Chapter 105: Words that can't be said

After Xie Qingcheng drove He Yu away, he took a bath.

The bath was so humiliating that Xie Qingcheng was so sick that he could hardly stand up, and when he had finished, he took some fever-reducing pills and tried to shut himself up at home to rest.

But the bed was a mess, and there was no way to sleep.

Xie Qingcheng could only hold himself up and put away the bed sheet again, the marks on it were simply too much for him to look at, he still couldn't believe what kind of ecstasy he had taken last night to do such a ridiculous thing with He Yu.

He wasn't shy, he just thought it was outrageous, especially looking at the marks on the sheets, he didn't even think it was the kind of thing two men could toss together.

It's fucking haunted.

Xie Qingcheng coughed softly, removed the sheets, threw them in the washing machine, and changed the mattress before she was finally able to throw her aching body between the pillows.

"Ahem ......"

Tossing and turning, burning hot, Xie Qingcheng felt so bad that he couldn't sleep.

He was in such a bad state that the only thing he was grateful for was that Xie Xue had accompanied Li Ruoqiu on his journey and never returned. He didn't have to disguise himself in front of anyone, and was finally able to get rid of his mask and reveal a face that had been tortured by the disease and was a bit drowsy and fragile.

It took a while for the antipyretic to take effect in Xie Qingcheng's body.

But perhaps because there was still the scent of He Yu in the house, Xie Qingcheng, before he drifted off to sleep, seemed to see He Yu's eyes from last night...

The eyes that were drenched in love, thirsty, eager, needing him, unable to stay away from him, and then intent on love ......

Xie Qingcheng heart more or less suffocated.

It was in this mood that he slowly lost consciousness ......

Because the fever-reducing medicine contains sleeping ingredients, Xie Qingcheng slept until the next morning before waking up.

Feeling the fever subside a bit, he got up, washed and dressed, and casually warmed up some leftover dumplings from the fridge and ate them.

So after being busy for a while, Xie Qingcheng sat down and started to read a book.

Xie Qingcheng Reading a book, like watching jellyfish, is a way of diverting attention from trying to get rid of inner boredom.

There was a sudden knock on the door.

Xie Qingcheng, who had easily sunk into the world of books, came back to his senses, "Who?"

The teenager's voice came from outside in a low voice, it was actually He Yu who came to find him again, "...... It's me."

The pen in Xie Qingcheng's hand that was taking notes on the book stopped for a moment, and the tip of the pen scratched the surface of the paper.

He heard the teenager outside say, "Will you one open the door?"

"......"

"...... I want to talk to you."

Xie Qingcheng : "Stand."

"Brother ...... why did you lock the door."

"Because there will be people like you interrupting me while I'm working."

The person outside the door paused, "...... Xie Qingcheng ...... you open the door."

"Will you open the door? I'm not ...... comfortable in my mind."

It was fine if he didn't say that, but when he did, Xie Qingcheng looked over his shoulder and thought of the time when He Yu had gone crazy on top of him, panting lowly and whispering in his ear, "I'm not feeling well, I'm suffering from heatstroke, it's so hot."

"Xie Qingcheng, you relieve me of the heat."

Xie Qingcheng's voice was another octave colder, "Stand."

The teenager just didn't say anything.

After a while, Xie Qingcheng heard a hissing, hissing, very sharp scratching sound coming from the door, like fingernails scraping across a blackboard, and He Yu was there scratching at the door like a cat to get rid of him.

Xie Qingcheng said, "You're not naive."

"I'm really not feeling well. I really want to see you, is your fever better? I want to stay with you ...... I want to talk to you."

Xie Qingcheng lazily ignored him, turned on the stereo on the table, and turned up the background music to the maximum, directly covering the lack of moral movement of He Yu's fingernail cover scratching the door panel.

He read like that for a while, and gradually, there was no sound outside.

Xie Qingcheng then turned off the stereo again and finished what little was left. When he had turned the last page, he got up and went to the refreshment stand to pour a cup of coffee. Looking up at the time, he pondered that He Yu should have left, and it was time for him to go out and get another prescription. However, he gathered two books and had just opened the door when a hand suddenly propped it open with a bang!

