"How many have you ...... you talked to?"

Li Xuan is still confused.

Su Xingchuan looked at him and asked, "Why did you bring me congee in the name of a girl?"

Li Xuan didn't expect Su Xingchuan to guess it right away, he was both surprised and surprised, he replied in a low voice: "My uncle said that it won't affect your reputation, and it's more respectful to you."

"And you know you disrespected me before?"

Li Xuan bowed his head, looking pitiful.

"Affecting my reputation ......" Su Xingchuan's eyes are a little complicated, "So you think homosexuality affects reputation?"

"I don't think so, but my uncle says that not everyone thinks like me." Li Xuan is serious.

Su Xingchuan looked at Li Xuan as if he was recognizing him for the first time. Li Xuan asked, "Is your fever better?"

Su Xingchuan doesn't speak.

Li Xuan looked at the people coming and going down the dormitory floor and thought about taking a step back as he said, "I'm worried about you."

Su Xingchuan was just about to be moved.

Li Xuan added, "It would be nice if we lived together."

"......"

Li Xuan had probably run to several stores, his breath was still not completely stable, so his cheeks were slightly red, and his hair was a bit messy, but when he looked up, his eyes were bright and beautiful. Su Xingchuan was mesmerized by him, he really looks like a kitten sometimes.

It also has to be a prestigious purebred Ragdoll cat.

His eyes descended, landing on Li Xuan's lips.

Li Xuan caught Su Xingchuan's gaze and pursed his lips for a moment, then loosened them again, and Su Xingchuan heard Li Xuan ask, "Do you want to kiss me?"

Su Xingchuan snapped back to his senses.

Like a ghost, he changed his face violently.

"No, how can that be?"

Li Xuan grunted.

Su Xingchuan looked away and said in a cold voice, "Thank you for the congee, no need to send it in the future, my cold has almost recovered."

The gleam in Li Xuan's eyes slowly dimmed.

"I'll be going then," Li Xuan whispered as he glanced back at Su Xingchuan again, "You get some rest."

Su Xingchuan couldn't tell you how he felt.

It's so acidic it's soft and swollen.

As he watched Li Xuan walk farther and farther away, the words Li Xuan had just said popped into his mind-"It would be nice if we lived together."

Su Xingchuan winced, what was he thinking?

Li Xuan is really terrible, he only appeared just half a month, Su Xingchuan s spiritual world has been stirred up by him, twenty years of unwavering straight male orientation suddenly became shaky, he was a bit skeptical of himself, should ...... should not have changed it.

How can it be changed so easily?

Su Xingchuan went back to drink congee.

The fragrance of the congee slowly calmed his heart. Su Xingchuan sipped the congee and thought about transferring the money to Li Xuan.

He turned fifty.

Li Xuan refused to accept.

Li Xuan didn't send "I hate you" this time, but Su Xingchuan wanted him to do so for the first time.

Sometimes Su Xingchuan also feels conflicted, he expects Li Xuan to give up, but he doesn't want Li Xuan to be really sad.

He waited all night without hearing from Li Xuan.

He thought: Li Xuan is really not good at chasing people.

As a result, that night, just after twelve o'clock, he received a belated message from Li Xuan.

CAT HEAD: [Good night.]

Su Xingchuan froze and scrolled up the chat log.

After counting, sure enough, Li Xuan had sent him a total of ten messages yesterday, so tonight's goodnight would have to be pushed past twelve.

Su Xingchuan For crying out loud, who the hell made an appointment with him to only send ten messages a day?

But looking at the word "good night", Su Xingchuan was actually relieved. He didn't know whether he was glad that Li Xuan hadn't given up, or that Li Xuan wasn't sad.

Anyway, he immediately replied: [Good night.]

The bottom of Cat's head frequently shows "the other party is in the process of inputting", Su Xingchuan guessed that Li Xuan was probably deleting and rewriting again, and a few minutes later, Li Xuan's message was finally difficult to produce.

CAT HEAD: [Good night.]

Su Xingchuan snorted out a laugh.

Half a dozen changes to ...... and that's it?

The roommate, who had just finished washing her face, heard Su Xingchuan's laughter and asked curiously, "What are you looking at that's so funny?"

Su Xingchuan changed his position to lie down, "A fool."

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Su Xingchuan's fever only lasted for one night. Fortunately, he usually exercises a lot and is strong, plus he is young, so he took the medicine once and drank more boiled water, and he was refreshed again the next day.

Sophomore year is the most crowded class, Su Xingchuan just came out of the grand staircase classroom for probability theory, bought a can of Coke from the vending machine, and then had to rush to the upper floors of the East Education Building for international finance.

I found a seat two minutes before class started, and before I could pull out my book, someone dropped in next to me.

Familiar flavor, familiar feeling.

When he turned his head, he saw Li Xuan.

Li Xuan, wearing a black short-sleeved shirt of the same color as Su Xingchuan's today, his thin arms waving in the sleeve tubes, winks at Su Xingchuan, and frankly pulls out a copy of International Finance from his bag, telling Su Xingchuan, "I'm here to observe."

"...... Young master, how did you find your way here?"

"Asked your class."

"You asked?" Would Li Xuan take the initiative to add a stranger's contact information just to get information? Su Xingchuan was skeptical.

Li Xuan was frank: "I paid someone to ask."

Su Xingchuan shook his head helplessly, "What else was asked?"

Li Xuan said in all seriousness, "Your class schedule and GPA rankings, your grades are good, I'm satisfied."

