Lin Jian's heart suddenly skipped a beat.

A quiet afternoon in an old neighborhood, two teenagers sit side by side in silence, which is more like a silent stalemate due to a question that came out of nowhere a few minutes ago and was not very well timed.

Xu Yang's words were like a jagged stone, smashing impartially into the center of the lake in Lin Jian's heart, the force was not heavy, but it still caused ripples, messing up the depth of the spring water for no reason at all - yet it was precisely because of that that Lin Jian was able to catch a glimpse of the clues that had been hidden under the surface of the lake for a long time, which he himself could not even think of or understand. However, it was precisely because of this that Lin Jian was able to catch a glimpse of the clues that had been hidden under the surface of the lake for a long time and that he himself could not even think clearly or see clearly.

He couldn't control his thoughts, and almost instantly thought of the ridiculous wet dream he'd had earlier.

Lin Jian thought, "It's really like this - is it really like this?

"I'm sorry, it's me who took the liberty." After all, it was their first meeting, even if they felt that they were naturally compatible with Lin Jian, it was indeed a very inappropriate thing to poke at each other's most secret sexual orientation.

Xu Yang finally experienced a hint of embarrassment in Lin Jian's silence, he raised his hand to touch his nose and tried to bring the conversation back on track, "Or talk about me."

He stopped actively probing, and turned to casting stones, consciously handing over the proposal of attempting to make friends, can always be.

Lin Jian glanced at him, not responding, his expression probably looking like he was saying "whatever" again.

He had no preference for probing people's privacy, and helping out today was nothing more than just happening to meet up.

"Ah ...... where do I start ......" Xu Yang leaned back on the sofa, her limbs stretched out and completely relaxed, and said leisurely, "This is really a child. It's a long story. ......"

Lin Jian: "......"

The hiatus is open mouth ah.

"But if I have to say, I really have to start with Mother." Xu Yang pulls back a smile, her eyes inexplicably becoming hung-over and self-deprecating, "You should have heard about me after all this time of school, right?"

Lin Jian replied in a natural tone, "A little, not much."

"Geez, I don't have to tell you what it is." Xu Yang said, "Anyway, those people in the 14th middle school are always so uninspired, and the only thing that gets passed around is that I'm repeating my studies because I'm in love with a boy."

"I'm so fucking wronged!" After saying that, Xu Yang suddenly sat up straight, thumb to his face, swore: "Laozi is gay yes, but - I repeat not because of screwing, Laozi did not screw anyone ...... oh no, was Didn't get laid."

Lin Jian's eyelids involuntarily jumped, and looked at the person next to him with a complicated expression, not knowing whether to praise him with a sentence of "You are really frank" or to damage him with a sentence of "Then you are really a waste".

"I do like boys, I had a crush on a guy from the same school my junior year before, and my gut told me that it wasn't like he didn't mean that to me."

So if you're in love and he's interested, how come you didn't get it on - Lin Jian asked with a wink.

Xu Yang let out a laugh and said despondently, "It can't be helped, in the end, I still lost to pure love!"

Xu Yang and the boy although different classes, but are a member of an interest group, and then gradually developed, the relationship between the two gradually tasted, but after all, it is a teenage boy, teenage boy feelings into wine age, the sentiment of the hazy time, the two began to write letters - two letters a week, Wednesday interest group activities, exchange, and then take their own reply from each other on Friday to summarize. On Friday, when the summary, and then from each other to take their own reply letter.

--very childish and very innocent.

And the unexpected also appears in this twice-weekly correspondence.

The story goes that when the boy came home for the week off, his mom was trying to brush his bag and found the letter Xu Yang handed to the other guy the day before - and coincidentally, in the last letter, Xu Yang asked if they wanted to be together.

And then there is the general outbreak of heavenly thunder and earthly fire, the other parents to find teachers to find schools, hysterical and unforgiving, biting Xu Yang compulsion of their son, so that their children "astray".

If it is a normal early love, then let the parents take home education for a period of time, even if, after all, is the graduating class of students, the school consider measuring the most is still the child's academic, but on the contrary, the parties involved in this are two boys.

Xu Yang said, "It was in the principal's office, both classroom teachers, the grade level director and the principal were there, and in front of the parents, he didn't say a word, and I suddenly felt quite uninspired."

Lin Jian's brow furrowed slightly, "So?"

Xu Yang : "At that time, his parents meant that I had to leave the school, but we had those letters in plain sight, as long as not blind can see, this is not my head, so the school meant to stay together, to leave together."

But the other parent won't do it!

"Tsk, the last bar, I still have a soft heart." Xu Yang pinched the bridge of his nose, his smile faded a few points, "The key he looked at me at that time ...... hiss, just that one glance, I think ...... forget it, I'll be stupid so last time, anyway, my mom doesn't care about me, and even more Will not come to school to make trouble."

"......"

Lin Jian said, "I can't see that you still have the potential to be a saint of love.

