You can always find me, in my most clueless and wretched moments.

Lin Jian took a few days off at home, and then it was time for the day trip to Linshi that he had arranged with his classmates.

This morning Shen Ke had a signing ceremony to attend, so he didn't go to the office. Before Lin Jian went out, he happened to meet Song Zhi who came to his house to deliver the finalized plan for the signing event.

Song Zhi has watched Lin Jian grow up over the years, and when he learned that Lin Jian was traveling with his classmates, he was concerned: "How are you going to get there, why don't you let the company send a commercial car to take you there?"

Lin Jian stood on the first floor of the wrong floor to wear a jacket, black long slim down jacket, lined with teenagers more and more handsome face, shook his head, said: "Do not need such a big battle, we take the intercity direct, less than an hour to arrive."

"Just in time for the Spring Festival, there are too many people at the station, it's not safe for a few students." Song Zhi was born to worry, "Why don't we take you to the station?"

Shen Ke, who was sitting on the sofa in full loungewear, looked up from his activity preview and interrupted Song Teju's chatter in a light tone, "Let him play by himself, big lad, no need to be so melodramatic."

Lin Jian put his cell phone into his pocket, pursed his lips and gave a "hmm", but before he left the door, he heard Shen Ke ask, "Let me know when you get there."

Mid-January is the coldest time of the year in the north, but luckily there was no wind today and the sparse sunshine through the clouds made it a perfect day for traveling.

A group of seven people, five men and two women met at the intercity station, intercity train frequency is a lot, a few people in the self-service ticket machine ticket, waiting for a short time, on the train.

Teenagers are always excited about this kind of trip without their parents, and for the nearly hour-long drive, Qin Le and Gao Chongfan, the boys who can't be bothered, almost turned over the guidebook.

Get off at the station only a little more than nine in the morning, a few people take the bus straight to the ancient city.

First stroll Folk Museum, attic pagoda, promenade water, which is newly repaired and opened three major exhibition halls, including the Ming and Qing dynasties and local beliefs, wedding customs, life customs related to the old physical information, although to visit the tourists like a weave, but a group of people in several exhibition halls to follow the professional interpretation of the walk, but also feel the fun of it.

From the museum is already at noon, watching the exhibition consumes physical strength, the ancient city is located in a few special food street, Qin Le proposed to go first to fill a dirty temple, instant unanimous vote.

A few people looked for a martial arts culture based on the characteristics of the restaurant, waiters dressed in a colorful shopkeeper, the door first greeted a "guest", the shoulders of the cloth towel shaking, and led the crowd to the seat.

Xu Yang entered the store ten minutes late, carrying seven cups of hot ginger and jujube milk tea in his hand, and distributed them to everyone in the box. Qin Le was a bit embarrassed to say thank you: "Thank you, I just wondered how you disappeared in the blink of an eye, and it turned out to be for everyone to buy something to drink ah."

Xu Yang raises an eyebrow and says nothing.

His original experience in the 16th middle school is too legendary, to the first half of the year, although and classmates on the surface of peace, but never counted on the relationship is not harmonious, to say or because of the reason with Lin Jian friendship, so gradually fit in a little more.

Gao Chongfan took out his cell phone and smiled twice: "This ginger and jujube milk tea is an improved local specialty tea, it's not cheap, let's give it to you."

Xu Yang smiled unconcernedly, "Not really."

"Delicious!" Silly boy Zhou Yan held the milk tea cup and sucked a mouthful, comfortably lamented, "That ...... Xu Yang, before I may have some prejudice or misunderstanding to you, don't you mind, but this half semester get along with down, I found out that in fact, you are really good, today is even a watershed! Today is a watershed, and we'll be good buddies from now on!"

This is said in a middle-aged but sincere way, Xu Yang stunned for a moment, then shook her head and slowly laughed: "Convinced, not to say that you can't be a sister to a straight man, okay, buddy is buddy."

