Blushing with anger

Seeing the smile on Lu Xun's face, Ye Yao was a bit confused.

...... Is this a case of overstimulated anger and laughter, or simply a loss of expression management skills?

Probably didn't hear it right.

"Did you hear wrong." Ye Yao decided to be cruel and say it a second time, "I like guys."

"Hear, hear, you like guys-" Lu Xun suddenly lurched, eyes widening slightly, "You like guys!"

At this moment, Lu Xun finally reacted to the meaning behind these words.

Lu Xun's hand unconsciously tightened, squeezing Ye Yao's hand, which he held in his hand.

Ye Yao tries to pull his hand out, and Lu Xun, as if startled, relaxes his grip a bit, but he still holds it, and doesn't let Ye Yao take his hand out smoothly.

"You've said before that physical contact with gay men, even if it's just touching your fingers, makes you sick." Ye Yao said.

"I ......" Lu Xun's words came out hard, and the temperature of his hand began to get lower, but he still stubbornly held Ye Yao.

"You let me slow down." Lu Xun muffled.

Lu Xun's mind was in turmoil, and he couldn't help remembering the childhood memories that made him sick to his stomach.

When Lu Xun was a child, his parents were both on the rise and were too busy to take care of him.

Lu's father and mother wanted to hire a nanny, and when he found out about this, Grandpa Lu scolded and took Lu Xun under his care.

For a long time in his childhood, Lu Xun spent time with his grandfather, being taught all sorts of useful and useless things, and a big part of it was about how disgusting gay men are.

Grandpa Lu's younger brother fell in love with a man when he was young and ran away from home for that man. The two brothers have not seen for a long time, and when his brother finally returned home after many years, he was terribly thin, and Grandpa Lu realized that his brother had not only been cheated out of his feelings but also cheated out of his money, and had been wandering around for many years, so he was furious and cursed.

The old man has hated male vixens who can seduce men ever since, and he definitely won't allow his grandson to go astray, so he scares Lu Xun in every way.

Lu Xun learned a lot of miscellaneous things when he was a child, such as the fact that gay men are more likely to get AIDS, that there was no good treatment in those days, and that low resistance caused all kinds of illnesses and eventually rotted the whole body.

Like when two men go to bed and end up with disgusting stuff all over the room, on the floor, on the walls.

To this day, Lu Xun recalls the pictures of those smelly rooms and gets sick to his stomach.

For example, relationships that can't be protected by the law are prone to scumbags, cheating on that one today, cheating on the other one tomorrow, and there just aren't many good ones.

After all of Grandpa Lu's biased guidance, he managed to get Lu Xun firmly on the path of straight men.

Lu Xun has not not questioned, but Grandpa Lu said to him: life in the world, is concerned about the harmony of yin and yang, harmony in order to achieve the Great Perfection, the two positive poles together in-depth exchanges can have what good end? This is the truth passed down from our ancestors!

The best relationship between two men is that of a friend, a confidant, a soul exchange! Is there anything more intimate than soul communion?

Lu Xun used to think it makes sense, is a brother does not need so much physical contact, talking about the spiritual level of communication, want to contact when hooking up a little bit is almost, and then deeper even if it.

Later on, when he met Ye Yao, Lu Xun gradually began to think that this statement was not necessarily true.

To be good brothers you have to try to understand each other as much as possible and tolerate everything about each other.

If he doesn't hold Ye Yao's hand, how can he know the temperature of Ye Yao's palm? If he doesn't hug Ye Yao's waist, how can he know whether Ye Yao has lost weight recently?

What the old people say is not always right, and some experiences are outdated and need to be viewed with a developmental and dialectical perspective.

He and Ye Yao are best friends.

But now Ye Yao told him that he likes men.

...... Ye Yao likes men.

Thankfully, thankfully not already married to someone else.

"Thinking clearly." Ye Yao looked at Lu Xun's strange face and smiled a little with inaudible sadness, "If you want to go out now, I won't blame you."

Lu Xun's palm was sweating, sticky and uncomfortable on Ye Yao's skin.

