"After thirty years of living, at my age, this is the first time I've ever chased someone."

Lin Jian seemed to have fallen into a silent space, all the surrounding sounds and movements were automatically blocked, even his own breathing and heartbeat seemed to be absent.

Only one pair of eyes, motionless, looked at that peace blessing in front of him.

To say what?

What can I say?

The answer is in front of him, and no matter how he tries to justify it or cover it up, it's just the way it is.

Shen Ke already knows everything.

After a long time, Lin Jian only like from a blank in the back to a little God, his voice is a little indescribable mute, like after some efforts but found that there is still nothing to do self abandonment, he pursed the corners of his lips, asked: "This thing ...... how did it come to you here? "

Perhaps Lin Jian s pretense of pretending to be strong was a bit obvious, Shen Ke s heart was suddenly flooded with a hint of regret, reflecting on whether he should not have thrown out the results straight away, and besides that, looking at the youth s bloodless lips, he could not help but feel a hint of hidden ...... heartache.

But now, if we don't unravel the mystery, there is no telling how much longer the two will have to play out this "double act" that has never matched up, Shen Ke didn't want to wait any longer, and said in a very soft voice, "It's already mine."

As soon as he said this, he saw Lin Jian's shoulders shudder silently.

"Lin Jian , you ......" Shen Ke couldn't help but stand up, straight outstretched his hand and tried to shake Lin Jian's hand, but Lin Jian avoided it very gently.

Shen Ke's outstretched hand paused in mid-air, just as he heard Lin Jian's voice grow a little hoarser, and he asked, "...... When did you know about this?"

Know what?

Nothing but the past that was thought to be long lost in the flood of time.

And the figure that has been blurred by the wear and tear of the years.

Shen Ke couldn't lie to him, didn't want to lie to him, and answered bluntly, "One week after you start."

Lin Jian slowly raised his head, and his originally empty and blank gaze finally became shocked with suspicion.

"Then why did you ......" Lin Jian His throat was so sore, as if he had been cut bit by bit by a sharp blade, and the sound he made was like it was stained with blood, "Then why didn't you come to ask me? "

Shen Ke's fixed and calm gaze looked at him, and after a while, as if unable to let go any longer, he still pulled his wrist straight up and brought the man towards himself, closer and seemingly with a stronger sense of realism, before saying, "Because at that time I wasn't sure of what you were thinking, and didn't know whether or not you'd be willing to mention that period of the past again, as well as ......"

Shen Ke's voice slightly stalled, Lin Jian slightly raised his head, a pair of originally cold and clear eyes now contains a trace of grief, he looked at him like that, and asked: "As well as what?"

Shen Ke sighs, "I've read your entry resume and profile and know that you went to a very good college and that your parents' information is complete in the family members section, so I'm not sure that it's appropriate to take the risk of laying those memories of the past before you."

After all, the youth in front of him, long ago is not twenty years ago in the orphanage in the quiet and reticent small group of people, he has already had a very good life, so the past those injuries and pain and suffering, should also be forgotten and banished in time.

Although there are only words, but Lin Jian still understand the deep meaning of his words, he can not blame, and even originally did not have the slightest emotion of resentment, but only still a little bewildered and puzzled: "Then ...... why did you say it again now?"

After this question, Lin Jian clearly felt that the grip on his wrist of the hand noiselessly tightened some, but Shen Ke's complexion is still calm, only the original warm and calm watery eyes set off a very faint waves: "Because if you do not make it clear, some people will have to put themselves around the dead in the alley, and do not return to hit the south wall. "

Lin Jian blinked a bit, seemingly soothed by Shen Ke's hopeless tone of voice just now, his always tense body finally slowly loosened up a bit, and Shen Ke clearly noticed that the wrist in his hand was no longer as stiff as it had been a moment ago.

So he lowered his voice again, and even called it coaxing in general, and asked, "I'll tell you whatever you want to know, so ...... just don't be mad at me for a while, okay?"

"I'm not angry." Lin Jian shifted his gaze, and after two seconds, he added, "It's because I applied for the job with impure motives in the first place, and now I've been caught by you, so what kind of anger am I angry about."

Hanging heart finally slightly back down some, Shen Ke seems to be inclined to laugh, and only after pulling him to sit on the sofa, and went to pour two cups of warm water back after Lin Jian sat down beside him, said warmly: "Then willing to talk to me about it, these years ...... how to live? "

Lin Jian gripped the glass, the warm touch spreading from his fingertips to his heart, and after the great shock had passed, there was only a calm titanic calm left, and ...... by the side of this person, no matter whether it was the four year old or the twenty four year old, he felt inexplicably ...... grounded and peaceful.