"Hey, what's that look in your eyes?" Xu Yang suddenly laughed a little, "Are you curious why no one cares about me, and my family doesn't make a fuss even after such a big incident?"

Lin Jian: "Would you believe me if I said no?"

"Believe it or not, I am frank to this extent, also have to tell you ah!" Xu Yang very consciously continued, "My mom it ...... young with a person, no name, no points, gave birth to a me, my own father is quite bull, the name I will not say, after all, I'm not so familiar with, so many years has been outside to raise the two of us, in general, the kind of -- money, tube enough, but the home door does not allow to enter the state."

Lin Jian lowered his eyes and let out a soft laugh in the middle of the day, "Magnificent family grudges, it's quite complicated."

"Actually, it's not complicated at all." Xu Yang shrugged indifferently, "My mom has been so cautious for so many years, and she doesn't have the heart to fight for it, she just thinks that if she gave birth to me anyway, as long as he pays for it, it'll be fine - what's complicated is my half-brother who's a hoity-toity idiot."

When it comes to this three years older than himself all day do not know what to think of the brain pumping second generation, Xu Yang on the face of a toothache expression: "should be from the fourth grade, this goods know that there is my mother and I such a person exists, so began to three days and two days to find me trouble, when I was a child is a couple of days to shout a few classmates to snatch my bag tear my homework, and then grew up, on the Then when I grew up, I started looking for social punks to pick on me - I'm fucking pissed off, I always thought this guy was delusional, he didn't think I grew up so smoothly so that I could compete with him for the family business later on, did he?"

Lin Jian captured the point of this tirade in a second: "So this group of people today, he also found them?"

"Who else could it be?"

"Then you ......"

"Let them mess around, they won't dare to do anything to me." Xu Yang said, "And I don't know what kind of people this stupid young man finds every time, sometimes it's not certain who suffers."

"......"

Lin Jian was somewhat speechless, so he simply did not respond.

"But no matter what, I really have to thank you today." Xu Yang slowly collected the indifferent expression, looked sincere and said, "Then the same table ...... we are also considered not to fight, in the future ...... more instruction?" After saying that, he extended a hand to Lin Jian.

Lin Jian line of sight lowered, fell on the hand in front of him, half hooked the corner of his mouth, raised his hand and patted his palm, said in a faint voice: "Is this how not to fight is used? It's better to skip Sister Ran's class less in the future."

Teenage friendships always start unexpectedly, and for people like Lin Jian and Xu Yang, who are in two different worlds, to become friends is perhaps one of the most special kinds of destiny.

The lunch break was almost over, Lin Jian was ready to go back to school, and before he left, he asked Xu Yang, "Aren't you going to class this afternoon?"

"Tomorrow!" Xu Yang rubbed her already swollen shoulder and assured, "Starting tomorrow, I'll definitely wear the stars and the wind and the rain, and I won't miss a single lesson, and I'll aspire to be a good student, a real learner, just like my deskmate!"

Lin Jian looked at him without words for two seconds, shook his head and let out a lost laugh, turned around and walked away.

Before closing the door, Xu Yang suddenly revisited the old story and stood in the doorway and shouted at Lin Jian's back as he descended the stairs, "Hey buddy!"

"Hmm?" Lin Jian turned back.

"You're ...... really good at this, aren't you?" Xu Yang said.

Lin Jian looked at him with flat eyes for two seconds and asked, "Do you have any difficult thoughts in this tone ...... of voice?"

"...... Crap!" Xu Yang froze for two seconds, shocked, "No no no no! I don't mean that, although I like guys, I never go after my buddies, friends are friends, much more reliable than boyfriends! Love is worthless in front of friendship!"

Lin Jian calmly asked, "So?"

Xu Yang rubbed his nose, seems to be for this and the next person to push the heart is also a little uncomfortable: "I just feel it ...... you this person seems to be in the heart of the things hidden too much, if the mouth closes so tightly and does not say anything, then some things will run out from the eyes. "

Lin Jian was slightly stunned.

"I just wanted to say this to you, that is ...... if there's anything or anything you want to say in the future but you don't know who to say it to, you can let me know, after all, I'm a year older than you, and it's kind of ...... that ......"

"What?"

"Come here man."

"......" Lin Jian froze briefly before a small smile slowly swept across his lips and he nodded, turning to head down the stairs.

"Roger that, thank you Tutor Xu."

*

After returning to school, Lin Jian was inconsolable throughout the afternoon and evening study sessions.

Even if others couldn't see it on the surface, he knew for sure that the unexpected conversation with Xu Yang at noon was like a pair of invisible hands that slowly and resoundingly pushed open the dusty dark door of his heart.

He stood in the doorway, looking in and out where the light and shadows met, hesitating and wandering.

Should I walk in and find out or not?

Are there really two worlds inside and outside the door?

And, who, exactly, was standing on that side of the door.

The senior class of the first middle school does not need to go to the second period of evening study, eight twenty, the school bell rang, Lin Jian simply packed up his things and went to the bus stop outside the school to wait for the bus to go home.

