I'm His Own

Ye Yao certainly didn't crash and burn with a single bump, but he was still dragged around for a good checkup.

Checking and checking, he watched Lu Xun's head come closer and closer to his neck.

He could even hear the faint sound of Lu Xun breathing, Lu Xun taking deep breaths, not knowing what he was inhaling.

"I didn't get hit in the neck." Ye Yao said.

"......" Lu Xun backs off a bit, taking a look at the unflattering Ye Yao.

Of course he knew that walking was bumped a little, the possibility of hitting his neck was unlikely, he just ...... had some restraint.

He hadn't been able to suck on Ye Yao himself for a long, long time, or at most on Ye Yao's clothes.

Now that Ye Yao was in front of him in living color, so close to him, it was easy to arouse his deepest addictions.

Lu Xun rubbed his nose and said in a muffled voice, "It's always good to check just in case."

When Ye Yao didn't say anything, Lu Xun sat down beside him and continued to roast the meat.

"I overheard a lot of your conversation with that man." Ye Yao said, "I'm sorry."

Lu Xun immediately retorted: "How can this be called eavesdropping? This is called openly listening, here is your position, you want to come back when you can."

Ye Yao smiled, then tucked the smile away and continued, "After he gives up on you as a target, there's a chance he'll go for other boys."

"That would be best." A flash of Ye Yao's familiar disgust and revulsion flashed across Lu Xun's face as he pinched the roasted meat into Ye Yao's bowl, returning to his smiling demeanor when he faced Ye Yao, "Let's not talk about that, let's continue eating."

*

Back at the dormitory, Ye Yao lies in bed.

He recalled everything that had happened today.

Lu Xun's overwhelming sense of exclusivity and possessiveness towards him does not allow anyone to interfere with the absolute exclusivity between the two of them.

And when he mentioned that the boy might be looking for other men, Lu Xun's face flashed with a disgust that Lu Xun probably didn't even realize.

That's exactly the same resistance Lu Xun used to feel when he heard about homosexuality when he was a homophobic straight guy.

This subconscious reaction still exists today after Lu Xun claimed to have gotten bent out of shape.

He hadn't been able to witness Lu Xun's expression as he conversed with the boy, and now that he thought about it, it was probably one of extreme disgust and revulsion as well.

This convinced him that Lu Xun was still straight, but there seemed to be a slight possibility of bending in the straightness.

How did ...... come to be such an oxymoron.

Ye Yao is not good at relationship matters, he can realize that he likes Lu Xun is already a rare enlightenment, he can't see that other people are hitting on him is his normal level, it's impossible for him to turn into a relationship master and analyze Lu Xun to the point.

Ye Yao's cell phone vibrated, he picked it up and saw a message from Lu Xun.

Lu Xun: [Little Penguin Probe.jpg]

Lu Xun: "Can I get a passing grade on today's date?

Ye Yao thought about it and replied:

[That one today is not called a date.]

[Called a dinner date.]

*

It's another school day, Lu Xun is still reeling from the blowback of a date-turned-dinner date, and Ye Yao receives a message from his mother.

[Yao Yao, did your grandpa come to see you?]

Ye Yao also rushed to reply during the class, [No, what's up mom?].

Ye's mother replied: [Your uncle wants to buy a house, Grandpa wants us to help contribute part of the money, if he comes to you, you directly let him call mom, don't need to bother with him more to affect the mood.

Grandpa's family didn't give a dime when mom was sick and almost couldn't come up with the money for treatment, but now they want to borrow money?

Ye Yao lowered his eyes: [Okay, mom you don't have to worry about it.]

*

Ye Yao knew that Grandpa would be looking for him, so he didn't go out that night and studied in his dormitory.

After receiving an incoming call at 8:00 p.m., Ye Yao took his cell phone and walked outside the dormitory.

It started with a few pleasantries, Ye Yao's attitude was cold, and sure enough it didn't take long to see Grandpa get to the point.

