Chapter 74: Awakening

Tan Mo clearly remembers that he once made a quiet birthday wish on his birthday two years ago.

At that time he was still a cripple who couldn't stand up, the first time he fell in love with someone, the first heartbeat and the ensuing low self-esteem filled his heart day and night, when Qiao Lan asked him what he wanted for his birthday, he and Qiao Lan shared the same earphone in the study class, listening to Yang Zongwei's "Just One Time", and he was so excited that he had to go to a study class with Qiao Lan, and then he was so excited that he was so excited that he had to go to a study class with Qiao Lan.

I want to see you laugh, I want to see you play, I want to hold you in my arms.

He listened to the song and made a birthday wish. He wanted a hug, a Qiao Lan hug.

But Tan Mo didn't dare to tell Qiao Lan about such a simple birthday wish.

That birthday was over, another birthday came and went, and now it's been a long time, two years since that wish, and Tan Mo finally knows what it feels like to hold Qiao Lan in her arms.

The girl's body was thinner and softer than he'd expected, the scent of her hair lingering at the tip of her nose, and her thin, soft hands wrapped tightly around his waist.

Tan Mo didn't dare move.

He remembered that when he was very young, people would often try to hug him, but the feeling of the hug made him stiff, and the touch that landed on his body was more than he could bear.

He refuses to be approached, rejects hugs as an expression of intimacy, but begins to look forward to it again and again when he meets Qiao Lan.

Qiao Lan's embrace still made him stiff, but it was so different from what he had felt before, because of the uncertainty, because of the disbelief, and because of the excitement, that Tan Mo even unconsciously wished that Qiao Lan's hand could be even stronger, that they could be even more inseparable from each other.

Tan Mo's hand slowly covered Qiao Lan's back, little by little, inch by inch, he pressed the person tightly against his chest, he buried his head, and carefully but uncontrollably placed his chin against Qiao Lan's shoulder.

This is the closest he's ever been to Qiao Lan in his life.

As soon as she turned her head, the tip of Tan Mo's nose could even brush past Qiao Lan's neck, and as soon as she lowered her head, her lips could kiss her white shoulders and neck, and the skin of the two of them pressed against each other was on fire.

Qiao Lan's voice was as soft as a murmur to herself, but Tan Mo still heard it.

Qiao Lan said Tan Mo how could you do this.

Tan Mo's hand around her waist suddenly tightened, and when he was at a loss for words, he thought Qiao Lan was blaming him, but Qiao Lan continued, "If you are like this, what will I do in the future, what will I do if I can't stay away from you..."

As she spoke, the girl's cheek buried in his neck rubbed against his skin, cool from the cold, and Tan Mo's hot body, and Tan Mo felt all his tight self-control wiped away for a moment, and blurted out.

"Then never leave."

Qiao Lan said, "How can that be, you don't know what I'm thinking, you don't know what I'm thinking, you'll grow up, when you grow up you'll meet someone you really like...". Qiao Lan subconsciously wanted to say this, but she stopped the moment she opened her mouth.

Qiao Lan's fingertips as she wrapped her arms around Tan Mo trembled gently, as if she was ashamed because of the evil thoughts that had sprung up in her own mind at this very moment, yet she couldn't help but continue to think that way.

Tan Mo will grow up and understand, and when he grows up and understands he will meet someone he likes and wants to spend his life with.

But...

If if there must be such a person...

Why couldn't this person be her.

He is still small she can slowly accompany him to grow up, he does not understand she can teach him little by little, he can not be forever just a person, he said "then never leave", that he also hope that she can be with him all the time, is not it.

Although Tan Mo's feelings are not the same as hers, but the idea of being with each other and not wanting to be separated is the same. Tan Mo said that they are going to take the entrance exams for a city and a university together, and that they can still be like this in the future, and that everything is possible, isn't it?

Even though he is very comfortable in front of other people, he is always at a loss for words in front of Qiao Lan. He regrets that he has been stubbornly fond of her to the bone, but he can't help but anticipate what Qiao Lan will say in response. Tan Mo blurted out his true thoughts, which brought him to his senses, and the fact that Qiao Lan's response was not forthcoming after a long time made Tan Mo's already apprehensive heart go into an even greater tizzy.

But just then, Tan Mo heard the soft answering voice of the girl in his ear, and she said.

"Good."

Tan Mo says then never leave, and Qiao Lan says okay.

Qiao Lan could feel the hand around her waist tighten after she said "yes", so tight that it even hurt a little.

Qiao Lan pressed herself against the teenager's chest, only then realizing with hindsight that her hands holding Tan Mo had long since frozen to the ground.

She went downstairs in a hurry, wearing the thin jacket she wore in the dormitory, and now the sky is drifting snowflakes, just now the mood is too excited not to notice, and only now she feels that her body is already frozen through.

Qiao Lan subconsciously wanted to let go of Tan Mo and let Tan Mo go back as usual, but her mind was in a different state than before, and with the unspeakable shame and guilt of seducing a child, Qiao Lan suddenly whispered.

"Momo, I'm cold."

Tan Mo wondered if he had been so excited by Qiao Lan's response that he had gotten the wrong impression, or else he would have heard a hint of a petulant tone in Qiao Lan's "Momo".

