"You mean a lot to me, Baby."

Xu Zhengdong waited outside the door for a while.

The waitress approached and was about to speak when Xu Zhengdong shushed her, signaling her to keep quiet. He motioned for the waiter to go inside and pour water, then turned slightly sideways and glanced through the doorway.

Unsurprisingly, Su Xingchuan sat next to Li Xuan.

The two men squirmed apart, their seats deliberately spaced apart, their bodies tilted toward each other again, unsure of what they were saying.

Xu Zhengdong gave a small laugh.

He thought Su Xingchuan was so stable, but he was just a brat.

A kid is fine, as long as he's nice to Xuan.

He could see that Su Xingchuan was hiding something, gambling, but Xuan didn't seem to see it, but he didn't intend to point it out; people can only point to the end of their feelings, and it would be meaningless to talk about it. Besides, the window is about to be broken, and if the two of them still can't see it, it only means that they are not destined to be together.

He instructed the waiter to close the door and not to go in and disturb the guests inside, and as he left, he didn't forget to say, "Pack me a copy of that pipa shrimp to take away, it smells pretty good."

The door was gently closed, and the sound of footsteps in the corridor of the restaurant instantly subsided, making the booth even quieter.

Li Xuan's "I hate you" became especially clear.

Li Xuan always had a lot of catchphrases, each of which could contain several emotions, and it was up to Su Xingchuan to judge them.

"Hating me again."

Su Xingchuan smiled helplessly, "Do you have anything else to say to me other than nasty?"

"Poor vision." Li Xuan said coldly.

"What?" Su Xingchuan didn't understand.

Li Xuan, however, is reluctant to repeat himself, slowly wiping his hands clean with a wet paper towel before picking up his chopsticks and picking up a shrimp.

Su Xingchuan finally reacted with hindsight.

"You mean Xie Liang?" Su Xingchuan let out a laugh, "Who's to say I have a bad eye? I think he's quite good."

Li Xuan looked even worse.

"He has a good character, he won't lose his temper for no reason, he's also hardworking, he won't call me every day, and his looks, it's just that he's not the same type as you, so I can't say that he's not a good-looking guy," Su Xingchuan deliberately stabbed Li Xuan, and after saying that, she also turned her head to look at him, and asked in a bad way, "Do you think he's not good? You think he's not good? What's so bad about him?"

Li Xuan's tears almost came to his eyes.

Su Xingchuan's words like a needle to his heart, he used to be bullying and arrogant, never felt that his own petulance to sell the good behavior and unreasonable will cause Su Xingchuan's annoyance, and then broke up, every time I think back to those four months of time, are secretly regretting it: he should not be too bullying Su Xingchuan, engaged in the breakup of the relationship after the look back on this relationship, he can not remember what he for the relationship. The first thing he did was to get a good look at the relationship, and he couldn't remember what he had done for the relationship.

He's been enjoying himself, and he's afraid that Su Xingchuan will hate him for it, meet someone better, and forget about him.

The more he thought about it, the sadder he became, and his stomach kept souring.

"Drink some hot soup." Su Xingchuan noticed his slightly furrowed brow and duly reminded, "Where are you uncomfortable?"

"None of your business." Li Xuan turned his head.

Su Xingchuan gave him a steaming bowl of chicken soup and placed it in front of him.

Li Xuan's eyes grew even more sore from the heat.

"How many surgeries did you do today?" Su Xingchuan began to run out of things to say; he used to be able to talk to Li Xuan about everything, but now he could only talk about work: "Do you only go to the clinic on Wednesdays and Thursdays? What time do you have lunch? Have you not eaten anything all afternoon?"

After Su Xingchuan finished speaking, Li Xuan felt hungry.

And with it came aggravation.

Li Xuan didn't have the habit of eating snacks. In the past, Su Xingchuan had a lot of classes in the afternoon, and sometimes when the last class was held until 5:30pm, he was afraid that Li Xuan would get hungry by waiting for the last class, so he would stuff two bags of cookies into Li Xuan's pocket, which he didn't like to eat, and he would only tear them open and eat a couple of slices when he really couldn't stand it anymore, and then fiercely send a message to Su Xingchuan, saying, "Good! Then he fiercely sends Su Xingchuan a message: [Fuck, my throat is blocked, Su Xingchuan, you're screwed].

Su Xingchuan couldn't help but laugh when he got this kind of news in class. He said he was finished, but Su Xingchuan could already think of the consequences, just a few more kisses, not a punishment.