"Xiaoyao, your second uncle is going to buy a house. We're all family, so we have to help each other out, don't we? Grandpa knows you must have some money in your hand, and you're so good at your studies! Don't be cheap. You're an only child, so if anything happens to you in your old age, you'll have to let your cousin take care of you."

Ye Yao walked to the corner of the unoccupied staircase and opened the closed window, letting the wind that was beginning to carry the early summer heat on his face.

"That won't be necessary, I can hire an escort to take care of me, so I won't bother him." Ye Yao faintly said.

Grandpa's voice was loud: "How can an outsider be as sweet as a family member, there was a news story the other day that a caregiver earning 10,000 a month wouldn't even help with the poop and pee!"

"It's okay." Ye Yao said, "I was afraid my cousin would take care of me I could just pull out my oxygen tube, the nurse was nice."

Grandpa was stuck on Ye Yao's words for a few minutes, and when he spoke again, he sounded even more angry: "You can't be so cruel Ye Yao! Do you remember when you were little and I took you out with your cousin? You had so much fun then, but now that you've grown up, you don't care about the past and you're just like your mom?"

The spring breeze can t blow away the frost that covers Ye Yao s brows as he looks out the window, his chest churning with depression.

"I didn't feel like having fun that time out," Ye Yao said coldly, "and mom she didn't just flip out and hang up for no reason."

Ye Yao hung up his cell phone directly, he re-closed the window to walk back to the dormitory, but when he turned around he saw a figure standing furtively at the corner of the stairs coming up from downstairs.

The figure was familiar to him.

"I didn't mean to eavesdrop," Lu Xun held up the shopping bag he was carrying in his hand to show his innocence, "I saw that you were studying too hard, so I wanted to go downstairs and buy you some snacks, and I didn't expect to run into you on the phone here."

"...... Uh-huh." Ye Yao adjusted his mood to face Lu Xun, "Going back together?"

Of course, Lu Xun took three steps up the stairs and walked over to Ye Yao.

Based on Ye Yao's voice on the phone, it was easy to deduce that Ye Yao was not in a good mood. Lu Xun carefully touched Ye Yao's shoulder: "What's wrong, is your cousin bullying you? Why don't you have fun? Tell me, I'll help you bully him back."

"...... It's fine, it happened more than ten years ago, it's long gone." Ye Yao smiled and didn't say anything out loud.

Lu Xun was not surprised by Ye Yao's reluctance to talk, Ye Yao has always been the kind of person who likes to keep things in his heart, in the past it was clear that there were difficulties at home, Ye Yao did not take the initiative to talk to him, or he went to ask and found out, so that he could give Ye Yao as much help as possible.

Of course, not everything is a good place to get to the bottom of something, but Lu Xun's intuition tells him that Ye Yao cares about it, and that's why he needs to get to the bottom of it.

Wouldn't it be bad if Ye Yao also has a psychological shadow that makes Ye Yao reluctant to turn friends into lovers?

After a few moments of coaxing but not seeing Ye Yao relent, Lu Xun began to choose to seek help from outside the field.

He pulls out his cell phone and starts contacting Ye Yao's mom.

He used to treat Ye Yao's mom with respect and warmth when he was Ye Yao's friend, and now as Ye Yao's suitor, Lu Xun is even more warm and cordial.

How can that be Ye Yao's mom? That's his mom! We'll all be family from now on!

After Ye Yao's mom was made very happy by him, Lu Xun began to try to throw out his own questions.

[I was talking to Ye Yao today, and I heard him talking about how he used to be upset about going to play with his cousin, but he didn't go into detail with me... Do you know what happened then?]

Ye Yao's mom did know.

At that time, Ye Yao was still young and had not yet fully developed the habit of holding everything in his heart, so he went home to be held by his mother and coaxed a few words, and then he voiced his grievances in his heart.