"Actually there are no twists and turns." Lin Jian slowly said, "I was adopted when I was six years old, and my adoptive parents were teachers at the same university, and my adoptive father ......" Lin Jian paused, suddenly smiled a little, and said, "Calling it that way Somewhat awkward, I still call my father more smoothly."

After all, what that couple had given Lin Jian over the course of nearly two decades was a deeper and more intense love than even that of his own parents.

"My dad is a botanist, when he took his students to the mountains to do field research to collect seeds, he encountered a landslide, he was trying to protect one of his students ...... didn't get away, his legs were smashed and amputated."

Despite Lin Jian's calm tone, Shen Ke frowned very lightly, and then took hold of his wrist again.

"That's okay." Lin Jian's eyes traveled down the hand on his wrist to Shen Ke's face, laughed, and said, "My dad doesn't even care about that."

"He and my mom were both very calm and collected people, and despite this catastrophe, both were always joyful and gentle, and never negative or pessimistic in their approach to life; my dad recuperated for a long time after being discharged from the hospital after his surgery, and then switched from teaching to teaching and researching, and not long after that, they adopted me from the orphanage."

Lin Jian voice is very light, as if recounting a calm and beautiful memories: "I just arrived home or very do not like to talk, they took all the free time to accompany me, play with me, read with me, take me out to the playground, do not look at that time I have been when the six-year-old boy, every night are still sleeping in the middle of the two of them, although they cover a small quilt, but the next morning to wake up is not necessarily rolled to who the quilt. With a small quilt, but the next morning when I woke up, I didn't necessarily roll into whose quilt ...... not afraid of you laughing at me, I was until the second semester of the first grade, before I reluctantly slept on my own."

"They didn't shy away from the fact that I was adopted, but at the same time, gave me all the love they could without giving it back, and just kept me awake and loved for almost twenty years."

Lin Jian sighed softly, "And when I was eighteen years old, they were also the ones who personally accompanied me to pick up my biological father's ashes and drop them in the cemetery on the outskirts of the city."

"So ......" Lin Jian turned to Shen Ke and smiled relievedly, "Your previous concerns and worries are actually not necessary, I've lived a really good life all these years, with very good parents, a very warm I have good parents, a warm family, and I can also face those pasts openly, so there is nothing I can't mention or talk about."

"That's good." Shen Ke sighed silently, his heart that had been hanging in mid-air for a long time finally fell into place, he paused, a little smile suddenly spilling out from the bottom of his eyes, and said, "It's just that this habit of not being talkative hasn't changed in all these years."

Lin Jian did not expect his words would suddenly turn to this, froze for a moment, subconsciously refuted: "also did not ah, back then I and you after getting acquainted, not also said everything?"

It was only after he had finished speaking that he realized that he had been duped, and in the next second, he saw the smile under Shen Ke's eyes slowly widening.

Immediately, Lin Jian endured the heat behind his ears, and heard the man whisper as if he were speaking to himself, "Indeed, back then, it was still relatively sticky."

Lin Jian: "......"

"Then why do you want to come to 'Wan Qian' as an assistant?" Shen Ke asked, as if casually, "And, why didn't you look for me after you came?"

"I ......" Lin Jian can't lie to Shen Ke, this seems to be a habit from the age of four to six years old in those two years, the days like floating weeds, the small Lin Jian almost regarded that also only teenage boy as the "root", he would believe whatever he said and would tell him his own tender thoughts without any fear or concealment - in those years, he had been the light that illuminated his chaotic ghosts. Lin Jian almost regarded the teenage boy as his "root", believing whatever he said and telling him his tender thoughts without any hesitation or concealment - he had been the light that illuminated his chaotic and dark life during those years.

But even if it is impossible to hide, Lin Jian still chose a more compromise wording, after all, some things, some words, some unspeakable reasons, can only become his own secret.

Lin Jian said, "I just want to see you again."

Shen Ke looked at him, the tips of his eyebrows twitching very lightly.

Lin Jian knew that his current expression must be very farfetched, so he simply stopped looking at Shen Ke and shifted his line of sight a bit, lest he reveal more horsefeathers, before he said with some embarrassment, "I actually ...... wanted to tell you that all those places you told me about when I was a child, I have all been there."

Deserts, deep seas, mountains, forests--

Those scenes that Shen Ke had once depicted for him in his paintings, he had traveled and seen. Although he had long known that he would not be able to find the one he wanted to look for, the trip in which he had seen all the scenery along the way had given him more and newer insights and rewards for life.

