I don't know if I'm going to live or die

With these words, Ji Su instantly came to his senses.

Never turn back even after hitting the south wall, that's what he said to Gu Zhao in his capacity as Mengmeng.

Ji Su steadied herself and drew back her fingers with all her might.

This time the hand was withdrawn, but the force used was too great, and accidentally the whole person fell backward.

Ji Su let out a cry of surprise, but fortunately a big strong hand clasped his waist in time and brought him back to his feet.

The two bodies fell onto the soft sofa in unison, and for a moment neither of them moved.

Ji Su's forehead was pressed against the hard chest, and the sound of his heart beating violently passed through his skin to his bloodstream, surged into his limbs, and finally converged at the tip of his heart.

The heartbeats began to resonate in the same frequency.

Gu Zhao heaved a heavy breath and raised a hand to run it down his lean spine.

Su Ji suddenly sprang up like an electric shock, pushed him away, and took several steps back from the couch: "I'm going back to the dormitory, you take care of yourself!"

With that, he turned and walked briskly toward the door.

But Gu Zhao was faster than he was, and like a cheetah ready to strike, he blocked his path with a swift and unobtrusive movement.

Ji Su took several steps backward in a row, "What, what's wrong?"

"It's too late, it's not safe for you to go back alone." Gu Zhao stared at him with heavy eyes, "I'll sleep on the couch tonight, you sleep on the bed."

Ji Su was in a dilemma and could only compromise, "Then ...... then I'll go take a shower first."

He turned again and headed straight for the bedroom, locking himself in the bathroom and trying to calm his frantic heartbeat.

It's so sudden. Why did Gu Zhao suddenly confess to him?

How does a homophobic straight man suddenly fall for a homosexual?

Nope ......

Ji Su wrinkled her brow and looked at her face in the mirror.

The person Gu Zhao likes, is it really him?

That day in the restaurant, Gu Zhao described his ideal type, clearly according to Mengmeng's appearance.

But Mengmeng doesn't exist in real life, Mengmeng is a figment of his imagination.

So, is Gu Zhao confessing to him as Mengmeng tonight?

The hot blood calmed down and sanity returned.

After taking a shower, Ji Su stepped out of the bathroom and realized that Gu Zhao had fallen asleep on the sofa.

He stepped gingerly over to the couch and pulled the thin quilt that had been resting on it down, carefully covering the tall form.

You're still saying that you're not drunk, but you're actually drunk, aren't you?

Ji Su lay down on his bed and was about to turn off the light when he suddenly remembered that Gu Zhao said he liked to sleep with the light on, so he left a bedside lamp on.

That way the other person won't wake up in the middle of the night and be left in the dark.

Ji Su closed her eyes, ready to brew sleep.

After a long time, he rolled over.

Even though he rationally knew that those words were probably not meant for him, the low, magnetic voice still kept echoing in his head.

"Because I like you."

"Of course you can reject me, once or twice, a hundred times or a thousand times. But I'm not going to give up on you just because you reject me."

......

Ji Su raised his hands over his ears, trying to ward off the pervasive voices in his head by counting sheep.

*

The next morning, Ji Su is awakened by his biological clock to find that he is the only one left in the room.

He slowly recalled everything that had happened last night, and it still felt magical.

Ji Su got up and out of bed and shuffled around before quietly opening the door and peering into the living room.

Gu Zhao is sitting at the dining table, his large, bony hand is holding a glass of water.

Ji Su was lying on her back behind the door, hesitating, when the voice that had been in her dreams all night rang true in her ears.

"Awake?" Gu Zhao didn't even lift his eyes, "Come and have breakfast."

Ji Su bit her lower lip and pretended to walk over as if nothing had happened, "Good morning."

Gu Zhao looked up, "Good morning."

Ji Su was secretly relieved that he hadn't behaved any differently than usual.

Although there was a vague hint of unspoken concern in the bottom of his heart, this bit of abnormality was deliberately ignored by him.

Gu Zhao was probably really drunk last night, and nothing he said should count.

After breakfast, the two of them took a cab back to school together.

The architecture and law faculties are not in the same direction, so Gu Zhao dropped him off at the entrance to the building, "Lunch together?"

"That ......" Ji Su hesitated and asked tentatively, "Do you remember, you drank too much last night?"

"Not drunk." Gu Zhao looked at him and said in a quiet tone, "I remember every word I said, especially the words 'I like you'."

Ji Su: "!"

Gu Zhao lifted his hand and smoothed his shirt collar with a natural motion, "Go to class, I'll see you later."

Ji Su turned around on all fours and took one step up the steps.

He spent the rest of the morning in a state of delirium.

This state of absence was soon discovered by Qiao Jin.

"Susu, what's wrong with you?" After class, Qiao Jin approached me with concern, "Why have you been so distracted all morning?"

