relationships than he does.

After Lu Xun expressionlessly sent the word [in?] twenty or thirty times, the dog-headed warlord finally rolled out.

[I'm playing a game ...... The canyons are flooded with your messages!]

Lu Xun didn't bother to talk nonsense with him and directly asked: [How do you kill a relationship that hasn't had time to break ground directly in the cradle?

Lu Ming over there is in a panic, thinking that Lu Xun has finally realized that he's not straight anymore? But his reaction to realizing he's not straight is to kill the relationship? No way, to flirt with him and break it off just like that, it's too heartless.

Lu Ming typed: [You're willing to ...... kill this relationship ah?

Lu Xun was impatient: [What do I have to give up? Cut the crap, is there any direct and fast method?

Lu Ming doesn't understand why this question should be asked to him: [If you really want to break it off, why don't you move out of the dormitory and don't see him often in the future?

What the hell?

Lu Xun frowned at this sentence a few times and reacted, already in a bad mood, he typed angrily: [What's in your head is rice paste? How could I possibly break it off with Ye Yao! My relationship with him is going to grow into a huge tree!

Lu Ming stared in disbelief: [So what are you trying to kill?

Lu Xun :[I suspect Ye Yao has gotten the hang of it and wants to fall in love with a girl.]]

Lu Ming: [......]

So it's Ye Yao's desire to fall in love with a girl that's being stifled?

Fuck, Lu Xun sure isn't straight!

Lu Ming angry slap typing: [What I hate most in my life is faggots trying to bend straight men!

[What's wrong with people's straight men wanting to fall in love with girls, what do you care! I'm blocked for now! Don't look for me anymore!

Lu Xun went to poke again, Lu Ming there really did not return him.

Lu Xun : "......"

You're crazy! Where's the faggot wrenching straight men!

Isn't it normal for someone to not want their best friend to fall in love and leave them behind? Besides, he's just trying to make Ye Yao realize for a while that it's better to be in a relationship than to develop a friendship with him, and that relationships take a lot of effort, so how can he give Ye Yao more help than a girlfriend?

He can take care of Ye Yao's food, clothing, and transportation so that Ye Yao can focus on her studies. If anyone else did that, Ye Yao would be scolded for not being in a relationship but looking for a babysitter. So what's wrong with being with him and contributing to the development of our country?

Abominable!

Ye Yao came out of the bathroom after his shower to see Lu Xun sitting wanly at his desk, looking moody.

Ever since he told Lu Xun on the way back that he didn't want to hold hands anymore, Lu Xun's mood has been off.

Ye Yao could understand that if he was still a straight man, Lu Xun would be more than a little disappointed when he suddenly showed interest in other girls one day and reduced his contact with them as a result.

Ye Yao wants to have a normal, ordinary friendship with Lu Xun, and knows that he can't just be distant, and that he needs to give sugar after he gives a stick, or else Lu Xun will bounce back, and it'll be more trouble than it's worth to force him to hold hands.

"Lu Xun," Ye Yao voiced, "look at me."

Lu Xun looks up and lights up.

Ye Yao wore the same pink sweater he had knitted, carrying the scent of freshly showered water, her cheeks slightly red from the hot water.

Ye Yao was now a hundred times sweeter than Strawberry Daifuku, Lu Xun thought.

The soft and sweet looking Ye Yao walked up to him, and Lu Xun hurriedly got up from his chair to greet the sweetness.

Because Lu Xun knows Ye Yao's size by heart from his daily snuggles, this dress also fits Ye Yao perfectly.

Ye Yao touched the sweater on his body and said with a smile, "It's very comfortable, thank you for the gift you gave me, hard work."

"What's the point," Lu Xun whispered as he watched this scene of Ye Yao wearing his handmade clothes, "If you like it, I'll make it for you every year."

Ye Yao smiled helplessly, "Then we'll have to dedicate a large closet to the clothes you knit every year."

Who will Ye Yao live with in the room with the big closet in the future?

