This is going to be the world falling apart

Ye Yao was so far away from him, his voice so determined, Lu Xun half-sitting on the bed, veins rising on the backs of his hands as he gripped the headrail.

What does it mean to give up illusions you shouldn't have?

All the nerves were screaming to pull Ye Yao away from him, to cradle him in his arms, to restore everything to the way it was before.

But he couldn't do that now.

"Sleep over." Lu Xun's voice sank.

Ye Yao didn't say anything, just looked at Lu Xun quietly.

Lu Xun took two breaths, and slowed down his voice: "I won't do anything, you see, we used to sleep like this when we had different beds, and I didn't disturb you."

Ye Yao pursed his lips as he glanced under the bed, his eyes sweeping over the other members of the dormitory.

Xiao Pang and Wen Ke are actually in the dormitory, but they're playing a game with their headphones on, talking about the line every now and then, very focused.

In retrospect, ever since he started staying out on the weekends and returning to the dorms, Xiao Pang and Wen Ke's frequency of headphones had increased dramatically, as if they were afraid of hearing some big, secret message.

Ye Yao once again locked eyes with Lu Xun, who looked at him with unblinking eyes, and the harsh words he had said before did not make Lu Xun have the slightest idea of retreating.

Ye Yao sighed, and instead of lying down and talking to Lu Xun again, he sat up and moved to the end of the bed and Lu Xun's proximity.

Lu Xun's voice is tight, "Now that I'm not sleeping in the same bed as you, just trying to sleep head to head in two beds, is that a fantasy too?"

Ye Yao lowered his voice and tried to reason with Lu Xun as calmly as possible, "Lu Xun, you already know that I like men."

"So what?" Lu Xun quickly asked back in a hushed voice.

"That's why it's not good for you or me to be so close when sleeping." Ye Yao said slowly, "That's something you should think about more than me."

Lu Xun stared sullenly at Ye Yao, the tips of his fingers gripping the headrail of the bed whitening.

"Knowing that you're homophobic, it was wrong of me to hide that much physical contact with you before, and I apologize for that. With the difference in our identities now, there's a lot of contact that's not allowed anymore." Ye Yao bluntly stated the truth, if it was before he had to rack his brain to think of all kinds of excuses, but now he could already say it frankly.

Lu Xun's expression was stiff, and Ye Yao couldn't see his inner thoughts.

Presumably, they couldn't let go of the friendship and were torn and upset by the difference in sexuality between them.

"Don't you apologize to me, you ......" Lu Xun took a deep breath as Ye Yao's apology struck a deeper nerve than his previous words.

Many people say in a teasing tone that wives can do no wrong, and if they do, please re-read the ordinance that wives can do no wrong.

But for Lu Xun, he was serious that Ye Yao could do no wrong, and that if there appeared to be a wrong, it must be someone else's fault.

For example, it's definitely his fault now.

Lu Xun scratched his hair as he suddenly got frustrated, "It's my fault, I used to do that kind of thing all the time and call gay men disgusting in front of you, feel free to scold me."

Ye Yao softened his voice, "It's not like you didn't know about this before, now that we've gotten our reasoning out of the way, why don't you go sleep on the other end too Lu Xun, it's not good for me to use my feet on you."

Ye Yao's gentle persuasion was equally ineffective, and after so much reasoning, Lu Xun refused without hesitation: "I don't want to, I've been sleeping at this end for two years, why do you want me to go over there? I'm going to sleep on this side."

"......" Ye Yao said, "...... whatever, I can't force you."

Ye Yao watched Lu Xun as he lay down in this direction before reaching out and pulling the bed curtains that hung at the end of the bed.

There were always bed curtains on his bed, which were drawn up at night on weekdays to the outside, so that he could not see what he was doing, whether in the opposite bed or underneath over to the desk, and could safeguard a certain amount of personal privacy.

And the area where his bed and Lu Xun's bed met, although there was also a bed curtain hanging, that bed curtain basically only served a decorative purpose and had never been drawn before.

Now, Ye Yao has closed that little curtain.

"You actually pulled the bed curtains?" Lu Xun on the other side of the bed curtains was shocked.

"Then otherwise I can't really let you see my feet when you look up, I can't feel good in my heart." Ye Yao said.

"I don't even care what do you care?" Lu Xun said sharply, "Quickly pull back the bed curtains."