Lu Xun's voice was still muffled: "Is that why you're distancing yourself from me?"

"Isn't that reason enough?" Ye Yao's voice was light, "I thought you'd never be friends with a gay man, you'd be disgusted."

It's true, Lu Xun didn't say anything.

Ye Yao continued to speak slowly:"...... I want to hide it, so stay away. I also don't want you to remember the various previous encounters with me and be too nauseated to eat, I appear in your dreams and that dream becomes a nightmare."

Lu Xun held Ye Yao's hand again.

Indescribable feelings welled up in his heart, and it was as if he was watching Ye Yao step into the quagmire of his thinking, an area that was dirty and messy and foul-smelling in his mind, a swampy area that he would never have a deeper connection with than the people in it.

But now Ye Yao went inside.

"Feel free to tell me truthfully what you have in mind, there's no need to hide it now." Ye Yao concluded.

"I ......" Lu Xun raised his eyes moodily to the face he knew so well.

Every line of this face was memorized by him, making him happy at the sight of it.

Just like now when he looked at Ye Yao, he couldn't ignore the joy in his heart.

Ye Yao is Ye Yao, Ye Yao, even if he rolls around in this swamp, he's still a fresh Ye Yao, he doesn't stink, how can he be like everyone else?

Ye Yao waits for Lu Xun's answer as he awaits the outcome of his trial.

The judge who could pronounce his punishment was frowning in thought.

"You used to say you didn't want to hold hands with me on the grounds that my hands don't look like a girl's when you hold them, and you're not even making that excuse." Lu Xun frowned and cracked, "I can still just hold your hand from now on, right?"

Ye Yao: "......"

What the hell was this guy thinking?

Ye Yao couldn't help it, "Have you been stimulated so much that you've gone crazy now? Do you want me to call 120 for you?"

"I'm serious." Lu Xun said sullenly, "No matter what ...... your sexual orientation is I don t want the two of us to be estranged."

Ye Yao froze, his nose a little sour.

He got the only exception again, and Lu Xun was even willing to make an exception for him to that extent.

It is impossible for Ye Yao to say that he is not touched, and he was about to say something when he saw Lu Xun's face suddenly sink.

"Why did you find out you liked guys, and since when did you find out you liked guys, was it since you were a kid?" Lu Xun's words flew out of his mouth, "And that damn male high school student was bitching about showing you his abs, do you like him like that!"

Ye Yao : "...... Enough is enough, don't play around with your associations."

Ye Yao didn't want Lu Xun to get the wrong idea that he was hiding it when they first became friends, so he confessed, "Not since I was a kid, I realized after college that I was indeed straight in high school."

What does that mean? Doesn't it mean that Ye Yao went to college and met a heartthrob, so heartthrob that Ye Yao bent himself over backwards!

Who the hell is it!

Lu Xun was so angry that his head was spinning, and he stared viciously at Ye Yao, wanting to see through Ye Yao's eyes into Ye Yao's brain and pull out the object of Ye Yao's heartbeat and beat it up.

Lu Xun grits his teeth, "Who made you realize you suddenly like guys?"

Ye Yao averted his eyes slightly sheepishly, "It's all in the past, don't think about it so much."

Ye Yao is even defending that guy.

Lu Xun feels like he's about to explode.

When Ye Yao was a kid, he liked girls who were gentle, so the one who bends Ye Yao is probably a boy who is gentle.

Because Ye Yao is a straight man, and because his personality and all the little details of his life are too ironic, Lu Xun subconsciously categorizes Ye Yao as a top, and thus imagines the image of the boy who bends Ye Yao.

Definitely white and thin, eyes like autumn water, speak gently and softly never fight, anyway, it is the opposite type of him.

Lu Xun's mind boggled, and he had a fire going around from nowhere that made him desperate to right this wrong.

Ye Yao used to be straight, he just got bent by a guy, not necessarily impossible to straighten back up again.

How do you know if you don't try? In this society, it's much better to be straight than to be a bent guy.

Lu Xun slowed down, "You like guys, so how much do you know about two guys together specifically, comprehensively, or are you stuck at the holding hands and talking about love stage?"

