Chapter 108: Dismissed

Qiao Lan has been posting for quite some time.

Sad yes, angry yes, but otherwise nothing more.

Not even a disappointment.

Qiao Lan thought for a long time about why she was even disappointed, and after thinking about it for a long time Qiao Lan realized that, for Tan Mo, there were some emotions she was not born with.

She thought for a long time, thought a lot, thought about why Tan Mo lied to her, why he lied to her alone, she could have gone to Tan Mo and questioned him directly, but Qiao Lan gave up as soon as she thought about that scene.

She couldn't afford to give it up.

I can't bear to see Tan Mo pretending to be calm when she confronts him with his obvious panic and helplessness, and I can't bear to see him in an even worse mood because of his own emotional ramblings.

She clearly just wanted him to be happy and blissful.

In fact, the reason here, is not difficult to guess, in front of other people can maintain the most primitive and most real appearance, but in front of her pretending to be a different picture, in the final analysis, but also just care.

Because he didn't care about other people, didn't care about what they thought or what was in their hearts, so he didn't need to hide it, even if he was disliked and hated by them, he wouldn't care at all; but because he cared about her, he always suppressed himself and hid some of the truest things, pretending to be what he thought she would like.

Yes, he thought Qiao Lan would like it.

For example, to hide his terrible possessiveness, but in front of her to pretend to be light; Another example does not want her to think too much, pretend to have no darkness and happy appearance.

Does Qiao Lan like this Tan Mo?

Don't like it.

Qiao Lan never cared about those behaviors that were considered "weird" and "sick" by other people, she felt sorry for his tragic past and his inferiority complex because he was different from other people.

Having known Tan Mo since he was at his lowest ebb, Qiao Lan has seen his darkest side; having known him for more than a thousand days and nights, Qiao Lan loves him for his original and most genuine side.

Tan Mo was different from the rest when he first fell in love with him. He had Asperger's at the time, couldn't even stand up, was moody and suspicious, and sometimes couldn't communicate at all, but Qiao Lan just liked him more and more.

Tan Mo The name, long ago, had been etched into the flesh and blood, his good his bad, she would accept it all, this to be true.

So why would Tan Mo think that this perfect look he's putting on in disguise is what makes her like him more?

Because that's what Qiao Lan wants.

Tan Mo doesn't pretend in front of other people because he doesn't care, but he still stays in school and remains a normal person, all because Qiao Lan cares.

Because she puts him in school, exposes him to his classmates, lets him meet his friends, lets him be a so-called "normal" person, and because of her smart-ass claims, Tan Mo thinks she wants him to be perfect.

He wanted to become more like her so he could keep her with him forever.

You knew he had Asperger's, didn't you, and you knew he would never be cured, so why did you force him to change? Until now, Qiao Lan realizes that she has walked into a misunderstanding, she wants other people to like Tan Mo and identify with him, she wants those people to know that he is good, but she has used the wrong way, and what is even more wrong is that this is not what Tan Mo wants at all.

The source of all the evil that made Tan Mo what she is is nothing more than her.

The moment all the sources were clear, Qiao Lan 心口 hurt so much that it was hard to breathe.

Qiao Lan, do you realize what you've done?

Qiao Lan took out his cell phone and clicked on Tan Mo's WeChat box, probably because he wanted to say something, but when he saw the chat logs on the top, he simply scrolled up to take a look.

As she flipped through the pages, Qiao Lan's hand stopped.

On Wednesday, the 9th, Xie Hongyi said that after that day, Tan Mo became very angry, and the reason was so obvious.

She and Tan Mo happened to talk a lot that day, and it was a text message, they had been discussing how to give Tan Mo a perfect eighteenth birthday, and after that, because she got a message from the group, after telling Tan Mo about her going to the club party on the eighteenth, Tan Mo was silent for a long time over there.

There was a gap of almost ten minutes before Tan Mo wrote back saying that he had just been discussing a problem with his roommate so he had been delayed for a while, and told her to have fun on the 18th.

It was so obviously wrong, why didn't she realize it at the time?

And after Tan Mo's simple explanation, and the phrase "let her have fun", she actually believed it, if it was before Qiao Lan could definitely find out.

Is Tan Mo getting better at acting, or is she getting retarded?

Both, I guess, but maybe more for the latter reason.

She vaguely recalled a few nights ago, while kissing Tan Mo, and it was at that moment she realized that it had been a long time since they had kissed, and now that she thought about it again, how long it had been since she had said I like you so much to him every day out of habit, as she had done in high school.

She's really slowed down, and Tan Mo is such a sensitive person.

The sister in charge of club activities received a message from Qiao Lan, who said she was sorry, but she had no choice but to come to the party that day.

Club dinner is not a formal club work, do not come is not a big deal, but if it is Qiao Lan bar ......

After all, this kind of school flower level beauty is still very capable of mobilizing everyone's motivation, even though they all know that people have boyfriends.