When a new amusement park opened, Ye Yao's grandfather took Ye Yao's cousin there, fearing that he would be bored if he didn't have anyone to go with him, so he took Ye Yao with him.

Amusement parks were still a very highbrow and new place for people at the time, so they were very much visited and the things in them were sold out.

When the new and trendy juice sodas are sold down to one glass, it is only right that this glass is given to the cousin, Ye Yao, to drink the mineral water. Since Ye Yao is the older brother, he needs to give in to his younger brother, and mineral water is healthy.

There is only one tub left of the big, luxurious tub of Crown Ice Cream, which is also given to my cousin, and Ye Yao can just eat the regular carton of ice cream because Ye Yao looks skinny and can't eat that much.

Then they saw a merchant selling balloons with the Huluanwa and Monkey King on them, which most little boys would love, and which Ye Yao also loved.

There were two balloons left, and Ye Yao thought happily that this time he would be able to get one, and he would be happy no matter which one it was.

But Ye Yao didn't realize that he wouldn't get any of them in the end. Because my cousin loves both Huluwa and Monkey King, no matter which one he likes, he can't part with it. In the end, the old man put both balloons into his hands after he cried and screamed.

"Little Yao looks so pretty, she must not like this kind of thing," Grandpa Ye Yao said, "When you see the Snow White one, Grandpa will buy it for you."

"...... I don't like Snow White, I like this." Ye Yao said.

"What did you say?" Grandpa asked.

Ye Yao did not answer, not far after buying balloons you can take pictures with cute people dressed as doll bears, ten dollars a person.

The big teddy bear was fluffy and his fur was so soft at first sight. My cousin excitedly buried his face in the bear's stomach, and Ye Yao couldn't stop staring.

He liked that, too, and he wanted to go hold Doll Bear's furry-looking hand.

A waiting Ye Yao gets the bad news that he spent too much today and doesn't have enough money left.

This time Ye Yao quit of his own accord and got a compliment from Grandpa who said he knew what he was doing.

Maybe because he's the older brother, maybe because he's the grandson, whatever the reason, he won't be the one favored on this excursion.

Ye Yao's introverted nature also prevents Ye Yao from competing for favor.

Ye Yao's mom finished roughly what happened and sighed: [Now that I've said it all, these are small things, and he surely doesn't want to tell you such small things again, he'll feel embarrassed.]

Lu Xun was so angry at what happened that he wished he had been right next to Ye Yao and bought everything for him.

How did he meet Ye Yao in high school? They should have been bosom buddies since they were three years old, bamboo horses and ponies, and then they started to fall in love as adults, and then they went to get a marriage license when they were twenty-three years old, so no one could bully Ye Yao under his nose.

Lu Xun took a breath to calm himself before replying to Ye Yao's mom's message, [Yes, when I used to go to the amusement park with him, he didn't say anything about it once].

Nowadays, Ye Yao, as long as he has the intention to hide something, he will definitely hide it to death without being noticed by anyone.

Ye Yao's mom continued, [We tried to take him to an amusement park later and he always said he didn't like it anymore and wouldn't go.]

Do you really not like it anymore, or are you just pretending not to?

I'm afraid that Ye Yao, having seen how much it costs to go out once, didn't want to burden her parents anymore. It was only after Ye Yao started getting scholarships and working part-time that she started going out more.

...... Ye Yao's regrets, the times he wasn't a part of, he wants to make up for all of them and occupy every inch of Ye Yao's memories.

Lu Xun poked his head out of bed and asked Ye Yao, "Going to the amusement park this weekend?"

"I'm going to be a tutor on the weekends to make up for it." Ye Yao replied.

Lu Xun pulled his head back to pound on his phone again, and after a while re-explored his head, "But I saw Ms. Wang's circle of friends say that because that whoever did well on his monthly exams, he was planning to take him out for a day on the weekend."