Ye Yao : "...... specifics not known."

Lu Xun breathed a sigh of relief, "You might not like guys after you've seen them."

In the afternoon, Ye Yao had to continue his tutorials, so Lu Xun ordered two take-outs and had lunch with Ye Yao.

They hadn't been able to eat lunch together for a long time. Lu Xun took a bite of his meal and stole a glance at Ye Yao across the table, his body overflowing with the joy of being lost and found.

To the afternoon make up time, Ye Yao they in the living room to make up, Lu Xun is sitting in the bedroom, while listening to the outside and no should not appear the movement, while in the cell phone to download some ...... double male □□□ love movie.

Looking at the cover on his cell phone, Lu Xun closed his eyes and took a few deep breaths.

The food he had eaten at lunchtime seemed to come back up into his throat, and Lu Xun felt very uncomfortable, as if he had returned to his childhood, to the disgusting and frightening news and pictures.

With a phone so nauseous from browsing the site, Lu Xun would have quit and replaced his phone, but now he bites the bullet and clicks download.

Ye Yao most likely created the illusion that she could accept men because she didn't know and didn't understand, and automatically glorified the whole two men together thing in her imagination.

By the time he and Ye Yao finish watching ...... together Ye Yao will understand.

----

At 8:30 p.m., Ye Yao explains the last question to Wang Xue.

"Pick a for this question, acting on that principle I just told you about, try doing the math once?"

"Ohhhhhh, got it got it!" Wang Xue brushed off his calculations, he wasn't really fast at it, but in the end he came up with the right answer.

"That's awesome! It's the first time I've ever figured out the last question of a multiple choice question!" Wang Xue choked up, so excited that he was incoherent, "Brother Yao, your salary has to be increased, it has to be increased! I'll tell my mom when I get back!"

Ye Yao didn't really care if he got a raise or not, after all, he was already getting paid a lot now. He checked the rest of the topics again, set out what he wanted Wang Xue to study in advance, and sent Wang Xue away after telling him not to be lazy.

After a day of tuition, Ye Yao took a short break, ate something and showered, Ye Yao wandered around his house a few more times before going next door and meeting Lu Xun again.

Lu Xun also just showered, hair still wet. He is tall and handsome, is the walking hormone in the eyes of countless people, the object of desire in their dreams.

When Lu Xun looked up and smiled at him, Ye Yao heard his heart beat in that second.

Reuniting after a period of separation is a small, dry spell for the couple. For him, the crush, what's coming could be the next loss of control, and the danger of the truth being told.

He doesn't tell Lu Xun all of his secrets, and Lu Xun makes an exception for him, accepting him as a gay man as a friend, but what happens when Lu Xun learns who he actually likes?

Noon's happy with Lu Xun's willingness to accommodate him, deliberately trying to forget about this dangerous, possibly imminent bomb.

"Come, I'll watch it with you." Lu Xun patted the chair beside him and greeted Ye Yao to come over.

Ye Yao walks over and sits down, "What are you looking at?"

Lu Xun puts his phone on the table, between him and Ye Yao: "Movies that can make you see things."

The movie plays slowly, this kind of movie doesn't get too plot-driven and quickly gets to the main point of what everyone wants to see.

Ye Yao recalled what Lu Xun had said earlier and realized.

Lu Xun, this guy's thinking about straightening him out.

The homophobic straight guy he has a crush on sits next to him and watches gay mini-movies with him in order to straighten him out.

This sounds like a ridiculous joke.

In the movie, the two male leads meet, one touches the other's cheek, and Lu Xun turns vaguely green.

"Forget it, don't look." Ye Yao said softly, "I don't think I can come back straight."

Lu Xun doesn't pick up on this as he leans in close to Ye Yao's ear, "Can you imagine going and touching that man's face?"

The airflow from the words entered the ear and brought a tingling sensation, Ye Yao slightly tilted his head and saw Lu Xun's face.

Lu Xun is very handsome, and he already thought Lu Xun was good looking when he didn't like men yet and was just a simple friend with Lu Xun.

He also wanted Lu Xun to touch his face.