"Of course I care, I'm not used to doing bad things." Ye Yao wasn't impressed, "And don't you sneak up the curtains of my bed in the middle of the night, I've marked this side."

Lu Xun did not speak again, and Ye Yao reclined on the bed.

The only sound left in the dormitory was the occasional sound of Wen Ke and Xiao Pang playing a game. Ye Yao took out his cell phone after lying down for a while and saw a message from Lu Xun.

Instead of sending something like angry and furious to cut him off, Lu Xun sent him an emoticon he'd used before.

It's still the little round-headed shark poking his head out of the wall with the accompanying text: [Any cuties at home?

Ye Yao looked at it for a moment and moved his finger to reply, [Good night, go to bed early.]

*

At twelve o'clock in the middle of the night, the lights went out in the dormitory and Ye Yao, who had fallen asleep, opened his eyes.

His bed was cut off from the outside by a bed curtain that kept him from seeing what was out there.

Ye Yao slowly got up without making any noise, he switched the position of his head and feet and came to lie down in the same position as Lu Xun, and through a thin bed curtain they were once again head to head.

Ye Yao closed his eyes.

It's true that he's not used to doing bad things, even if it's a stranger across the street, he's not likely to put his foot to someone's head, not to mention Lu Xun is his best friend.

Forget it. Lu Xun won't know anyway. That's it.

*

At two-thirty in the middle of the night, the vast majority of people in the dormitory had gone to sleep.

Except for one person.

Lu Xun quietly groped his way out of bed.

For all he knew, Ye Yao had a very regular sleep schedule and couldn't possibly be awake right now.

He can't sleep.

He wanted to take a look, just one look.

Ye Yao, the curtains on the side of the bed close to him are marked, but the curtains on the outside are not marked.

Lu Xun quietly walked to Ye Yao's bedside like a thief, and carefully lifted the bed curtains to look inside.

The light at night was poor, only the dim light from the corridor lights outside shone vaguely through the glass above the door into the dormitory. Lu Xun couldn't see for a moment and squinted his eyes to look carefully.

How ...... does it seem to be wrong, where is the head, there is no head.

Did Ye Yao bury his head under the covers?

Lu Xun thought to himself that this wasn't good, there was no fresh air to breathe, so he reached down and tried to get some of Ye Yao's covers off.

Lu Xun very carefully and cautiously made the quilt, still did not see Ye Yao's head, but instead saw a little vague, like the toe of something.

Ye Yao didn't sleep over here.

The instant this thought just flashed through Lu Xun's mind, his heart beat wildly.

Lu Xun lowered the curtains on this side of the bed to quickly reach the other end, and this time he saw what he wanted to see.

Ye Yao was sleeping peacefully, even if it was just a silhouette outline, it carried the power to make Lu Xun joyful and excited.

Lu Xun had always felt that a man could not shed tears, but he still couldn't control the swelling of his eyes when he saw Ye Yao quietly switching directions.

He was already prone to mood swings because of Ye Yao, and now it was like his whole heart had collapsed into a square.

How could anyone be such a softie, even for a bad guy like him.

Lu Xun did not reach out to touch Ye Yao's face or hair, but just watched quietly. After a while, Lu Xun realized that one of Ye Yao's hands was resting on the edge of the bed.

So he slowly moved over and pressed his forehead against the back of Ye Yao's hand.

Like a vicious dog, kissing its master's fingertips.

*

Life and studies went on as usual, and because of the need to develop morally, intellectually, physically, spiritually and aesthetically, there was no shortage of sports activities of all kinds.

The favorite recreational basketball game of male college students is back, and thanks to someone's underhandedness, this time it's still a recreational game between finance and law.

The weather is not as cold as it was in the winter, everyone is wearing thinner clothes, and with spring being such a vibrant season for everything, this basketball game can be considered to be a hot one.

By the end of the game, everyone was sweating profusely.

Ye Yao had rushed over after writing a few problems in class and hadn't had time to buy water, so he wiped off his sweat and planned to buy a bottle of water from the kiosk outside the gym.

An unfamiliar voice came from behind Ye Yao, "Ye Yao, did you not bring any water? I'll give you this bottle of water, I didn't drink it."

Ye Yao turned around and saw someone who looked familiar, Ye Yao frowned slightly and vaguely remembered that this person had played basketball with him before. Because he had helped him out, he had invited him to a milk tea store to have a cup of milk tea and chat casually.