Both men probably thought of pretty much the same thing.

Li Xuan said in a muffled voice, "None of your business."

Su Xingchuan slowly moved his shoulder that was unconsciously leaning towards Li Xuan back as he continued to peel the shrimp, "I know, none of my business."

He put the shrimp in Li Xuan's bowl.

Li Xuan puts his head down and sips his soup.

Su Xingchuan suddenly asked, "What does Xu Zhengdong mean by putting me here alone with you?"

Li Xuan said in a muffled voice, "I don't know."

He thought for a moment, frowned and said, "Why are you calling him by his first name? He's at least ten years older than you."

Su Xingchuan's shrimp peeling action froze in place.

He felt really cheap.

How can people be so cheap?

Xu Zhengdong put him here, and he really begged to get in front of Li Xuan, peeling shrimp for him and shushing him.

Seven years and he's made no emotional progress.

Hearing Li Xuan's words, he only felt that he was holding a ball of gas in his heart, banging around in his internal organs, with nowhere to vent it.

Really getting pissed off.

He gritted his teeth and asked, "And what should I call him?"

Li Xuan puzzled: "Call him what you want, didn't you just call him Mr. Xu?"

Su Xingchuan couldn't stand it any longer, the last bit of laughter in his eyes faded abruptly, he got up abruptly, his jaw line getting tighter and tighter, he grabbed a wet towel, wiped his hands in one gulp, didn't want to say a single word to Li Xuan, pulled away the stool and left.

The waiter at the door had been worried about how he was going to get the last of the desserts in when the door suddenly opened.

Su Xingchuan walked out quickly.

Walk out of the private dining room onto the crowded Changting Street in the evening.

The Long Pavilion, where the grasses are so bad that you can't leave them.

It's also appropriate.

He felt that he hated Li Xuan a little bit, why did Li Xuan still show up? Giving him hope and letting him down, just like seven years ago, without any reason, categorically proposed to break up.

The love that comes to an abrupt end is too hurtful, like a roller coaster suspended at the highest point, not up and down, out of the inability to come in.

It took Su Xingchuan a long time to save himself by filling himself with work, and then Li Xuan showed up again, which was just cruel.

A scene flashed in his mind, a comparison between seven years ago and seven years later, Li Xuan has changed a lot, but it seems that not much has changed, is it because he has changed? Had he really misjudged Li Xuan?

He wanted to go all the way down Changting Street, his stride unceasing, but as he walked, he circled back.

Stepping over the dead leaves on the side of the road, I returned to the entrance of the private dining room.

Saw Li Xuan sitting on a stone bench in the doorway clutching his briefcase, wrapped in a wide cotton coat and shrunken into a ball.

He used to like to hold Su Xingchuan's school bag like this.

Sitting on the edge of the basketball court, wiggling his legs.

Su Xingchuan stopped in front of him.

Li Xuan slowly raised his head, his eyes red.

Since the reunion, this is the first time he has taken off his aloof disguise and revealed his true nature in front of Su Xingchuan.

Su Xingchuan didn't understand what he was complaining about, but he was still heartbroken and squatted down in front of Li Xuan, lifting his hand and wiping his tears with his fingertips.

Li Xuan couldn't help but choke up and ask him, "Su Xingchuan, do you really only like men now?"

So Li Xuan is not unique, not important, in any other Wang Xuan Chen Xuan, as long as will be pampered, a little bit of initiative, a little bit of whine, can make Su Xingchuan heart open. Su Xingchuan was born to like men, Li Xuan is just a passerby who appears at a critical point in time, after which Su Xingchuan's life has nothing to do with him.

Li Xuan doesn't want to face this fact.

"Is that all you care about?" Su Xingchuan was really helpless.

Li Xuan threw the briefcase at Su Xingchuan and cried, "Yes, that's what I care about! I don't care if you like me now, I just want to know how much I meant to you in the first place, I only care about me, I'm just selfish and unreasonable!"

He got up and was about to leave, both hands clenching the cuffs of his sleeves, he was expecting Su Xingchuan to speak and was afraid to hear the answer.

He stepped forward, his calves heavy as lead.

The next moment, he heard Su Xingchuan say, "Important."

Tears came to my eyes.

Instead of pleasure, Li Xuan felt a deeper sense of hopelessness when he got the answer he wanted. It was important in the beginning, but what about now? It had long since been replaced.