The sky and the earth, after experiencing a meeting and parting, loneliness and fear, after seeing the endless scenery of the sunset and the tide, that little child at the beginning is finally no longer ignorant and sorrowful--

He found a better version of himself.

So, from the time he was a teenager, Lin Jian had an idea in mind.

He wanted to see again the big brother who had told him about the magnificent, unseen world.

Lin Jian said very seriously, "I should have said thank you."

His look was not like a joke, not to mention the slightest bit of pretense of reserved exaggeration and melodrama, it was completely the truest expression of his heart, but Shen Ke just quietly looked at him for a few seconds after hearing it, and then curved the corners of his mouth very gently and said, "You're welcome, it's just your own effort."

Lin Jian was slightly stunned.

Although Shen Ke's voice was still warm and melodious, Lin Jian was sensitive enough to notice that the smile in his eyes seemed to have faded a bit.

No one spoke in the room for a moment, except for the raucous chorus of cicadas outside the window, a single cry of the high summer afternoon.

Lin Jian didn't know what Shen Ke was thinking, but he himself actually had some heartburn.

He wanted to see him again, he wanted to say thank you to him, these are true, but something deeper ...... he dared not even mention.

When he was young, he regarded Shen Ke as a ray of light. Although years have passed, Shen Ke's appearance from the age of sixteen to eighteen has always been engraved in his memory, and has not faded with the passage of time in the slightest.

And it was sometime late at night when he himself was sixteen that he once again dreamed of the big brother of his infancy.

Still warm and sunken eyes and soft warm smile, still like when he was young, will hold his hand and take him to the banyan tree outside the wall of the orphanage to pick up fallen flowers for specimens, but that day in the dream of their own, but no longer four or five years old appearance.

The dense and grand canopy of the tree shakes with the wind, like a diffuse and ethereal powdery haze. Lin Jian dreamed that his sixteen-year-old self stooped down to pick up a reddish banyan flower and asked the person in front of him with a smile, "Shen Ke, do you know that the banyan flower also has an alias?"

The Shen Ke face in front of him is a little blurred, but it is by no means what he looked like when he was sixteen years old, and in the shadowed haze, the man is already a straight young man.

"What is it?" The steady, deep voice had a little more mellowness to it, too.

Lin Jian muttered softly as she dreamed of dropping her eyes to look at the tiny flowers at her fingertips.

The voice was muffled, and Shen Ke supposed he hadn't heard it, so he took two steps slightly closer to him, leaned over slightly, and asked again, "What?"

Lin Jian suddenly raised his head, looking at the side face of this person in front of him, I do not know where to get the courage, abruptly close to his ears, almost with a gas sound murmur: "This flower day open and night close, so ...... also called Acacia."

Shen Ke seemed to be surprised for a moment, and when his last word had just fallen, he inclined his head, while Lin Jian still maintained the position of being close to his ear, so in the moment Shen Ke inclined his head, the corner of his lips inevitably brushed against the side of his face.

The warm, soft touch died with a touch.

Sixteen-year-old Lin Jian's eyes snapped open in the darkness of the night.

Lush, deep night colors, a teenager with a rapid heartbeat, and ...... a mess of spring dreams.

From that day on, Lin Jian dreamt of this man more and more often, from waking up in a state of panic at the beginning to, later on, almost a hundred times over.

Although the face of the person in the dream was still not very clear, he just knew that it was Shen Ke.

The dependence of the early childhood, in the long time of thought into the chase and desire, finally, from this desire, born from the youthful ignorance of a different heart.

Even if he knew that what he longed for could only be regarded as the moon in the water and the flowers in the mirror, but for so many years, he was just like a monkey who knew that it was fruitless but didn't know how to get tired, over and over again, he reached out his hand in the dream, wanting to touch the blurred face hidden under the water waves.

As the years go by, obsession grows unchecked.

But the fate of the real is mysterious, who would have thought that the third year, in a professional class, the full-time professor even used "Wanqian" the enterprise's design of a finished product to do an example of the project analysis, after the class he had a whim, he searched the Internet "Wanqian" official website. After the class, he had a whim and searched the official website of "Wanqian" on the Internet. When he saw the word "Shen Ke" at the top of the column of enterprise information structure, his finger on the mouse froze.

No one knew how he felt at that moment, and even after all these years, even he couldn't describe exactly how he felt at that moment.

Like a dream and reality suddenly overlapping, he was in a trance and throbbing for a moment.