Compared to hot-blooded straight men, girls seem to be more tolerant and accepting of Xu Yang, Yan Ning raises his cup of milk tea in Xu Yang's hand, squints his eyes and smiles, "Believe it or not, sometimes sisters are more reliable than buddies."

Xu Yang thought it was quite interesting, picked up his cup and gently touched it with her, and said in a dashing manner, "We've found the organization, haven't we!"

"God Lin, you have an ancient town treasure map in that cell phone, huh? You don't raise your head for half a day."

Lin Jian's line of sight from the cell phone screen back, and Shen Ke's chatting record stays in when he got off the car sent over the "safe arrival", the other party returned a "good", and then after that, the majority of the day time and nothing else.

"Nothing." Lin Jian pressed out the cell phone screen.

Holiday traffic is too large, so the speed of food is not fast, a few people eat while chatting, calculating how to spend the afternoon, just as the "shopkeeper" lifted the curtain to serve food, heard their plans more than a word: "You guys are students over to play, right? Why, in fact, the most interesting part of the ancient city is the night, there are folk performances, night lanterns, and small stalls selling knick-knacks, not allowed to set up in the daytime, but at night they are all out of the stalls, much more lively than in the daytime!"

After he said this, several young boys and girls couldn't help but secretly move.

Qin Le tentatively proposed, "Why ...... don't we plan B and not go tonight?"

Zhou Yan: "Seconded."

Gao Chongfan: "plus one"

Xu Yang was careful and asked the two girls, "Would it be inconvenient for you to spend the night?"

I didn't expect Yan Ning to have an early plan: "It's okay, I have relatives living in the city, not far from the ancient city side, the night Huanhuan can go with me to stay at my relatives' home, and the family also explained, you don't have to worry about the two of us."

The girls who are not pretentious are the most adorable, and Xu Yang can't help but give them props for that.

"God Lin, what do you say?" Qin Le asked.

Lin Jian slid the belly of his finger along the edge of the metal casing of his cell phone, "I have no problem with that, you guys decide."

After lunch a few people continue to stroll in the old city, specialty stores a store to see the past, accompanied by the gift of the same city express order to fill a large pile, although it is not far away from the tour, but the sense of rituals do not fall.

Lin Jian picked up a silk scarf for Cong Wan at an embroidery shop, and a prescription for a foot soak to soothe the tendons and invigorate the blood for Shen Zhangqian at a traditional Chinese medicine store, which packed the herbs by the day according to the three-month dosage and sent them out the same afternoon.

So much for being left alone.

However, Lin Jian could not decide what to give Shen Ke.

Shen Ke had never given him anything, but for the first time Lin Jian was uncertain about what he wanted from the other party.

He seems to have everything, lacks nothing, and is interested in just those few things, which can't be wrong, but always lacks something new.

Lin Jian was walking and thinking, without the decisiveness and ease with which he had picked out the gifts for Mr. and Mrs. Shen Zhangqian earlier.

A light aroma of incense wafted, wrapped in a very elegant sandalwood incense, smelling people's hearts and minds, unconsciously, they walked to the northwest corner of the ancient city of the ancient temple in front of the pagoda.

Lin Jian's line of sight was fixed on the old woman selling knitted peace knots at the entrance of the ancient temple.

Generally speaking, tourist attractions for hawkers more strict management, such as this temple entrance even the sale of incense stalls are not allowed to set up, but the mother-in-law is leaning against the pagoda stone columns, look happy knitting hand colorful rope.

Intrigued, Lin Jian walks over, squats down in front of her mother-in-law's wooden box and asks, "Are these all peace knots you have?"

The old man is already old, but his ears and eyes are bright, and when he answered, his hands still did not stop for a moment: "Not all of them, to protect the peace, to seek riches and wealth, and all of them."

Lin Jian asked, "Does it work?"

Granny said, "Sincerity is the key to success, like this temple behind my wife, built in the Tang Dynasty, now more than 1,400 years ago, how many people have worshipped and begged for so many years? Do you think all their prayers have worked? Not really, but when a head is knocked under the Buddha's seat, the heart must be sincere."