Xie Qingcheng where is the light, he moves hard fast reaction, bang on the door again closed, but He Yu is much more crazy than him, He Yu clutched the door frame with his hands, so heavy security door closed, he did not say retracted his fingers, not even blinking.

There was a thud!

He Yu's hand was smashed with a red mark, the skin was broken, and a few seconds later, blood gushed out from the wound.

He Yu couldn't feel too much pain, and his almond eyes stared fixedly at Xie Qingcheng through the crack in the door that hadn't closed because he was against it.

Then he slowly, bit by bit, pushed the door open, as if prying open Xie Qingcheng's shell.

He's coming in.

With a blood-drenched hand, he clutched Xie Qingcheng's lapel, and then regardless of holding the person, he pressed the person towards the closet, and the force was so heavy that the whole wardrobe made a tremor and humming, and an unused ugly vase on the top of the wardrobe was knocked down, and smashed on He Yu's shoulder.

He Yu Sheng suffered, still not good eyeballs, this time the blood is not only in his hands flow, even the shoulder also dripped down.

The two men hit a switch between their tussles and the incandescent light went out, plunging the room into a chaotic darkness.

Xie Qingcheng stared into those wolf-like eyes near him in this darkness and whispered, "You're fucking really sick. Didn't I tell you to stop coming?"

He Yu's voice was also very muffled and light, accompanied by his breathing, which was taken straight out of his throat and shoved into Xie Qingcheng's chest: "My heart is in turmoil."

He also said to Xie Qingcheng, "Xie Qingcheng. my heart is in turmoil, I really have something to say to you."

"But I have nothing to say to you."

He Yu's heart was stabbed hard.

He stared at Xie Qingcheng's face, both of them breathed a little gasping for each other because of the amount of energy they used, the scent of the man and the teenager just mingled together.

"Xie Qingcheng ......"

"Get out."

He Yu did not go out, but instead pressed his forehead to Xie Qingcheng s forehead and felt it for a while, "You don t have a fever anymore ...... Did you take the medicine?"

Xie Qingcheng pushed him.

He Yu just won't let go and murmured again, "Xie, I'm sorry, I've been thinking about this for a long time, I thought about it all night yesterday, and I really can't help but tell you that I ......"

"I'm not interested in knowing, please get out."

He Yu suddenly became more depressed, he was quiet for a while, and finally seemed to give up and stop seeking Xie Qingcheng's acceptance, his eyes went back and forth on Xie Qingcheng's face, his deep black pupils gradually focusing on Xie Qingcheng's thin lips a few times, and then the knot in his throat rolled up and down.

He didn't know what was wrong with him, maybe he was compelled by the beast called "like" in his heart, and even though he knew he shouldn't, he was so overwhelmed that he lost his concentration and lowered his head--

Xie Qingcheng sidesteps it.

But this position but let the teenager hot lips on his neck, where the skin is thin and fragile, the ability to perceive the heat is even more, Xie Qingcheng New Year's Eve suffered some stimulation, and now the reaction to He Yu's contact is obvious, He Yu's lips on the neck of the sensitive place, he did not hold back, his fingers in the closet wall of the silent anti-seizure tightening, his body is also a hard tremor.

He Yu raised his eyes, his dark eyes looked at him, and said, "...... Brother, don't drive me away. Will you let me stay a little longer?"

"......"

"I really thought about a lot of things yesterday."

"......"

"I, I actually wanted to talk to you-" Unexpectedly, He Yu uncontrollably gripped Xie Qingcheng's wrist, as if hoping that he would give himself some encouragement.

Xie Qingcheng was pinched by him and instinctively gathered a strong aggressiveness, snapping, "What the hell do you want He Yu?"

He Yu originally wanted to say, "I like you, Xie Qingcheng." I realized I like you so much.

But when he looked at Xie Qingcheng's eyes, which were clearly guarded without any warmth, he didn't get any encouragement, all he got was Xie Qingcheng's rejection and wariness.