It was also like the heart that had been hanging on the clear moon in the sky for a long time, finally drifting down slowly, revealing a glimmer of the bright radiance of the moon's splendor.

From then on, without moving, but with painstaking effort, he finally, little by little, drew closer to that white moonlight.

Until he officially became a member of the "Ten Thousand" and Shen Ke's second assistant--

Standing where you can reach out your hand and touch the moonlight with your fingertips.

But Lin Jian could not say such words.

Years of thoughts or not, the desire in the dream or not, the reality of the obsessive hope or not, are all his alone into a crazy into the devil, he even afraid of his such a thought will be shocked in front of the person, will make him feel incomprehensible.

"Still have to thank ......" After a long silence, Lin Jian withdrew from the past, his voice was a little low and hoarse, but the emotions were hidden and cleaned up, "Whether it is the care of the child, or I joined the After the long silence, Lin Jian withdrew from the past, his voice was a little low and hoarse, but his emotions were hidden and cleaned up.

Shen Ke inclined his head to look over, Lin Jian pursed the corner of his lips, his eyes fell to his bandaged little arm, and said in a low voice, "Even the knife you blocked for me, no matter what, you should be thanked."

"Yeah." Shen Ke unconsciously frowned, but his voice was light, "That's fine, I'll take it, but in the future, there's no need to mention words like that again."

Lin Jian froze for a moment, then lowered his eyes and nodded his head with an "uh-huh".

That's it. That's good.

The fact that he had seen Shen Ke again, and that the two of them had been able to sit together and savor the past that was engraved in the depths of his memory, was good enough for him.

"Then ......" Lin Jian hesitated for a moment and asked, "Will it be inconvenient for you on a daily basis with your arm injury?"

"No." Shen Ke's voice was flat, "With contracted aunts and a family doctor who can come to the house at any time, and Xu Lang here, it doesn't matter."

"...... That's good." Lin Jian nodded his head, he could feel Shen Ke's suddenly faded mood, but could not guess not the cause, and sat dry for a moment, asked himself in addition to his injuries, the only two things he cared about, he pointed to the peace blessing on the coffee table, and asked softly, "This ...... can return to me ?"

"Still?" Shen Ke's eyes dropped back from his fingertips to his face, and in a faint voice he asked rhetorically, "Isn't it mine?"

Lin Jian choked.

There is nothing wrong with the fact that this is so, but this peace blessing he has been carrying around for twenty whole years, and it is difficult to describe the meaning for him, so right now, he can only ponder for a moment, knowing that it is presumptuous, but still have to ask: "Then ...... can you send me once more?"

"......" Shen Ke sighed deeply, and after a long silence, asked, "Enjoyed it?"

"Uh-huh." Lin Jian nodded, but at the same time noticed that he seemed to be admitting it a little too quickly, so after a little deliberation, he added in a low voice, "...... It's very spiritual."

"......" Shen Ke inclined his head to look at him, his gaze so obscure that Lin Jian was a little unsure, but after a while, he still satisfied his request, picking up that Ping An Fu, handing it to Lin Jian in front of him, and said. "Can."

Lin Jian was secretly pleased for a moment, with a speed faster than usual, when his finger touched the Ping An Fu, the fingertip inevitably brushed against Shen Ke's, the fingertips lightly bumped against each other, and Lin Jian felt that Shen Ke's fingertips seemed to be a little cold.

The sudden silence struck again, Lin Jian shook the hand that was in his pocket and had not yet taken it out, and said tentatively, "Then ...... I will leave first, and if there is any movement on the police side, I will notify you again." After saying that, he got up from the sofa and looked at Shen Ke for a few seconds before turning around and walking towards the entrance of the entrance hall.

This is tantamount to rejecting Shen Ke's offer of "temporary residence".

Shen Ke didn't answer and didn't move.

Until Lin Jian walked to the center of the hall, Shen Ke suddenly raised his eyes and called out to him, "Lin Jian."

"Huh?" Lin Jian turned around a little slow, "Anything else?"

"There's something I forgot to say." Shen Ke slowly stood up and looked at him from a not-so-near distance, with Zhou Zheng's pale color and no rise or fall in his voice, as if it were only like a notice, and said-

"The can of coffee beans in the coffee room, the three glasses of wine that were held back at the reception, the coat on a rainy day, the big bag of medicine brought in when you were sick, and the peace blessing ......" Shen Ke's tone was light, "You can keep What, what you want to take away, is fine, but there is one thing, it is better to ask for your opinion in advance."

Shen Ke said this with an inexplicable look Zhou Zheng dignified, Lin Jian for no reason nervous: "...... What is it?"