Lin Jian was silent and asked in the middle of the day, "I want a pendant to keep me safe, can you make it up?"

The old woman raised her head, wrinkled at the corners of her forehead, and after a moment of surveying Lin Jian, asked, "Child, who are you begging for?"

Lin Jian said, "Very ...... no, the most important person to me."

The grandmother smiled and asked, "What is the genus for peace?"

"Horses."

"Okay, I'll make one up for you, but can you wait?"

At this time, the others came out from the opposite store and saw Lin Jian curling up squatting next to the temple pagoda and greeted, "God Lin, in front of you is the highest point of the ancient city's gilded pagoda, go and have a look!"

Lin Jian also raised his voice and replied, "You guys go first and meet up later."

Saying so, he sat down on the stone steps directly beside his mother-in-law and said in a staid, faint voice, "It can wait."

"It's a thoughtful one." The grandmother put down the half-knitted hanging clasp in her hand, took a small handful of colorful ropes from the wooden box, and said with a smile, "This person you're thinking about is blessed."

In the distance, the green mountains for the bone, the water for the band, the ancient city embraced which, the city building scattered, visitors come and go in an endless stream, only the temple in front of the pagoda under this corner of heaven and earth, quiet and peaceful, an old man and a young man, sitting shoulder to shoulder, a weaving wishes, a waiting for the expectation.

Legend has it that in ancient times, horses had wings that enabled them to fly in the sky, run on the ground, and swim in the water. Grandma's hands are so skillful that the colorful rope is divided into several locks, first knitting the horse's head, then knitting the wings, and when the horse's body takes shape, two hours have already passed.

The five-colored horse is braided, but half the size of the palm of the hand, the mother-in-law will be tassels braided as a ponytail, tied the last knot, the hands of the five-colored rope is no more, no less, just about all the braided.

Granny handed Lin Jian the peace knot, her words unconsciously showed kindness and gentleness: "Do not move the shears, do not break the thread - child, you want to bless this person, destined to be blessed for a long time."

Lin Jian accepted it with great care, placing it in the inside pocket of his down jacket, close to his heart, and thanked him discreetly.

Bidding farewell to my mother-in-law, by the time Lin Jian rejoined the group, several people had already booked a B&B hotel in the old city.

After a long day of hiking and wandering, there were plans for a nighttime excursion, so a few of the group decided to go to the hotel to recuperate and head out a little later in the day.

The two girls don't stay overnight, so they only booked three rooms, and the four boys stayed two by two, fearing that Xu Yang would be uncomfortable living with others, so they were kind enough to leave him a single room.

Lin Jian and Qin Le shared a room. Soon after entering the room, Gao Chongfan knocked on the door and greeted them cheerfully: "Let's go, it's still early, everyone said they would play cards in our house for a while, let's do it together, and also save the inconvenience of two girls resting in a room alone, so why don't they just make up a bunch?"

Qin Le was eager to try, Lin Jian came out of the restroom to wash his hands and said in a faint voice, "I'm not going, you guys play."

"Come on, God Lin, let's go together."

Lin Jian picked up his cell phone, glanced at the motionless screen, and said, "No, I'll call home."

Seeing that he really wasn't interested, Qin Le and Gao Chongfan didn't force him to do so, but just said they would send him a message when they left later.

Closing the door, the room fell steeply silent.

Lin Jian went to the window, looking down at the ancient city of scenic lights, tourists like weaving, a long time later, press the light of the cell phone, photographed in front of the fire trees, silver and night sky, a little hesitation, and then sent the photo to Shen Ke.

For the next few minutes, Lin Jian glanced at the screen from time to time, but the phone remained quietly in his hand, with no messages.

The slightly hot mass against his chest gradually dissipated with time, but in the very next second, the screen suddenly lit up and his cell phone vibrated without warning.

Lin Jian didn't expect Shen Ke to call back directly, and froze for a few seconds before connecting, "...... Hello."