Ji Su wanted to say, "I ......"

"What's going on?" Qiao Jin prodded, "Did something happen at Gu Zhao's house?"

Ji Su shook her head, "Nothing, just didn't get much rest last night."

The matter of Gu Zhao confessing his love to him was so scary that he hadn't even sorted out his own thoughts yet, and talking about it would rather complicate things.

Qiao Jin became nervous: "Why didn't you rest well? Did Schoolmaster Gu Da do something to you?"

Ji Su: "......"

Qiao Jin began to shake his arm, "Tell me, tell me!"

"It's nothing really, he went to bed drunk last night." Ji Su avoided the question and returned vaguely, "It was my own insomnia."

Qiao Jin believed it, "Okay, then you have a good night's sleep tonight."

Ji Su's head grew big again at the thought that someone was waiting for him in the cafeteria, "I want to go back to my dorm and sleep now."

Qiao Jin : "Go back to the dormitory and sleep, I'll bring you food."

In order to avoid Gu Zhao, Ji Su didn't go to the cafeteria for lunch.

However, you can't hide from the first day, but you can't hide from the fifteenth day.

After class in the afternoon, Ji Su packed her bag as fast as she could without even waiting for Qiao Jin.

As a result, he had just stepped out of the school building when he caught a glimpse of that tall, familiar figure.

Gu Zhao stood at the bottom of the steps with one hand in his pocket, expressionless but calm, as if he had everything under control.

Ji Su walked down the steps, "How did you know I had classes this afternoon?"

Gu Zhao faded back, "I memorized your class schedule."

Ji Su: "......"

Why don't you memorize a few more laws and regulations when you have the energy to memorize his class schedule?

"Just memorized it in passing." Gu Zhao seemed to read his mind, "And not for a few lessons."

"How?" Ji Su couldn't help but retort, "Our class schedule is clearly full."

Gu Zhao chimed in, "Well, it's pretty full."

Ji Su pursed her lips and silently walked forward quickly.

Gu Zhao opened his long legs and followed in a few big steps.

After walking for a while, Ji Su stopped and turned to face him, "Gu Zhao, are you serious?"

Gu Zhao returned, "I'm serious."

"But ......" Ji Su clenched his teeth and said with a flourish, "But you said I could say no."

"Well, I did say that." Gu Zhao took a step closer towards him, "I said you could refuse, I didn't say you could run away."

Ji Su can't help but step back, "I didn't run away ......"

"Then don't avoid me." Zhao Gu locked him with those dark, sunken eyes, "You don't have to promise me right now that everything between us is the same as it was before, except for the fact that you know I like you."

Ji Su was a bit confused, "How can that be the same?"

Gu Zhao asked rhetorically, "How can it not be the same?"

Ji Su blinked his eyelashes and suddenly an important thought occurred to him, "I'm straight and you're straight, there's no way we can be together."

"Oh?" Gu Zhao asked him, "Have you ever had a girlfriend?"

Ji Su: "No."

Gu Zhao: "So do you have a favorite woman now?"

Ji Su: "No."

Gu Zhao laughed a little, "So how do you know you're straight?"

Ji Su: "......"

He forgot that the person standing in front of him was a law student, and if he wasn't careful, he could fall into the trap of his opponent's logic.

"Look, the odds of you being gay and straight are at least fifty-fifty." Gu Zhao concluded slowly, "So that doesn't make it a barrier between us."

Ji Su opened his mouth, but he was speechless for a moment.

He always felt something was wrong, but couldn't grasp the thought.

"Hungry?" Gu Zhao lifted his hand and took his book bag, "Go, take you to eat something delicious."

In a blur, Ji Su was taken to a private restaurant.

Gu Zhao says it's the same as before so it really is, taking care of him in every way.

After dinner, the two walked side by side.

The early summer evening breeze carried a hint of coolness, blowing Ji Su's dazed brain a little clearer.

It's not right, no matter how you think about it.

One's sexuality can't just change, and Gu Zhao can't go from homophobic straight to gay overnight.

The only explanation is that Gu Zhao transferred his obsession with Mengmeng to him, treating him as Mengmeng's ......

Alternative.

Since you can't hide from it, you'll have to change your tactics a bit.

Ji Su made up her mind and asked softly, "Gu Zhao, can I sleep at your house tonight?"

Gu Zhao stumbled to his feet and looked at him with a sideways glance, "Are you sure?"

"OK." Ji Su eyed ahead, "I remember this is pretty close to your house, right?"

"Uh-huh." Gu Zhao answered, "Let's go."

There's no reason to turn away a lamb that comes to your door of its own accord.

*

He left here in a hurry only in the morning and came back of his own accord in the evening.

Only this time, Ji Su is back with a mission.

Gu Zhao walked past him and headed for the kitchen, "Something to drink?"

Ji Su was full of his own plans, "Whatever."