"If you're not disgusted with me at the moment, would you allow me to officially pursue it?"

Lin Jian: "......"

Lin Jian: "????"

Lin Jian: "!!!"

Lin Jian stood still for a full two minutes, when finally his brain finally reacted to what he said and what it meant, his eyes widened in disbelief, the man who had always been so dry and decisive in his speech and behavior would actually have a stuttering moment, "You, you ...... Why do you ...... what, what do you mean?"

Shen Ke frowned slightly, and asked back with slight suspicion, "Isn't that clear?"

"......"

No, it's clear.

But it is precisely because of this clarity that there is no possibility of misunderstanding, but it is also precisely because of this that Lin Jian feels startled and disoriented.

Who did Shen Ke just say he was chasing?

Me?

And what do you mean, "officially pursued"?

Is there ever a time when it's not official?

Shen Ke looked at the person who stood there half speechless for a long time, the original brow tip and corner of the eye are dyed with a few points of indifference finally slowly dissipated some, and finally turned into a hopeless light sigh.

How could such a cool and discerning mind be so stupefied over this matter?

Countless silent encounters in private, entangled and haunting metaphors when eyes interact, so many good nights said, so many hands held, and even one that quietly happened late at night in the same cave ......

Shen Ke has always thought that some things are their unspoken, did not think that in the end, but all became a one-man show that he was too deep into the drama.

--should be its own problem.

Shen Ke has always been gentle and elegant, he originally thought that he was in front of him to show all sorts of unconventional behavior, has expressed the feelings of the obvious, but did not expect, may be in Lin Jian's view, but also as the boss of the subordinates of the excessive "care" and "caring But I didn't realize that Lin Jian might see it as nothing more than excessive "care" and "concern" for his subordinates as a boss.

In the end, all you get is a sincere and monotonous "thank you".

"You ......" Lin Jian still froze, but the heat behind his ears came up uncontrollably, "You mean ...... "

"Yes, it means what you think it means." Shen Ke said frankly, "If I didn't express myself clearly enough, I can say it a few more times."

Lin Jian stiffened with a tense mouth.

Shen Ke sighed silently and approached as he stared in bewilderment, suddenly raising a hand to rub the top of the youth's hair as he walked up to him.

Just like when he was a kid.

"Lin Jian, we've known each other for twenty years, with eighteen of those years apart, but after going around in circles, fate has arranged for us to actually be reunited, do you know what that means?"

If I had known that it would trip up people's hearts, I would not have met them in the first place.

Lin Jian could barely pause for breath, let alone thought, so much so that he certainly couldn't answer his question.

Shen Ke lowered his gaze and took Lin Jian's hand, not his wrist this time, but held his hand directly in his palm.

Lin Jian was unable to digest such a turn of events for a while, wondering if it was just a big dream accidentally gifted by fate, so much so that he subconsciously struggled a bit.

With that, Shen Ke gave a very soft "tsk".

His voice with pain, Lin Jian only then realized in hindsight that he was using the injured arm, suddenly looked aghast, no longer dare to move.

Shen Ke, with very faint traces of a smile emerging from the bottom of his eyes, as if containing a hint of a very light light, said to him in a low voice after a moment of silence, "It means that you and I can't just be 'life as we know it'."

Now that he's encountered it again, he's going to grab hold of it this time and not let go.

A delicate mind, a gentleman like an orchid - where would he find another like that.

"Not to hide ......" Shen Ke let out a very light laugh, "After living for more than thirty years, all at this age, it's the first time I've ever chased someone."

Lin Jian suddenly raised his head, and when his eyes met, he slammed into a warm and deep eye color.

"If it's not to be, or if there's something out of place that makes you feel uncomfortable, you don't have to have scruples about telling me, or you can just say no, but ......"

Shen Ke said warmly, "Give me a chance, okay?"

Lin Jian looked at him blankly, unable to speak.

"If you don't say anything, it will be taken as your acquiescence." Shen Ke the smile in the bottom of his eyes deepened a little, paused for two seconds, and then asked, "So ...... can I advance you a hug now?"

This time, before Lin Jian could say yes or no, Shen Ke wrapped his arms around his shoulders and gently held him in his embrace.

In the silence of the room, only the sound of heartbeats remained.

Lin Jian hears Shen Ke's voice fall into his ear, and with a bit of quiet satisfaction, says, "Thank you."

It was just a hug, nothing compared to the one Shen Ke had blocked for himself half a day ago.

And so, Lin Jian replied softly in this unauthorized, yet unexpectedly peaceful embrace.

"You're welcome."