Shen Ke over there looks like he's just come out of a venue or something, with the occasional sound of people around him, and his voice is more substantial against the background: "Having fun?"

"It's okay." Lin Jian looked out the window, his heart once again warming up a little, "I'm just checking in."

"Uh-huh." Shen Ke's voice was warm and deep, "Not coming back today?"

"No, I said the night view is more beautiful, so I stayed for one night." Lin Jian said, "Back tomorrow."

Shen Ke didn't object, just asked, "Staying in a hotel?"

"B&B."

"Good." Shen Ke's side was quiet for a second and said, "Send me the address of the B&B."

This seems to be an established habit between them. Lin Jian had gone out on his own before, the longest time being to a garden fair recommended by Shen Ke, where he stayed out for a week by himself. Shen Ke never restricted where he could go or for how long, as long as he reported that he had landed safely and left an address for the night.

Lin Jian agreed, and at the end of the short phone call, Lin Jian suddenly thought of something and added before hanging up, "I've prepared a gift for you."

The tone of this statement was laced with a bit of urgency, Shen Ke There was a pause, and a light chuckle came from the other side as he asked, "Accompaniment, huh?"

"...... doesn't count either." Lin Jian muttered in a low voice, "Quite an inconspicuous gadget, wait ...... for me to go back and give it to you."

"Good." Shen Ke promised, and after a moment of silence, added with a soft smile, "Have a heart."

Hanging up the phone, Lin Jian stood by the window for a few moments, then let out a heavy breath and fell straight back into the center of the bed.

Indeed, there was a heart, but this heart was indefinable, and even he himself was honestly afraid, both apprehensive and tormented.

The next room was staggering quite a bit, and after about an hour or so, a couple of the Qin Le boys came over and knocked on the door, saying they were about to leave and asking if he was ready.

Lin Jian puts on his down jacket and goes downstairs with everyone else to join in the flurry of light in the ancient city.

Water bazaar, flower boat night tour, nearly a thousand ancient style lantern row and more than a hundred kinds of interactive light interpretation, the modern trend of culture and local folk culture, temple culture for a full range of makeup upgrade, this ancient city night scene is indeed not false.

A group of people walked around, taking photos and cards, until late at night, their respective cell phone power collective emergency, only to return to the fun.

A few boys put Yan Ning and the two girls in a cab back to the city, wrote down the license plate number, and then went to the small courtyard of the B&B. After a crazy day, even a physically fit teenager can't help but drift. Qin Le hung on Gao Chongfan's back like an octopus, muttering with a wandering breath: "I can't do it, I'm exhausted, my father is dead.

Gao Chongfan dragged the person also step by step also tend to rub forward to walk, breathless retort: "Don't worry son, can't walk father back you, have father in, inevitably can't let you sleep on the street."

Xu Yang hummed and sang, "When I was a child, I used to sit on my father's shoulder, my father was the ladder to the sky, my father was the donkey carrying my son ......."

"Xu Xiaoyang!" The two people who were attacked indiscriminately instantly exploded and jumped to their feet, "Who's the son and who's the donkey, say it fucking clearly!"

"......" Lin Jian silently averted his eyes, thinking that he didn't know what there was to argue about.

May be in the afternoon in front of the temple door of the wind some time to sit, the evening back to the room, Lin Jian no reason to feel some light-headed, throat is also followed by dry itch uncomfortable, he seldom get sick over the years, and the physical quality of the body is very good, so they did not put too much on the mind, and so on the bath from the bathroom after the bath, the body began to a burst of accompanied by the pain of the hot and cold, he realized that the situation is a little bit bad.

So take advantage of Qin Le bath stall, go to the owner of the B&B to ask for a few pills of cold medicine, back to the room and filled a large cup of hot water, ready to muddle through, anyway, tomorrow will be the return trip, even if the fever started, a night is not a big problem.