So words like that were suddenly impossible for him to say.

"I ......"

He was like a fish in his throat, he could only clutch Xie Qingcheng's wrist and refuse to let go, after a long time, as if he suddenly thought of something that could be used to euphemistically express his thoughts. So he trembled and wretchedly leaked out a few words from between his teeth, "...... I ...... Xie ...... you... ...Do you remember those pictures? It's those photos in the ...... clubhouse?"

Xie Qingcheng baffled for a moment, seemed to not expect He Yu bullshit so half a day, the last actually said this to him, could not help but burst into a rage: "You thought about it all night, is the intention to still take those photos to threaten me? I did not tell you how you like to deal with how to deal with, you want to send to the pornography and blackmail office are fucking and I have nothing to do! How dare you re--"

"I deleted it."

The last half of Xie Qingcheng's sentence was cut off by this unexpected remark.

He narrowed his eyes, and this time it was his turn to pick up the slack.

"Xie Qingcheng." He Yu controlled the tremor in his voice and repeated, "I deleted those photos."

"Completely shattered."

"......"

"No more."

The two of them looked at each other in the small space, He Yu held Xie Qingcheng's hand tightly, and an inexplicable fear seemed to have arisen in his heart at that moment.

It was as if he was afraid that Xie Qingcheng would kick him out and close the door in his face, never to open it again.

All he could do was repeat over and over, "I deleted it."

He still can't say I'm sorry or I love you, and the words "I deleted it" are like a piece of driftwood, so that he won't fall into the abyss of losing his pride, and can keep Xie Qingcheng's eyes on him.

But after a while of silence, Xie Qingcheng lifted his other hand, and stiffly, one by one, broke He Yu's fingers from his thin wrist.

"Yeah."

Xie Qingcheng softly, a few inches from his gaze, is He Yu's young face.

"So you want me to get down on my knees and be grateful to you?"

With the last finger broken, Xie Qingcheng flung his hand aside violently and grimly retreated to the cupboard, rubbing at the red marks on his own wrist.

Ever since he used RN13 to repair his body, he had become a scarred body, prone to leaving red marks, and when He Yu gripped it hard, there were traces of strangulation. The color of blood reflected around Xie Qingcheng's tattoo, very bleak.

He Yu added, "It won't happen again."

"What does it have to do with me."

He Yu opened his mouth, his heart was blocked, but his throat was too tight, he didn't know what to say, in the end he could only put all his emotions into that name.

"Xie Qingcheng ......"

Xie Qingcheng, however, said, "You go."

"Xie Qingcheng." He Yu whispered.

The more he saw him like this, the less and less courage he had to say the sentence-- Xie Qingcheng, I like you.

Getting less and less courageous.

Because he already knew what Xie Qingcheng's reaction would be.

He had spied it.

"What the hell do you want to hear He Yu." Xie Qingcheng finally looked at him, "It's all come to this what the hell do you want? --Well, I'm very thankful that you finally decided to be merciful and delete your unseemly stuff after doing so many beastly things with those pictures, I thank you, I thank you on behalf of our whole family. From the bottom of my heart, from the bottom of my soul, I thank you for your kindness. Now can you go?"

He Yu didn't leave, he had a bitter lump in his throat and was about to open his mouth to explain something when suddenly footsteps came out of the distance--

Xie Qingcheng's reaction was faster than He Yu's, he immediately sidestepped, lifted two fingers to lift the slit of the shutter window, and when he saw the person coming, his face immediately became very ugly.

"It's Xie Xue!"

This time, He Yu's face was also very wonderful, he was immersed in love but was suddenly awakened, the whole person was awake with some bewilderment.

The footsteps were getting closer and could be heard as a pair of high heels.

He Yu suddenly and completely regained his senses, he didn't care about himself, but hurriedly buttoned up Xie Qingcheng's shirt which he had just rubbed and ripped apart with his own hands.

It was then that he realized that Xie Qingcheng's shirt buttons were also too difficult to button up, his fingers touched the top two, and before he could fasten them, Xie Xue's silhouette had already passed through the window and arrived outside the door.

