Chapter 49: The Way Back

At the weekend, Qiao's father and Qiao's mother came to visit, and after talking with Qiao's mother, they went to Qiao Lan's room, which was now almost an unused room for piling up things.

Qiao's mother bit her lip and went to the kitchen to help Qiao's mother cook, and when the family sat down to eat, she asked Qiao's mother, "Mom, Lanlan hasn't been in touch with his family?"

"Contact what", Qiao's mother tone instantly became not so good, "I last time even called her class teacher to give me a call back, but the result is no news, do not love to come back, never come back, when one day starve to death can not afford to want to come back I do not want. "

Qiao Yuan gnawed on a piece of spare ribs and snatched the words indistinctly, "I'm not starving, my third sister won the first grade last semester and got a scholarship of 5,000 yuan."

Mrs. Qiao spat at the opportunity, "Raising such a big boy has brought up a white-eyed wolf, who can't remember his family when he has some benefits."

"Yes", Qiao Yuan agreed as he wiped his oily hands, remembering the last field day, he just wanted Qiao Lan to go with him to meet his classmates, but Qiao Lan refused to go, causing him to be laughed at by many in the class, and in the end, he spent two hundred dollars to treat a bunch of people to dinner.

Speaking of which, Qiao Yuan suddenly remembered something, grabbed his chopsticks and asked Qiao's mother, "Mom, have you seen your third sister again this semester?"

"Haven't seen", it's been half a year since I've seen Qiao Lan, but Qiao's mother's attitude doesn't show any worry, as if Qiao Lan is not her own child.

Qiao Yuan is a bit excited, "You have not seen me see, she has changed a lot, the whole person is different from before."

How is it different?

"Become beautiful chant, especially beautiful, I almost did not recognize, when the school to choose the school flower to choose her people especially, a few days ago the school a family quite rich boys also send flowers to her, the whole school know."

Qiao's mother was finally interested when she heard this.

After dinner, Qiao Yuan took Qiao's mother's cell phone and found the attached middle school's posting bar, and found a picture of Qiao Lan at the sports meet that had once been a hit on the posting bar.

"Look at you, I almost didn't recognize you."

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In the new week, Qiao Lan and Tan Mo switched seats to the seat in front of Bai Yu.

Bai Yu was at the same table with another boy, who used to be in the same class in the first year of high school, and I heard that they were still very good friends, with the same big personality, and Bai Yu was like a pair of brothers.

The two of them welcome the "God of Learning" in an over-exaggerated tone of voice, and Qiao Lan grabs him by the arm and reminds him that he's not the one who's going to be the one who's going to be the God of Learning.

"Smile."

The teenager froze slightly, his delicate yet cold features staggering for a split second before smiling.

The two in the back row had never seen Tan Mo with any other expression, let alone such a good-looking smile, Bai Yu covered his heart and grabbed Qiao Lan exaggeratedly, "Beauty storm!"

Tan Mo probably never encountered this kind of excessive and exaggerated closeness, for a moment did not know how to react, Qiao Lan whispered in his ear, "I have long told you that you look good when you smile, I didn't lie to you, right?"

Tan Mo looked back at her again, and for a moment even his eyes were smiling.

But Tan Mo's smile has always been different from other people's, not in the sense that she smiles when she's happy, but when she feels that it's the right moment to smile after a short and quick analysis.

That's why even Qiao Lan sometimes can't understand what's hidden behind Tan Mo's smile.

I don't know Tan Mo now looks at her one more time, talks to her one more time, and struggles with the torture of those two words.

How do you deserve it, how dare you.

When he was alone, he held his cell phone for a long time before struggling to type in "disabled".

Admitting that I'm a disabled person, physically disabled, mentally disabled, and yet I like someone.

In the difficult to enter the "disabled" three words, and then carefully enter the "like" two words, and then click on the search, but just look at a glance, Tan Mo chest is still bloody wounds a moment and was stabbed a knife.

The big bright headline underneath reads, I like someone, but disabled people were never supposed to have love and ***.

Tan Mo Suddenly closed his eyes, the cell phone dropped on the table, leaned on the back of the wheelchair for a long time, finally picked up the cell phone again.

He tried to find some different voices in what these people were saying, but he spent almost an hour looking at the whole answer to read through it and couldn't find a counter argument.

He's seen so many, but none of the normal and disabled people end up happily together, and even those couples who start out by sticking together despite their family's objections end up in tragedy in later years.

As one girl said, she once had a blind boyfriend, she loved him so much, she once broke all ties with her family for him, she thought that such a love must last forever.

But then, she only lasted three years.

It's too hard, she says, and sometimes when she can't hold out she asks herself over and over again why she has to be so tired, why she can't live a normal life like a normal person.

She was a normal person once.

Many people from the beginning of the doubt, do not know the disabled should not fall in love with normal people, with the passage of years, the increasingly serious body, and thousands of pressure when the disabled can be as normal people to resist, to give her beloved a tomorrow, and finally got the answer to the disappointment over and over again.