Lu Xun had an unexplainable trepidation in his heart, his throat moved slightly as he leaned down and said to Ye Yao in a muffled voice, "Give me a hug, will you?"

Ye Yao thought for a moment and opened his arms, giving Lu Xun a friend-to-friend hug.

Lu Xun wrapped his arms tightly around the person in his embrace and buried his head in Ye Yao's shoulder and neck, desperately inhaling his favorite scent to suppress the unspoken trepidation in his heart.

Ye Yao was in his arms now, and he would do everything he could to keep Ye Yao still by his side in the future.

Ye Yao patted Lu Xun's back and comforted him, "Alright, why are you so downcast? People who don't know will think that I've done something to you, but it's just that you're not holding my hand as much. We'll be friends for many years to come."

Lu Xun was gradually calmed down, he let go of Ye Yao for the time being, looked at the chair behind him, then at Ye Yao, and suddenly had an idea.

Lu Xun sat down on a chair, then patted his leg and said to Ye Yao, "Sit down, I'll talk to you, we haven't talked to each other for a long time."

Ye Yao sitting on his lap, talking to him face-to-face, the scene was just too good to be true!

Ye Yao : "...... It's the weekend, Xiao Pang and Wen Ke go out to play games, and you're slutting it up in the dorm?"

"Hurry up." Lu Xun urged, patting his long legs.

Ye Yao refused without hesitation, "No, who's going to sit on the legs if you don't have a free chair? If you really want to tell me something, I'll go get the chair."

Lu Xun pulled Ye Yao's wrist to prevent him from leaving, "If you don't want to sit on a flexible human sofa, why don't you sit on a cold chair? There's no need to compare and contrast, Ye Yao, my family's is really the best."

"......" Ye Yao, of course, couldn't sit face to face on Lu Xun's lap, he thought of a very unethical, but instantly breaks the current sticky atmosphere excuse, "No, I'm afraid of a needle sticking me. "

Lu Xun looks at Ye Yao: "......"

Lu Xun looks down at himself again, "......"

There was a silence inside the air.

Ye Yao shook off Lu Xun's hand and ran away, but halfway through the run, Lu Xun, who was chasing after him, stopped him at the waist.

Lu Xun laughed, "Ye Yao, twenty centimeters won't satisfy you, will it?"

"Huh." Ye Yao smiles as calmly as he can, "It's okay, what's the point of showing off with me, look at you, you've been single for twenty years."

Lu Xun was furious, but the person who was furious with him could not be hit, could not be scolded, in the end, Lu Xun was so hot-blooded and dizzy that he pressed Ye Yao's waist with one hand, and with the other hand, gently struck Ye Yao's body's most fleshy place, which is the place that is the least prone to be injured when he hits it.

"Let's see how dare you laugh at me next time!" Lu Xun muttered.

Ye Yao was wearing pajama pants, which were not thick, and he clearly sensed the temperature of Lu Xun's palm, which was hot.

Ye Yao: "????"

Lu Xun came back to his senses and realized what he had done, his movements and expression froze.

"Why don't you take your hands off?" Ye Yao scolded in a low voice.

"Ohhhhhh." Lu Xun lets go of his hand and watches as Ye Yao climbs onto the bed with reddened ears.

Lu Xun unconsciously pinched the fingers that had just touched Ye Yao, as if a touch of softness still remained on them.

Ye Yao made no sound, and Lu Xun sat in his chair for a while, then staggered drunkenly to carry out the washing up.

He saw Ye Yao's most intimate clothes soaking in the basin at the sink. Ye Yao was probably going to wash them, but was so irritated by him that she forgot about it and went straight to bed.

It's okay, he can help Ye Yao wash it.

The future young master Lu, who is worth more than 100 billion dollars, has his hands covered in foam, diligently helping Ye Yao wash his most intimate clothes, and as he washes, he can't help but show a smile.

Ye Yao is so nice. It's nice to do Ye Yao's laundry.