So she tries to persuade Qiao Lan, but she says it's very important, so she can't go.

Well, there was nothing she could do about it, so she spoke to Qiao Lan for a few more minutes before turning to Ji Su, saying that there was a change in the number of students that had been confirmed, and that one of the students couldn't make it.

You don't really need to talk to Ji Su about this kind of thing, but Ji Su was practically treating her this time, so Pei Beijia talked to Ji Su about it anyway.

It took Ji Su a while to write back, [which]

[Qiao Lan], Pei Beijia said, and feared that Ji Su, I don't know who described it again, [the very pretty schoolgirl].

Ji Su was quick to return this time.

[Causes]

[No, just that something came up and he couldn't make it.]

[Going to ask for clarification]

Pei Beijia stared at the line and froze for a long time.

Clubs to eat together just, people have said something, but not with the teacher to ask for leave to the end of the root of so clear, would have wanted to come to do not want to come to do not come to things, the previous clubs have eaten together how many times, did not see Ji Su to ask for the reasons why other people do not come ah.

If it were anyone else, they would probably just listen to Ji Su and ask, but not Pei Beijia, and from what she knew of Ji Su, this was another thing that was out of the ordinary.

The last time it wasn't normal was when Ji Su inexplicably dragged her along to watch the freshman interviews, and this time she was told to ask why people's little girls weren't coming.

Once the two were connected, Pei Beijia's expression changed slightly, and she hesitated for a moment before sending a message to Ji Su.

[You got a crush on this elementary school girl?]

Ji Su dared to show these abnormalities in front of her, so she didn't expect to hide them from Pei Beijia, and now that Pei Beijia finally asked, Ji Su answered simply that it was true.

Pei Beijia is silent for a moment before typing, [People have boyfriends, Ji Su I don't believe you don't know that].

[Knowing that], Ji Su said, [I'm not the one who got Luo Man in.]

Pei Beijia at first did not react, Qiao Lan has a boyfriend and Luo Man has nothing to do with, and when all figured out, steep out of a cold sweat.

Ji Su of course knows that Qiao Lan has a boyfriend, not only does she have a boyfriend, but he is also an exceptionally good guy, and some seniors have expressed their feelings for Qiao Lan before, so Qiao Lan always tells everyone that she has a boyfriend, and alienates those guys who have ideas about her.

That's why Ji Su got Luo Man into the Psychology Club.

As long as he didn't treat them too differently, no one would ever find out what he had in mind for Qiao Lan, and she wouldn't have even thought of it on that level if Ji Su hadn't intentionally let her know.

If everyone can't find out, then Qiao Lan won't find out, and if Qiao Lan won't find out, then she won't be alienated.

Pei Beijia felt her hands shaking a bit as she typed one by one, [ Ji Su, don't act like a crazy person, okay?]

[Why get so excited?] Ji Su is comfortable, [I don't want to do anything for the time being.]

Pei Beijia looked at this man's calm and collected appearance, she was really a bit angry, [ Ji Su, I advise you not to be so confident, others Tan Mo is not inferior to you, be careful of overturning the boat in the gutter one day].

She actually had something even more outrageous to say, she wanted to say that I now think you're just as mentally ill and crazy as your parents, but the words didn't come out in the end.

Poking people's scars was something she still couldn't do.

On the other hand, Qiao Lan, after rebuffing her schoolmates, re-planned the weekend.

With an extra day, Qiao Lan instantly felt more generous with her time, realizing with hindsight that going out to dinner with her fellow alumni really wasn't any more appealing than going out with Tan Mo on the weekends.

What's the game?

Qiao Lan opens up the mecca of dates saved from the last memo, House of Horrors, want to go, amusement park, also want to go, oceanarium, well, still want to go.

Want to go then all go!

What about two days? That's a lot of places to go.

Qiao Lan spent more than an hour checking when these places had the most traffic, avoiding the most crowded times, and finally put together a date plan.

After reading the plan back and forth twice in satisfaction, Qiao Lan pulls out her small notebook with a mischievous flourish when the two of them finish dinner in the afternoon.

Tan Mo glanced at Qiao Lan and took the little book.

Though Qiao Lan didn't say what it was, Tan Mo could still tell, and Tan Mo stared at the 6 p.m. slot on Saturday for a long time, "I thought we were having a potluck?"

Tan Mo swore that he had tried to control his tone so that he didn't seem too happy.

"I thought about where it would be more fun to sit at a potluck with a bunch of people I don't know very well than to go on a date with my boyfriend."

Tan Mo couldn't even hold back this time if he wanted to, and no one knew how much he rejoiced to hear it after so many days of mourning.

Qiao Lan looked at the smile on Tan Mo's lips and reached out to pinch Tan Mo's handsome face.

Should have been like this a long time ago, happy to smile not happy to not smile, so real and full of only her teenager, really let her too like.