Late at night, Lin Jian was lying on his bed, his mind was in a daze with a heavy cold, but he had no desire to sleep. Qin Le in the other bed, a meter away, had already turned his snoring into a regular duet. Lin Jian rolled over, inwardly regretting for the umpteenth time that he hadn't brought his noise-canceling earplugs with him, and finally took his cell phone from his pillow, gave up the struggle, and prepared to rely on the remaining ten percent of the battery power to finish out the rest of the night.

All is quiet, and the entire old city outside the B&B courtyard seems to have fallen into a quiet slumber.

In the darkness, Lin Jian's eyes seem to be a flash of light suddenly crossed, his eyelids jumped heavily, and the next second, only to hear "bang" a loud noise that shook the streets and alleys of the ancient city!

The change came in a moment--

Lin Jian got up from the bed violently, and the loud explosion directly woke up Qin Le in the other bed! In the next second, Qin Le couldn't react in time and rushed to the door in his pajama pants: "Damn! Earthquake! Run!"

Not an earthquake!

Lin Jian pulled back the person who was still in a daze and was about to run out of the door, ran to the bathroom as fast as he could, soaked two bath towels and wrapped one of them around Qin Le: "It's a fire, don't panic yet!"

After the loud explosion, the fire that rushed into the sky spread out all of a sudden, followed by the sound of glass breaking and falling from all floors, and flames spewed out from the windows and doorways of several rooms on the first floor, accompanied by rolling black smoke, illuminating the night sky of the entire ancient city!

One after another the explosions continued to sound, and the crowd in the lodging house, terrified, some wrapped in bedclothes, others in slippers, and in confusion, swarmed to the door of the lodging house--

"It's on fire! Run!"

Crying for help, cries, Lin Jian and a few other panicked boys with a towel to cover their mouths and noses, along the second floor of the escape route sprinted downstairs, but just walked to the first floor of the stairwell, Lin Jian's footsteps abruptly stopped!

There was little hesitation, and the next moment he ran violently toward the room against the crowd!

"Lin Jian!" Xu Yang pulled the towel around him and bent over to growl in his ear, "Crazy you! What are you going back for?

Lin Jian shook his head decisively and steeply broke his hand, "Get downstairs! I'll be right down!"

"Lin ...... you fuck!" Looking at the person who had already disappeared up the stairs above, Xu Yang didn't have time to yell any more before she was rushed out of the courtyard, squeezed by the flow of people pouring down the stairs.

The smoke was so thick that people could hardly open their eyes. Lin Jian quickly folded back to the room, in the heat and smoke to find his down jacket, feel the pocket of the five-colored horse amulet, grabbed out, turned around and ran downstairs.

An accidental fire disrupted all the plans, the local authorities acted quickly to put out the fire, blockade the scene, evacuate and settle down tourists, individual injured tourists were rushed to the local hospital, the cause of the fire is being further investigated.

At 2:30 a.m., when the fire was finally extinguished, Lin Jian and the other four boys sat soaked to the skin in their pajamas at the base of a wall not far from the scene, surrounded by tourists who hadn't had a chance to be relocated to another hotel.

"Finished fucking eggs ......" Gao Chongfan, wearing only a pair of pajama pants, with a hotel disposable slipper hanging from his left foot, leaned against the stone wall and said, "Scared the hell out of me, such a big fire, I almost saw my tits. I almost saw my breast ......"

The memory of the accident two hours earlier was haunting for all.

"What can we do now ......" Qin Le put down the cell phone that had just passed the words with his family, mourning a face, grabbed a handful of hair that had been locking, and wailed, "Just now my mom cried on the phone while letting my dad hurry to Come over to pick me up, it will take them three hours at the soonest to drive over, I think I might not be able to wait for them to come, I will be frozen to death here first."

The rest of the people contacted their families, and then fell silent. The surrounding area is still crowded and chaotic, a staff member who disposed of the scene brought a few quilts over and distributed them to the tourists who had not yet been picked up, Lin Jian, the back of his head against the cold, hard wall, his eyelids lightly closed, his face black and gray, but the end of his eyes was a thin red.