In the back, Lu Xun comes over and tells him this guy's after him.

"I don't think you remember me, my name is Yan Xing." Yan Xing said with a smile, "I rushed over here when I heard you were playing, last time I played with you I felt that you had good skills, this time I watched from the sidelines, and I'm sure you have top-notch skills! "

"Thanks." Ye Yao says, "No need for water, I'll get it outside later."

Yan Xing continued to smile and said, "Why are you so polite? A bottle of water doesn't cost much, so it's okay to accept it."

Ye Yao: "......"

Before Ye Yao could think of how to refuse, his arm was suddenly poked and another bottle of water was handed to him.

Ye Yao looked down the bottle of water and saw Lu Xun, who was also sweating profusely.

Ye Yao didn't take it, so Lu Xun passed it toward him again.

"Unopened." Lu Xun whispers, "I didn't drink it."

This is a rare explanation for Lu Xun.

Ye Yao remembers the last time someone brought him water, Lu Xun interrupted the process of someone bringing him water in the same way, and it's all similar and not.

The last time Lu Xun stuffed him with water, it was a half-drunk bottle of water, and the two of them used to drink from the same bottle all the time, so this kind of behavior could only be considered everyday good brotherly behavior.

But this time, Lu Xun gave him an unopened bottle of water.

When drinking a bottle together, they are close friends. When one person has a bottle alone, they are friends with the right distance.

"Have you been drinking?" Ye Yao asked.

"Of course I've drunk the others." Lu Xun replied.

Ye Yao doesn't believe that Lu Xun's teammates are drinking the same brand of mineral water, which is supposed to be issued by Lu Xun's team, with only one bottle per person.

And Lu Xun came even later than he did, coming over with nothing in his hand.

Lu Xun also only has a bottle of water.

Lu Xun didn't drink the bottle of water, didn't even open it, and handed it directly to him when he had just finished playing basketball and anyone who was thirsty was smoking.

It's because I'm afraid he won't want to drink it after it's been opened.

"There's only one bottle, you just drink it." Ye Yao lowered her eyes, "I can tell you haven't had one yet."

Lu Xun added after a slight silence, "Then I'll go with you to the store to buy water."

Ye Yao doesn't refuse this time, he nods to Yan Xing and leaves.

Lu Xun of course followed Ye Yao closely, Yan Xing's obtrusive figure disappeared from Lu Xun's eyes, and his hand that was squeezing the bottle tightly finally relaxed a bit.

The man who pursued Ye Yao.

This is a man who pursues Ye Yao on the premise that Ye Yao likes men.

...... so annoying.

*

In the middle of the night, in the quiet of the dormitory, Lu Xun once again got up and secretly went to see Ye Yao's blurred silhouette.

Ye Yao was very quiet when he slept, Lu Xun watched for a long time, and in a trance, he recalled the scent in his memory.

It was the scent of the shower gel he used to be able to smell on Ye Yao when he fell asleep holding her.

It's not an uncommonly seductive scent, but when it's on Ye Yao, it mesmerizes him.

It must be the best smell in the world, and at one time he was the only person in the world who could smell Ye Yao's scent at night when Ye Yao was asleep.

Lu Xun thinks of the man who handed Ye Yao water on the court today.

Will there be other men who smell like this in the future?

Lu Xun has been subconsciously avoiding the issue, the high school students in the remedial classes are too young to pose a threat, and today Yan Xing's appearance is a complete wake-up call.

As a couple, Ye Yao would be held and hugged by other men, and they would be able to do many things that he can't do now.

...... It's like that movie he saw with Ye Yao a while back.

Ye Yao would stroke that man's cheek, stroke the knot in that man's throat.

Ye Yao, whom he had never seen before, would be admired by a man, and it would be amazingly beautiful.

That person would definitely not be him who was still thinking of remaining a friend.

As if his heart was being yanked tight, Lu Xun breathed hard and pressed his head against the cold iron railings, sucking in small gulps of air.

He was thinking about a lot of things, and there were a lot of things that struck at the notions he had grown up with, so he didn't dare to jump to conclusions.

But in this moment can be so easy to realize that a little bit of his life with Ye Yao was replaced by another man, for him ...... is the whole world collapsed.