September night, the night breeze faded away the heat of the day, warm and cool blowing on the body, very comfortable.

It was eight forty-five when Lin Jian entered the courtyard, and when he looked up and saw the light on in the floor-to-ceiling window of the first-floor hall, Lin Jian obviously froze for a moment.

Auntie, who had previously worked as a bellhop in the house, offered not to renew her contract when it expired, because Lin Jian could take care of three meals a day at school after she went to high school, and because the young master was actually very capable of taking care of himself, Auntie felt that she really didn't have any use for her job, so she said that she wouldn't do it any more.

So Lin Jian comes home every day at this time and the house is dark.

And right now, with the bright, cozy light in the floor-to-ceiling windows, there's only one possibility--

For no reason at all, Lin Jian's heart suddenly beat wildly.

Deliberately slowing his pace, he walked up to the door and gave it a little push - it opened, and sure enough, it wasn't locked.

Shen Ke was wearing a black silk housecoat and was holding a pot of Maru Leaf Ebony in his hand, which looked like it had just been brought back from the "Falling Interest Garden" and was to be kept in the sunroom of the house.

Seeing Lin Jian standing in the doorway, Shen Ke stopped walking up the stairs, stood on the third step, smiled a little, and said, "It's not too late to come back."

Lin Jian only felt that his breathing had become a little short, and for a while he didn't know what to say.

It was the first time he had seen Shen Ke come home since the beginning of the school year.

"Why are you standing there, come in." Shen Ke muzzle naturally greeted him into the room, he carried the flowers to the upstairs, and as he walked, asked: "Dinner in the cafeteria?"

Lin Jian was able to come back to his senses from the confusion, just wanted to "hmm", turned to look at the tall and straight back, the words came to a halt and turned into a rhetorical question: "What about you?"

"Just got in, yet." Shen Ke's voice comes over from his spot in the sunroom, low and nice, with a little chuckle, and he asks, "How about, God Lin, a bowl of rice?"

Lin Jian puts her book bag on the couch, goes straight into the kitchen to wash her hands, and asks, "Are the little ravioli okay?"

The sound of footsteps came from far and near, it was Shen Ke who came over, standing at the kitchen door and seeing Lin Jian really want to scoop up the flour, he stopped with a smile, "Don't, what's the point of fussing in the middle of the night, I'll just cook some instant noodles."

Lin Jian one hand has already opened the flour storage box, sniffed disapprovingly frowned, the original words returned: "Do not, what to eat in the middle of the night noodles, afraid that they are not enough stomach pain?"

"Instant porridge then." Shen Ke was very good at talking and not picky, "I remember there's more at home, let's have that one."

Lin Jian still wanted to say something, but was stopped by Shen Ke's words "God Lin, do me a favor, I'm still hungry".

Seafood instant congee, even the gas does not need to be turned on, direct hot water brewing on the line, Lin Jian at most, freeze-dried pieces of ingredients from the packaging barrel into the home of the porcelain bowl.

During the five-minute wait, Lin Jian leaned against the kitchen counter and thought numbly - there are bubbles on both sides, so what's the difference between this and instant noodles?

Shen Ke went to the bathroom to wash his hands and saw Lin Jian still standing in the kitchen, looking at the bowl of congee with a bitter face, he couldn't help but feel amused and reached out to slap his arm, "Is this bowl growing legs and running?"

The cool touch on his arm was gone in a flash, and Lin Jian was stunned for a moment, turning his head with a "what kind of joke are you talking about" expression.

Shen Ke smiled and stepped forward, walking past him into the kitchen, casually asking, "Finished your homework? So idle here staring at a bowl of porridge."

Lin Jian : "...... Do you know what evening study halls in high school are for?"

"Then go take a shower first." Shen Ke didn't turn around, but there was still a vague smirk in his tone, "Don't you have to get up early tomorrow?"

Lin Jian said, "Here we go again--

This seems to be a very inexplicable catalytic reaction, especially when those chaotic voices and images at the bottom of Lin Jian's heart, whenever they are matched with Shen Ke's careless tone, will always make him feel annoyed for no reason, like two people are doing a set of test questions at the same time, but the one who can't understand the questions and can't solve the answers is only one of them.

The other side is always on cloud nine, not even asking for anything.

Lin Jian stood still, the words on his lips were almost about to come out, Shen Ke suddenly spoke out at this time: "If you're not sleepy, come over and have a bowl of congee with me in a while, after all, I just got off the plane and didn't even have the jet lag to reverse, and I immediately came back to appease the spirit of the newest Xiao Lin God, which is also quite touching, isn't it? "

"......" Lin Jian instantly closed his voice, opened his mouth, and failed to utter a syllable.

No wonder he didn't come back for so long. So he was dealing with overseas business.

And ...... just off the plane, immediately, back, appeasement, these words in series, especially when the object is himself, more Lin Jian long lost in thought.

"Wait for me."

In the middle of the day, Lin Jian raises his hand to rub his burning cheeks and without a word, quickly walks back to his room to take a shower.