Xu Yang hung up the phone, and when she turned her head, she realized that Lin Jian's state was not right, frowned and asked in a low voice, "What's wrong with you, were you hurt just now? Your face doesn't look normal."

Lin Jian did not even have the strength to open his eyes, only felt that all the limbs and bones of his body were screaming with soreness, the voice of the people around him came to his ears fluttering, as if separated by a layer of plastic film, his brain was dizzy, for a long time, before he laughed a short laugh and said in a faint voice: "You can still see my face now?"

"......" Xu Yang stares at the side of his face rubbed with soot and water for a breathless moment, and asks, "What's wrong, really hurt?"

"No." Lin Jian said, "It's just a little cold."

"Then what were you doing back there?" Xu Yang lowered his voice, "I fucking thought you suddenly couldn't think straight."

Upon hearing this, Lin Jian finally struggled to raise his eyelids and threw him a "Are you sick or am I sick?" look. He threw him a "Are you sick or am I sick?" look.

Xu Yang also knew that she was thinking a bit too much, and after rubbing her face, she sighed, "Did your family say when they would come to pick you up? Just now I heard the staff say that it will take about an hour for all the tourists at the scene to be settled, so I'll tell them to go directly to the temporary hotel to pick you up at that time."

Lin Jian frowned imperceptibly, but didn't answer.

He didn't call Shen Ke and didn't want to.

He didn't want Shen Ke to be worried and distracted, even a little, by any unforeseen circumstances that arose for him if he could help it, not to mention the fact that tonight there had been a scare and he was indeed safe and sound.

The five-colored horse's peace talisman had been firmly clutched in his palm since the beginning, without a single stain.

The cell phone was completely dead and turned itself off, so Lin Jian pressed the screen twice, then pressed his head back against the hard wall behind him and said indifferently, "We'll see."

The high fever was not pleasant, and he planned to wrap himself in the blankets and recuperate until he reached the makeshift hotel and charged his cell phone.

His eyelids closed and his consciousness began to drift. I don't know how long it took, but he was tapped on the shoulder by a person beside him, and Lin Jian woke up suddenly from his daze, his ears were buzzing, and he could hardly hear anything for several seconds, and only after a few moments could he vaguely hear several staff members holding loudspeakers and shouting as they walked through the crowd: "Lin Jian! Lin Jian is here! Someone pick up! Is Lin Jian here?"

Lin Jian was still in a state of obvious confusion, but the students around him were much more excited than he was, waving their hands and jumping to their feet, shouting, "Here, here! Over here!"

Xu Yang was obviously the most excited one, dragging Lin Jian up from the ground, saying excitedly, "What kind of speed is this at your home, you've arrived so quickly, didn't you say you didn't call? I didn't say I hadn't called, but I thought your family lived just over the city wall!"

Lin Jian was completely confused at this moment, was pulled up in a daze, his legs were weak and almost fell to his knees again, the quilt slipped off his body, and when he looked up suddenly, he thought that he was burning to the point of hallucination.

At this moment, everything around him has become a backdrop, thick smoke, water fog, noisy and shifting silhouettes and sound waves, Lin Jian's eyes looked at the person a few meters away for a split second, opened his mouth, but could not make a sound.

Shen Ke face as heavy as water, eyes in Lin Jian body browse a week, although it seems to be in a mess, but fortunately no injury, which will not move the blocked in the heart of the mass of air out.

Without a word, he strides toward Lin Jian, through the smoke and dust, the crowds and the illuminated shadows of the lamps, carrying all the wind, dust and snow with a hurried and calm step.

Lin Jian stood there motionless, staring fixedly from the corner of his coat brought up by the night wind, the next second, the remote and cold cedar breath on the face, Shen Ke took off his coat, wrapped around the person in front of him.

"Is it cold?"

Lin Jian's shoulders trembled violently, and his legs almost lost the strength to support him, and then, as if waking up from a dream, he quickly looked down, and his eyes suddenly warmed up.

No matter how many years go by, you can always find me, in my most clueless and woeful moments.