Chapter 12: The General's Seduction (3)

"Was that magazine article the first time you saw me?"

Shuo Yan looked at Zhifan Shen, who was in a state of bewildered shock, and couldn't help but digress.

He doesn t trust him enough No, how can I say it, for Zhifan Shen, Shuo Yan is just a symbol now, and he doesn t have to tell ...... him everything He doesn t want to force him either.

"Well ...... yes."

Zhifan Shen nodded, his thoughts plucked back from that first look all those years ago, his hand unnaturally stroking the bottle of drink in his hand back and forth, the coolness of the bottle to his touch calming his mind slightly, but still overwhelmed by the sudden news.

"So," Shuo Yan sighed, "do you remember the actual, first time we met?"

Zhifan Shen paused, again looking blankly at Shuo Yan.

"It was seven years ago," Shuo Yan turned his eyes, leaving only a silhouette of Zhifan Shen's side face, which was three-dimensional, with the tip of his high nose and lips and chin able to connect into a straight line, "at N-192, that time, don't you remember? "

Seven years ago?

Zhifan Shen's throat moved slightly, and his pupils narrowed involuntarily.

Seven years ago he was sixteen, the age he knows best now, and fast becoming the age he knows best now.

He even remembers what he ate last night, that the day after tomorrow is going to be the monthly exam, and that the little fat guy at his table stuffs him with snacks every day in order to buy him cheating, and he also remembers that Zhirou Shen openly sells his photos and gets him into trouble at school. ......

However, he did not remember that seven years ago N-192 was destroyed by a big explosion in the dust, seven years ago his parents died, and seven years ago ...... he even met Shuo Yan.

How is it that the young and powerful major general of the Star Empire has nothing to do with N-192, which is called the earth planet?

Why did it all favor seven years ago, why did it favor ...... these he happened not to remember, distant to him like the unknown future, not the past.

"I, actually I ......" Zhifan Shen explained somewhat helplessly, no matter how much he tried to try, but underneath this skin was still the same sixteen year old teenager, this bewildering seven years of vacancies he had been interrupted after learning of his parents' deaths and not wanting to understand, but now he realized how much he wanted to know what had happened in those seven years, "I was injured recently, before in the mecha league ...... I didn't notice it at first, but I suddenly realized it recently and forgot a lot of things, you know... . that kind of thing I can't just talk about."

He's resorted to eclectic vagueness, but that's what he's convinced himself of lately.

There must be a reason for his memory loss, but he didn't feel a single thing wrong with his body, and subconsciously felt that it should be caused by an activity like the mecha league in question, which was prone to damage to the body.

"I really can't think of anything from seven years ago lately, so please ...... do tell me what happened."

Originally thought Zhirou Shen is not clear about the accident seven years ago, he will not be able to understand in a short period of time, but never thought that there are still people who know, but also right in front of me.

He desperately, desperately wanted to know everything that had happened that year, and in the seven years since.

Shuo Yan froze and turned his eyes sideways to see the crystals trickling down from the youth's eyes.

"I'm sorry," Zhifan Shen covered his eyes with both palms to hide his disorientation as he bent his body forward and propped his elbows on his knees, "I ...... just remembered that seven years ago my parents died The thing that I ......"

Shuo Yan was silent for a moment, his eyes slightly narrowed.

Zhifan Shen cried silently, barely a whimper, he controlled it so well, the

It was just that the silence was oppressive, as if a cold stream pressed under a broken cliff, passing by without a sound, with only his slightly trembling spine speaking frankly to Shuo Yan.

His heart softened into a puddle of water, a mess, even if he looked so immobile, handsome and cold face as if it was an unchanging stone fortress, the wind and sand do not change, can never imagine that such a person's heart hides something as soft as the first flower in the spring breeze.

He deeply realized that this is the sixteen-year-old Zhifan Shen, is his convergence into the heart of the tree roots deeply attached to the young man, he had missed the opportunity to touch his face, so that later thought of the roots of the tree will be vaguely painful, the hidden pain that makes people feel like bugs mouthing biting the roots of the tree, the pain of the fine water, long flow.

Later, Zhifan Shen has already been invulnerable, not to mention this beside him crying, he has been a touch of pale moonlight, cold and transparent, by the years of ruthlessness and cruelty soaked thoroughly, even words are extraordinarily valuable.