Gu Zhao opens the fridge, "Nothing called random."

Ji Su walks over, "Mineral water then."

Gu Zhao took out a bottle of mineral water, unscrewed the cap and handed it to him, "Play by yourself for a while, I'm going to take a shower first."

"Good." Ji Su took the mineral water, "You go ahead."

While Gu Zhao was taking a shower, he sat on the sofa and sent a message to Qiao Jin.

Ji Su : [Xiao Qiao, I'm not going back tonight either.]

Qiao Jin: [???]

Qiao Jin: [Ji Su, you've been having a lot of problems lately, how many nights have you stayed out?]

Ji Su: [Last night, I promise.]

Qiao Jin: [Going to Gu Zhao's house again?]

Ji Su: [hmmm ......]

Qiao Jin: [I really think you two have been acting weird lately, honestly, what kind of shady deals are you making?]

Ji Su: [It's really not.]

Ji Su : [Don't talk about it, take an early rest.]

If it goes well, it'll end tonight and tomorrow they'll be back to their normal pattern of getting along.

Gu Zhao took a quick shower, and within a few moments he came out scrubbing his hair.

He was wearing those gray sweatpants again, his lean, firm upper body bare, showing off his pecs and abs in a big way.

Ji Su lowered her eyelashes and pretended not to see anything.

"What are you doing with your head down?" Gu Zhao's voice contained a hint of not-so-subtle amusement, "If you're straight, why don't you dare to look at me?"

"Who says I don't dare?" Ji Su raised her eyes defiantly, her eyes falling on her blocky abs, her eyes so determined that she looked like she wanted to join the party.

Gu Zhao walked towards him without a word, getting closer and closer, his beautiful smooth mermaid line almost disliking him.

Under his gaze, some sort of ghastly shape loomed beneath the gray sweatpants.

Quickly defeated, Ji Su got up and left the couch, "I'm going to take a shower too."

Gu Zhao was behind him, giving an impish laugh.

Ji Su closes the bathroom door, removes the clothes she's wearing, and turns the water temperature down a bit more than usual.

He tilted his face up and let the water wash over his cheeks.

Always trying to make everyone happy, but his only real friend, so far, is Qiao Jin.

He naively thought that Gu Zhao would be his second true friend, only to learn that the other man didn't feel the same way.

But no matter what the purpose, the good that had been done to him was real, and he didn't want to lose Gu Zhao as a friend just like that.

Well, he now has to find a way to make Gu Zhao see clearly that he and Mengmeng are not the same person at all.

The innocent and clingy pretty sister Mengmeng is fake and the real Ji Su is just a boring straight guy.

After turning off the shower, Ji Su dawdled in the bathroom for a while before finally overcoming her inner shame and uneasiness and opening the bathroom door.

It's nothing, everyone isn't used to walking around naked in the northern bathhouses, and usually in the dorms, the roommates don't really like to wear tops either.

As soon as Gu Zhao looks at his mediocre body, he will completely dismiss the idea of liking him as Mengmeng.

"I'm done." Ji Su walks out of the bedroom, her trailing voice drifting a little uncontrollably.

Gu Zhao was lying back and leaning against the bed reading a book when he heard the words and raised his eyes, his pupils suddenly tightening.

Ji Su stood in front of him, fully clothed in nothing but a pair of white panties.

The eyes were filled with white and pink snowy skin, like the finest quality of sheep's fat jade, emitting a glistening and translucent luster.

Beneath the flat, delicate collarbones, two pale pink spots on her chest quivered and stood up, not sure if it was due to the cold air or too much shame.

The snow-white waistline was thin and narrow, with two naturally beautiful waistlines extending to the edge of her panties.

The snug white panties struck a shallow flesh mark at the base of her thighs, so short that they couldn't even cover the red mole on the side of her leg, not to mention the long, straight legs that were so white they dazzled her eyes.

Gu Zhao The blood in his body froze for a second, and then in the next instant it burst out steeply, boiling magma rushing straight to his brain, and his dark pupils flushed a layer of scarlet red.

"I ......" Ji Su stood frozen in place, startled by the look in his eyes, "I just accidentally wet my shirt, can I have a new one?"

Gu Zhao did not make a sound, gold-rimmed glasses can not cover the fierce and vicious eyes, as if the next moment will pounce on the beast to tear the prey.

Instinctively sensing danger, Ji Su turned and tried to run back to the bathroom, stumbling in her panic.

The back groove was deep, white cotton panties tightly wrapped around the round and firm buttocks, and the two round and delicate waist nests were hidden.

If you were to pinch that thin waist with your big hand, your thumb would just sink into the waist socket and ......

"Really--" Gu Zhao clenched his back teeth, dirty and nasty words rolled and rolled between his lips and teeth, and finally only squeezed out four words, "Don't know how to die."