"...... can." Ye Yao said softly.

Lu Xun turned his head and Ye Yao briefly stared at each other, surprise and hidden anger in his eyes.

"Can?" Lu Xun pressed, "That's a guy!"

"Why not?" Ye Yao asked rhetorically.

"Good, very good." Lu Xun jerked his head around, "Then look behind you."

The plot flew by, the brunette hero had invited the blonde hero to his house, they were having a little drink, and the blonde hero, not sure if it was intentional or not, had a shaky hand and spilled red wine on his white shirt.

The white garment was soaked with red wine and no longer looked so clean and delicate.

"Oh this is so bad, why am I so stupid, I can't do anything right, what am I going to do?" The blonde male lead hid his face and cried as he leaned into the other male lead.

The plot was so outrageous for Lu Xun that he had goosebumps just watching it. Normally, he would have left quickly and poured himself with ice water to ease his discomfort.

But now Lu Xun's anger had pushed down the other emotions as he approached Ye Yao again and asked in a cold voice, "What about this, this is acceptable to you? Being leaned on by a man in his arms?"

Ye Yao pursed his lips and said what was on his mind, "To be honest ...... I prefer the other way."

Lu Xun's face slowed down a bit.

He knew Ye Yao wouldn't be able to handle it, and the movie wasn't in vain.

The movie goes on.

See here Lu Xun some can not slow down, he even drank two big mouthfuls of water to suppress the shock, but this is not much use.

Lu Xun subconsciously moved towards Ye Yao, and his arm touched Ye Yao's arm, just a little bit of physical contact, relieving the discomfort that the small movie had brought him.

Lu Xun simply wrapped his arms around Ye Yao's shoulders and half embraced him in his arms.

Ye Yao: "......"

"Don't move, you're looking at it with me." Lu Xun took a breath of the air around Ye Yao and felt better before raising his eyes to look squarely at what was on his cell phone screen.

Lu Xun's brain quickly hurt from watching as he quickly looked away and continued to try and work on straightening Ye Yao out.

"Think about it, can you really accept that it's a man you're with? You are of the same gender and have nothing to complement each other." Lu Xun says, "It's not spiritual understanding that most of them are seeking in there."

Ye Yao smiled.

If possible, he wanted to understand each other on a spiritual level with Lu Xun. They had been friends for so many years, they must be able to commune well.

Too bad he didn't get the chance. Lu Xun is really straight.

Lu Xun felt that his efforts should have worked, and hastened to strike while the iron was hot: "It's very undesirable to not have a noble spiritual pursuit. And two men together is not suitable in the first place. They won't be considerate, they won't be pampered, they will definitely make you tired, how can it work?"

Lu Xun saw that Ye Yao's face was fine and said what he wanted to say the most: "We don't like men anymore, okay?"

Ye Yao sighed.

He vaguely touched a little Lu Xun's thoughts, Lu Xun probably thinks that even if he is gay, he is still above that, and the difference between straight men is that the object is a man, so it is no wonder that Lu Xun accepts it so quickly.

But after watching this movie, Ye Yao knows for sure that he's not.

As soon as he says it, Lu Xun will be scared off, right?

Good thing, too, so he wouldn't have to work so hard to hide his fondness.

"Tiredness ...... is not something I should think about," Ye Yao said slowly, "it's something another person should think about."

Lu Xun's movements froze, "What does ...... mean?"

"You've got it wrong Lu Xun," Ye Yao said faintly, "I like being the one down there."

Lu Xun's expression went blank for a moment, and he stared blankly at Ye Yao for a moment, his ears coloring a little red for some reason.

Ye Yao stares at Lu Xun in silence, watching Lu Xun get back to his senses and stand up violently, scrambling for the door.

Ye Yao sat down in the room where he was alone, paused and exited the movie that was still playing on Lu Xun's cell phone, then stood up and walked out of the house where Lu Xun lived.

Lu Xun shouldn't come back to him in the future.

Ye Yao closes the door to the house and remembers the image of Lu Xun leaving.

Lu Xun ends up walking away, red in the face from his anger.