It's his fault, Shuo Yan couldn't help but think, his palm gently covering Zhifan Shen's spine as he tried to soothe him.

The roots of that tree had originally rotted under the hard soil, how could they not be touched, but now someone had uprooted the tree, removed the deeply buried and straggling roots, and turned it into a young sapling to start all over again so many times.

It couldn't be better. There's nothing wrong with it. It's great, really.

"I'm sorry."

He spoke softly, his fingers somewhat fondly touching the other man's spine.

Zhifan Shen's spine was somewhat slender, and the bones he touched were encased under thin flesh and bone, hard and soft.

"No, it has nothing to do with you," Zhifan Shen's mood had stabilized by the time he released his grip, only the corners of his eyes were still red with a brimming, pale red, "Please talk."

No, Shuo Yan looked at him, that's not what he was apologizing for.

What he has to apologize for is not finding him earlier at the time, and not ...... missing the unattainable teenager.

"At that time, the mission went wrong," Shuo Yan turned his eyes, his palms slowly clenched, he didn't dare to look at the corner of the other party's eyes, lest he couldn't help but kiss the other party's brow, "At that time, I was facing a desperate situation and almost nine deaths, fortunately, there was a space jumping layer at that time, in order to stay alive I I took a gamble, fortunately the gamble won, at that time I landed at exactly N-192."

Zhifan Shen 心口 suddenly tightened.

"Do you ...... remember that date?"

Shuo Yan was silent for a moment, and Zhifan Shen felt that he was being a bit forceful, after all, it was something that happened seven years ago, so it might be hard to remember.

"Remember, September 16th of '26."

Zhifan Shen opened his lips slightly and hung his head somewhat demoralized.

So it ...... must not be a coincidence, Zhifan Shen hung his head.

All he could remember of yesterday was September 15th.

Why did I forget, why did the memory come to a screeching halt on this particular day, and what kind of power was it that made that point in time, exactly the day before this event.

This bizarre discovery causes Zhifan Shen to feel a twinge of anxiety and panic, and he begins to realize that the lost memories don't seem to be occasional, but rather like a sophisticated plan.

But who can manipulate memories so precisely, other than yourself.

The more Zhifan Shen thought about it, the whiter his lips became, and he felt incredible and clueless.

"...... What's wrong?" Shuo Yan noticed something, but he was Zhifan Shen after all, and didn't know what was going on in his mind.

"It's okay, I ...... want to know if you were still there when the N-192 bombing happened. It should have been that year as well."

Shuo Yan was silent for a long time before he said softly, "I'm sorry, I wasn't there by that time."

Zhifan Shen was a little disappointed, but also secretly relieved How can I say it, he was a little scared ...... just now He was afraid that the explosion of N-192 was related to Shuo Yan.

"I'm very sorry about the explosion of N-192," Shuo Yan seemed to know what was on his mind, "but it had nothing to do with me, I had already been away for about a month at that time when I learned of the news, not only N-192, but the entire N system was affected, the number of planets destroyed was over a thousand, it was an extremely significant event that affected the higher-ups at that time, but it was handled in a very ambiguous manner. extremely significant event, the higher-ups were all affected at the time, but it was handled ambiguously and seemed to involve some unknown territory."

"I ...... am not questioning you." Zhifan Shen, who was afraid of being misunderstood by Shuo Yan, tried hard to explain.

"No, it's fine." Shuo Yan looked into his eyes and thought in his mind.

You don't know that I'd rather that explosion had something to do with me. At least at that time, I could be at your side.

"Let's talk about the first time I saw you," Zhifan Shen digressed, his mood lightening a bit at the thought, "I must have been as happy to ask for your autograph as I ...... was before I saw you like that."

Shuo Yan smiled, "Actually, no, because at that time I was seriously injured, you may ...... not even recognize it is me."

Zhifan Shen was a bit flattered, "Did I save you?"

"Uh-huh." Shuo Yan lowered his eyes and gazed at him quietly, "A little corny?"

"No ...... not!"

Zhifan Shen silently turned his face away and confessed in his heart.

This episode was in the ...... kind of dream he had when he was young ah.