The second batch of students who had been studying in the evening came back one after another, and each of them inevitably glanced at Qiao Lan and Tan Mo as they passed by.

Tan Mo blocked the others' view with his body as he carefully identified Qiao Lan's phrase I am cold.

Qiao Lan says she's cold, so shouldn't he let go of her so she can go upstairs and get some rest, but Tan Mo can't let go of her, and with hugs like this, he doesn't know when he'll get the next one.

Tan Mo suddenly recalled a movie clip that he had seen somewhere, and because of Qiao Lan's sentence "good", he pulled open his coat and covered Qiao Lan in it, and wrapped the girl's hands around himself through the coat, and this time he wrapped them more intimately around his waist.

The students passing by who happened to have a good view of everything couldn't help but exclaim, and Bai Yu, who was hiding in the balcony to watch the fun, even covered his mouth and shouted, "Crap."

At the end of the day, Tan Mo was still dizzy when he went back.

Don't look at the "hooligan" when bold, no one knows that at that moment his heart is very nervous, afraid that Qiao Lan directly pushed him away.

They say the moonlight makes the heart grow fuzzy, and snowy nights are just as overwhelming.

Qiao Lan in the end did not push him away, she even very good behavior to let him hold, no struggle not uncomfortable, and finally smiled with him to say goodbye to let him safely to the home to send WeChat to her.

She didn't dislike it, and she wasn't unhappy, Tan Mo thought.

And did he like it? Did he feel happy?

Tan Mo doesn't know.

Tan Mo couldn't guess what Qiao Lan was thinking, he could only feel himself clearly. Once satisfied with just a hug, now he just got it and is looking forward to the next one, and maybe one day when there is a next one, he still won't be satisfied, and will even crave for it more.

Longing for hugs, longing for kisses, even longing for something more intimate.

Tan Mo even felt his whole body start to tremble at the thought.

People are always insatiable, and when they get one thing, they begin to crave for other things, and such thoughts cannot be quenched, and they become more and more intense.

Tan Mo sat in the car, thinking back on every touch and every word of the night, and finally resting his thoughts on the "good".

Qiao Lan promised him that she would never leave him.

Before this she even said, Tan Mo what if you're like this and she can never leave him.

At that time, he answered too quickly to think about the other meanings in those words, but now when I think about it, it's just that Qiao Lan has gradually begun to be more and more inseparable from him.

The bond between the two is mutual, and just as Tan Mo is inseparable from Qiao Lan, Qiao Lan is gradually becoming inseparable from him.

In that case, could he not make her more dependent on himself, make her more inseparable from him, so that until the end, could he not keep her by his side forever?

Tan Mo Suddenly clenched his fists.

He shouldn't have thought that way. He's a mentally crippled man who shouldn't have tied Qiao Lan to himself in the first place.

But God knows how much he wanted to do it.

Tan Mo took a deep breath, and with great difficulty suppressed all the lust that had risen since today.

Uncle Chen looked at Tan Mo several times in the rearview mirror, Tan Mo's expression tonight was too rich, Uncle Chen was sure that something must have happened, but Tan Mo didn't say anything, so Uncle Chen could only shift the topic back to other irrelevant things.

For example, Qiao Yuan, who has already undergone successful surgery.

"The kidney source has just been replaced and is still under observation, and it will be at least a month before he is discharged fully and normally."

"Uh-huh," Tan Mo said, lightening up as she turned her attention away.

"You're going to call Tancheng once more tomorrow."

Uncle Chen: "......"

That's your father...

But thinking about the fucked up things that Tan Mo had done, Uncle Chen didn't say anything and asked Tan Mo what he was looking for Tan Mo for.

"Same trick as last time, this time checking out that little restaurant in Qiao's family."

Uncle Chen froze, checking Qiao's family's small restaurant?

Even if we don't check, Uncle Chen can guarantee that the hygiene of that small restaurant is definitely not up to standard, and that the parents who taught Qiao's second sister are definitely not decent businessmen. Tan Mo said that he was checking Qiao's father and Qiao's mother's restaurant, but what he implied was that, just like the Luo family before him, he would withdraw the license of Qiao's family couple and make their business untenable.

While I can understand Tan Mo's approach.

"Wouldn't that drive the couple to desperation, and then they'd have no choice but to come back to Qiao Lan again? Qiao Yuan's post-operative recovery, hospitalization fees plus medication costs absolutely 200,000 can not beat, I see that they are now already stretched to the limit, and those two mouths and not much insight, I think there is a real possibility of turning back to continue to look for Lanlan ..."

"It's just to get him going," Tan Mo fades.

He was worried they wouldn't have enough guts not to go.

Uncle Chen realized what Tan Mo meant in a flash.

Tan Mo once said that he would spend hundreds of thousands of dollars to buy Qiao Lan a clean slate, but he didn't say hundreds of thousands of dollars to help Qiao Yuan cure a disease and then give Qiao Lan a clean slate.

Even if hundreds of thousands of dollars went down the drain, it was far more comfortable than actually helping Qiao Yuan.

Qiao's family those people, but also absolutely not can be a few words can be really heart of the people, must be greedy so clearly written in the face, he never thought to let Qiao's family people so comfortable, that kidney, Tan Mo also never wanted to let it in Qiao Yuan's body to stay too long.