Ye Yao gets his phone out to see that it's actually true, and he soon receives a text message from Ms. Wang that he's off for the weekend.

"I don't want to go there either." Ye Yao said.

After today's phone call, I'm afraid he won't be wanting to go to an amusement park for a while these days.

Ye Yao thought that was the end of the story, but a few minutes later, he received a message from Lu Xun.

[Going to an amusement park for the weekend? If you don't want to, I'll ask again in five minutes.]

Ye Yao: "......"

Lu Xun was true to his word, sending invitations to Ye Yao every five minutes, and it didn't matter if Ye Yao didn't reply, he would continue to send messages when the time came.

By the time Ye Yao finished reviewing his textbooks and shuffled into bed, his cell phone was stacked with dozens of invitation messages from Lu Xun.

Five minutes and five minutes, and only twelve five minutes in an hour.

Lights out in the dormitory, Lu Xun's messages are still being sent every five minutes.

As long as the phone is muted, this message won't affect Ye Yao at all, and Lu Xun will be the only one busy.

At twenty-eight minutes past twelve, Ye Yao, who was lying down, got up and went to the drawn curtains of the bed.

At 12:29:50, Ye Yao lifted the curtain between him and Lu Xun.

Lu Xun was holding his cell phone, typing the invitation message word by word, the light of the cell phone screen shining on his face, illuminating the seriousness in his dark eyes.

Lu Xun raised his head at the sound of the commotion and locked eyes with Ye Yao.

Lu Xun, who was originally expressionless, showed a smile to Ye Yao, and it was as if it had become his instinct to smile happily at the sight of Ye Yao.

Ye Yao's hand on the bed curtain squeezed tightly, crumpling the piece of fabric as he said in an exasperated tone, "How can anyone type one word at a time, it's been posted so many times, copy and paste you don't know how to do it?"

Lu Xun didn't say anything as he sent a new invite message, then started typing and sending again.

Ye Yao took out his cell phone to look at it and saw a new text from Lu Xun.

[You have to be sincere in every invitation, not copy and paste.]

Ye Yao's hands were trembling slightly as he lowered the bed curtain back down between him and Lu Xun, typing his reply word by word:

[Then go.

*

Weekend amusement parks are full of kids, and Ye Yao entered the park with Lu Xun, surrounded by kids and couples.

Probably because he and Lu Xun are quite good-looking and the kids don't know how to hide it, many of them stared at them and waved "bye-bye" to them before walking away.

Ye Yao was infected by the childish atmosphere, and a smile colored the bottom of his eyes, "Kids are quite cute."

Lu Xun next to me frowned, "But we're not going to have kids."

Ye Yao: "......"

Lu Xun came up with the solution, "But we can adopt as many as you like."

Lu Xun frowned again, "I don't like children though."

Ye Yao : "...... I think you're thinking too far ahead."

Lu Xun was half tempted to think far ahead, but instead of going on about the subject, he stopped as he and Ye Yao walked to a place.

"Wait here for me." Lu Xun said.

Ye Yao is unsure, but stops and stands still.

As he waited, several people playing big dolls walked past him, followed by a group of chattering children.

Ye Yao quietly watched the big doll and the little friend leave, he didn't make a sound, so no one would stop for him, and no one would know what was on his mind.

With a sudden weight on his shoulders, Ye Yao turned his head to see a large furry paw.

Ye Yao: "?"

Ye Yao turned around and saw that behind him stood a huge doll bear.

The bear is fluffy and round, his fur is soft and touchable at first glance, and he looks cartoonish and dreamy holding two twinkling balloons in his other hand.

Ye Yao, a big man, was adored by the bear, not to mention the other kids.

A little boy rushed up, "Bear, can I touch the fur on you?"

"No." A lazy male voice came out of the bear's head, the voice Ye Yao knew best.

The large bear's head turned toward Ye Yao and looked at him with a smile in its voice.

"I'm his exclusive bear and will only let him touch it."