Tan Mo desperately and anxiously tries to find a case of happiness, to find a possibility of happiness that is enough to make him not so desperate, and finally at the end he sees someone saying that he has found love, but by the time he finishes reading it, Tan Mo only feels even more desperate.

Someone said she once met a very pretty and nice boy who couldn't talk, but he was so good that years later he got married to a very pretty but equally non-verbal girl.

Some people use the simplest but cruelest way to say, the dragon with the lobster with the shrimp, their own dysfunction, for their own sake as well as for the sake of others, it is better to similarly find a dysfunctional person, to lower the standards, the need to be more extravagant.

Yes, they call that word extravagance.

For a moment, Tan Mo wondered if he could really get back on his feet if he actually went to therapy, but when he sobered up, he realized abruptly that it was all self-deception.

Some people are disabled in their limbs, some in their minds, but the disability of the mind is more frightening than the mutilation of the limbs.

Even if he got up and looked like a normal person, he understood better than anyone how horribly crippled he was in mind and spirit.

Tan Mo suddenly understands the meaning of the last two lines of a verse he once didn't understand.

I could have lived with the darkness.

If I never see the sun

Yet the sun has made me desolate

Become renewed desolation

When there is salvation in life, she brings him warmth and light, for having seen the beauty of the sunshine, he can never go back to loneliness and darkness, but the sunshine doesn't manage to save him from the darkness, instead, he begs for more, and everything becomes a luxury.

In the two language classes on Wednesday afternoon, the language teacher showed a world classic movie to the audience, "Scissorhands Ai Dehua".

Ask to watch the movie carefully and hand in a copy of the aftermath to her afterward.

Ai Dehua, a robot created by an inventor who lives in an old castle, accidentally collapses and dies one Christmas when the inventor is about to equip Ai Dehua with a Christmas present for him, a pair of human hands, so instead of normal human hands, Ai Dehua has sharp scissors.

He is brought home by Peg and falls in love with the beautiful Kim, but eventually is questioned in the town and goes back into hiding in the old castle.

Ai Dehua, because he is a monster, has feelings for Jin that come entirely from temperament, with no utilitarianism, all about other people's disputes. He can go to do yard art for Jin, use his scissor hands to knead food for other people to eat, put up with the temptations of his neighbors, and even cover up his conscience and hide the truth to steal for her.

Kim asks him why.

Ai Dehua said, "Because you asked me to."

This world-renowned classic movie, full of regrettable ending, "I picked up the scissors can not embrace you, put down the scissors can not protect you" such touching lines, so that many girls in the class were in tears, and their most is no more than to Ai Dehua's heartache, to protect their beloved but misunderstood, the feeling of powerlessness but can only The feeling of powerlessness, but only able to run away.

Most of the thoughts expressed in the afterthoughts handed in that day were pretty much the same, a diatribe against human nature, against social indifference.

The language teacher chose the best points to project in class for all to see, and someone wrote that the

"Deep love does not have to be together to be a good ending, even if the parting is sad even if they are strangers afterward, now remembering, I am still glad that you remembered me as I was before, and will always be the most beautiful as I was when I was young."

Ai Dehua will always remember Kim at her best, but Tan Mo will never understand.

He didn't tell anyone else, and at the end of the movie, when Ai Dehua returned to the old castle alone, and Jin had his own life and got married and had a child, Tan Mo felt that if he were Ai Dehua, he would probably choose to die.

Love never had two answers in his world, either one hundred percent or zero.

Teachers don't ask Tan Mo for homework, but this time Tan Mo also wrote an afterword, only he didn't give it to the teacher. He watched his classmates criticizing the society, but he recalled the pain he shared with Ai Dehua when he wrote this afterword.

Everyone says it's social indifference, but Tan Mo writes that it's because the other is not allowed.

Just like Ai Dehua, just like him.

While Ai Dehua has a pair of scissorhands unlike any human, he has two legs that can't stand, and a brain that can't comprehend emotions.

Ai Dehua used to be popular because of his scissor hands, but after falling in love with the female lead, he was rejected by everyone because of his hands; he was looked up to by everyone because of his intelligence that exceeded the norm, but if they learned that he also fell in love with an excellent girl, perhaps everyone would be like Xiang Xiaohan, who only felt weird and disgusting.

Ai Dehua's scissor hand is just a symbol, it represents alienation, alienation, he can't really think of it as a pair of scissors, that pair of scissors represents self-absorption, poverty, disability, and so on that normal people don't accept.

One day, many years later, he and Qiao Lan, just like Ai Dehua in the movie, one will be alone for the rest of their lives, and the other will have a life of their own after all.

Tan Mo closed her eyes for a long time without saying a word, and just like that, I don't know how long, Tan Mo tore the homework book into two halves and threw it into the garbage can, clenching her trembling hands tightly, and using all her strength to suppress all of her emotions in full.