"Brother, did you leave the door open? I just sent Li Ruoqiu to the train station ...... Why are you pulling the curtains and leaving the lights on?"

She's coming in.

He Yu and Xie Qingcheng quickly return to their positions and pull away.

These two people did not want her to find out about this, although their faces were green and white, their hairstyles were disheveled, each other was in a bit of a mess, Xie Qingcheng's coat buttons were still two unbuttoned, and He Yu was still dripping with blood, but they tacitly understood each other and stood up straight in unison, pretending that nothing had happened.

Xie Xue a turn on the light, eye to the tragic situation, froze: "Big brother? He Yu?...... you ......"

Her eyes swept over the mess, flicking back and forth between the two disheveled men.

"What are you two doing ...... here?"

Xie Qingcheng : "......"

In this embarrassing dead silence, He Yu's reaction was faster than Xie Qingcheng: "...... Ahem, I didn't live for two days, so I wanted to help clean up, but I didn't pay attention, and I got hurt a little. Your brother he ...... was treating me and had to take off his clothes, so he pulled the curtains."

"...... Pulled the curtains also need to turn on the light ah." Xie Xue said, her eyes moved over He Yu's bleeding shoulder and hand and landed on the broken vase on the ground, she suddenly stared in disbelief, "Isn't this the handmade vase that I, I won an award for in the sixth grade of elementary school?! OMG! How did this happen!!! Who broke it!!!"

"It's because I'm not very good at housework, I didn't see the smash." He Yu said, "...... Sorry."

"Ah! You don't sweep on the first day of the New Year on the second day of the New Year! You four-bodied, five-grain young master! You don't even know that?" Xie Xue was furious, it was one of her favorite vases! He Yu stayed at her house for just a short while, and he actually gave it to her! He Yu just stayed at her house for a short while and actually gave it to her!

"I'll pay you for one ......"

"What are you paying for? Can you afford to pay for it? Can you find me in sixth grade to make another one? Pissed me off! It really pisses me off-!!!"

Xie Xue cursed, but fortunately, she is sad only her can, if let her know that her own brother to her student fuck, she may directly will rush to the kitchen to take the kitchen knife to He Yu chopped stuffing wrapped into dumplings.

This is really unfortunate, Xie Xue a hundred brains, she would not have imagined that when she sent Li Ruoqiu to the hotel to rest for two days, her big brother in charge of the house will be in this room and He Yu have many times of inappropriate relations.

Xie Xue 兀自自骂着："He Yu！You are a bastard! What do you want to do? Before cursing my brother so much, and now you are the one who relies on him to take him in, you are really inexplicable ......"

She was so incessant, as if one person's lung capacity could top a choir, she scolded He Yu for half a day, and now He Yu didn't talk back to Xie Xue, so he just let her scold him like this. In the end, Xie Qingcheng couldn't listen to her anymore.

Xie Qingcheng said, "Forget it, Xie Xue, don't say anything. He's leaving."

He said, glancing at He Yu.

Xie Xue : "But he--"

Xie Qingcheng raised his hand on Xie Xue's shoulder and shook his head.

Xie Xue then huffed and puffed, though she looked as if she wanted to take out her anger at Li Ruoqiu on He Yu.

What is it with these people, one by two, that they think you can go back on what you did wrong? Can a broken jar be restored?

Xie Qingcheng didn't want to hear any more arguments like this, and while he seemed to be carelessly buttoning up his last two collar buttons, he said to He Yu, "If there's nothing else, you can go back."

He Yu didn't move.

"Xie Qingcheng, I ......"

Xie Qingcheng stopped buttoning up and looked at him coldly and full of warning surprises, "Let's go."

"......"

With the expulsion order at this point, He Yu can't stay any longer, let alone confess.

The heart is in turmoil, but it can only digest itself.

He Yu bites his lower lip without saying a word, he has fully realized--

His fondness is a burden that Xie Qingcheng doesn't have to declare.

Xie Qingcheng, is really not going to accept him.

Or even, for that matter, want to see him at all anymore.