Does he still have a chance? Can he still fight?

Li Xuan clenched his fists suddenly.

Su Xingchuan looked at Li Xuan's back as he walked away quickly and said to himself dismally, "It really matters."

Important enough to obviously be so angry with you, obviously not even consider liking boys for the first twenty years, obviously when reason told me over and over again not to choose a difficult path so easily, but still, uncontrollably, I fell in love with you.

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Seven years ago Yu Qinglan said to Su Xingchuan, "You're finished, Su Xingchuan, don't you realize you're too attached to that boy?"

Su Xingchuan said indifferently, "Really? No."

He had always thought of Li Xuan as a strange and petulant child, until that day in the middle of the day, in the heat of the summer but with a cool breeze blowing through the woods, Li Xuan leaned over and planted a kiss on his cheek.

All of a sudden the wind stopped the forest and everything stopped.

That night, Su Xingchuan experienced his first sleepless night in twenty years of life, and he had never been so anxious the night before the college entrance exam.

Although it wasn't his first encounter with homosexuality, and he'd met boys with feminine personalities before, and there were rumors that the boy preferred boys, he'd never cared, and had never felt that the group had anything to do with him, until-

Li Xuan's soft, warm lips pressed against his face.

Su Xingchuan took a deep breath.

He covered his forehead and tried to clear his memory, but the more he tried to clear it, the clearer it became.

Don't dare think about it.

That night Su Xingchuan slept only half an hour or so.

There were three more classes the next morning, and he finished them in a daze and went to the cafeteria with his roommate.

He prayed in his heart that Li Xuan wouldn't come.

But Li Xuan not only came, he also brought a bowl of boiled beef and walked over to Su Xingchuan.

Su Xingchuan instantly sobered up, quickly tightened his eyebrows, showed his rejection and disgust, and was about to draw a line with him in front of his roommates when Li Xuan put the boiled beef in his hand.

"You eat this."

Su Xingchuan choked and didn't understand what it meant.

Li Xuan pulled out another box of chocolates from his pocket and shoved it into Su Xingchuan's hand, "This is also delicious."

Su Xingchuan was frozen in place.

After the delivery, Li Xuan turned around and left.

Li Xuan pursued him at ......?

The roommate's gaze lingered on Li Xuan for a moment before looking over at Su Xingchuan, "What's the situation?"

Su Xingchuan Where do you know what's going on?

He decided to stay away from Li Xuan.

He doesn't go to the cafeteria, the basketball court, or the library study room, he refuses to show up anywhere Li Xuan can find him, and he doesn't respond to Li Xuan's messages to him.

Cathead: [Where are you?]

Cathead: [Why don't you eat?]

Cat Head: [I don't want you to feed me, I'll eat it myself.]

Su Xingchuan put away his phone, thinking: since when has eating by yourself been a reward for me?

Li Xuan continues to send him messages.

Cat Head: [Are you mad? I'm sorry.]

Cat Head: [Sorting me out.]

Cat Head: [I bought you a present, pay attention to me.]

Cathead: [You don't want me to hate you.]

Seeing Su Xingchuan ignoring him, at night, Su Xingchuan received a message with voice effect.

Cathead: [I hate you.]

Su Xingchuan was not at all surprised.

Li Xuan has always been a young master and princess.

He thought that by hanging Li Xuan out to dry like this, he would be able to end their relationship, but unfortunately, it was not to be.

A week later.

Su Xingchuan saw Li Xuan at the skateboarding club.

Su Xingchuan joined two clubs in total, one for debating and one for skateboarding, and I don't know where Li Xuan found out about this, but he even found his way here and bought a skateboard in a decent manner.

The Skateboard Club meets on Wednesdays and Sundays at 7:00 p.m. in front of the auditorium, and Su Xingchuan occasionally attends.

Today he had just sat down when he saw Li Xuan walking in his direction holding a long skateboard with a small piggy bank wrapped around his right hand.

He thought to himself, "What a stickler, I can't get rid of it.

Just as he was about to get up, the skateboarding club's senior walked up to greet Li Xuan, Su Xingchuan sat back down with a stern face.

He swept a glance with his afterglow, the senior looks clean and speaks softly, it should be the type that homosexuals like. I don't know what the senior said, Li Xuan nodded frequently.

His eyes were bright in the streetlight.

For some reason, Su Xingchuan was inexplicably unhappy.

Turns out Li Xuan has that look in his eyes when he looks at anyone.