Su Xingchuan raised an eyebrow, "Invasion of my privacy, next door is the law school, I'll arrest you after class."

Li Xuan brought both hands to Su Xingchuan.

A look of waiting for him to put on the handcuffs.

Su Xingchuan didn't know what came to his mind, coughed lightly twice, raised his fingertips against Li Xuan's hand, and said in a low voice, "It's been almost half a month, and it's still wrapped in gauze, so if you don't know, you'll still think that you broke a bone."

Li Xuan put his right hand on Su Xingchuan's hand.

Su Xingchuan gestured to untie the bow on his gauze, Li Xuan angrily stuffed his hand into his pocket and forbade Su Xingchuan to touch it.

Su Xingchuan laughed softly and opened his laptop.

The associate professor of the lecture came in, Li Xuan was understanding, did not bother Su Xingchuan during the class, just flipped through the book of international finance page by page to read back, sitting quietly.

Su Xingchuan originally thought he was annoying, but he slowly realized that he was the one who had been looking at Li Xuan with his afterglow, observing Li Xuan's every move, but Li Xuan hadn't moved much. Li Xuan seemed to be quite interested in international finance, and during one class, while the students around him were drowsy, he carefully watched the forty-second page.

It's still fascinating to watch.

When the bell rang, he came over to look at Su Xingchuan's page numbers and grinned, "You guys aren't moving as fast as I am in class!"

When he didn't smile he looked like a porcelain doll with coldness, when he smiled, the coldness subsided and he looked much cuter.

Once again, Su Xingchuan didn't look away.

"I think this is interesting."

Li Xuan pointed to the chapter on "Balance of Payments".

He was the guest of honor, and talked to Su Xingchuan about international finance. There were people looking over, and Su Xingchuan heard some students whispering on his right, which would have made him uncomfortable in the past, as he didn't like to be talked about by other people. But now, looking at Li Xuan's indifference, he actually felt that it didn't matter.

Li Xuan rubbed his stomach, "I'm hungry."

Su Xingchuan took out a bag of small cookies from his school bag and handed it to Li Xuan: "Have some of these for your stomach."

Li Xuan bristled, "Don't like the sesame flavor."

Su Xingchuan should have retorted "I don't want to eat it", but he was quick to ask: "Then what flavor do you like?"

"Milk and cheese."

Li Xuan is used to climbing up the ladder.

Su Xingchuan deliberately said, "It's easy to get acne if you eat too much sweet."

Li Xuan shook her head, shaking her legs interlocked, and said smugly, "I haven't had acne since I was a kid, I have great skin."

Su Xingchuan's gaze shifted from the small cookie in Li Xuan's hand to Li Xuan's face, and the knot in his throat slid involuntarily.

It seems really good.

Delicate and smooth, white and red.

Stop--

Su Xingchuan shifted his eyes violently, sat up straight, and faced the podium, only to run into Yu Qinglan's teasing eyes that were both smiling and unsmiling; his face stiffened slightly, and as he was about to explain, Li Xuan suddenly lifted up his little piggy hoof and thumped it on his arm.

"No looking at her." Li Xuan huffed.

"...... We're hairdressers."

"All the more reason not to look!"

Su Xingchuan realized that Li Xuan was really going to get his way, and he said, "Why? You're not my date."

Li Xuan pouted, Su Xingchuan didn't eat his words, "It's useless to pout, I don't like boys anyway."

Li Xuan threw the small cookie to Su Xingchuan, twisted his body, turned his back to Su Xingchuan, and continued to read his book.

Seeing Li Xuan angry for the first time, Su Xingchuan was a bit flustered, and touched his forehead helplessly, not caring about Yu Qinglan in the front row, who was getting more and more convinced, and reached out to touch Li Xuan's shoulder.

"No cookies? No I'm eating?"

He tore open the bag.

Li Xuan doesn't care about him.

Su Xingchuan didn't know how to coax Li Xuan at that time, so he would just sit still and be at a loss for words, coughing from time to time. Li Xuan wasn't overly petulant at the moment, and sensing that Su Xingchuan was attracting his attention, Li Xuan looked for his own steps, slowly turned around, and stretched out his hand towards Su Xingchuan, "Give it to me."

Su Xingchuan puts a sesame-flavored cracker in Li Xuan's hand.

Li Xuan took a bite, "It's okay."

Su Xingchuan deliberately didn't look at his squirrel-like bulging mouth, avoided his line of sight, and pretended to be calm as he continued his lesson.

A few minutes later, Su Xingchuan received a message from Yu Qinglan: [Don't worry, I've already told my schoolmate not to expect anything more from a man who thinks men are cute].

...... What's with that.

Su Xingchuan felt a pain in his brain.

When the bell rang, Li Xuan followed him to the cafeteria.

In the evening, the cafeteria is still full of variety, and Li Xuan hangs out at the small-bowl window for half a day, finally picking out his favorite dish.

Su Xingchuan said, "What a young master," but still saved him a seat and brought him chopsticks and a spoon.

Chopsticks didn't work though.

This time it was Su Xingchuan who offered to feed him.

The first time I didn't argue about feeding, Li Xuan was still a bit uncomfortable, wiggling his legs at first, then afraid that this would be his last meal, he took the spoon halfway through the meal and pretended to be a good boy, saying, "Actually, my hands are better, I can eat on my own from now on."

Su Xingchuan looked at his empty palm.

It was actually a bit of a loss.

Leaving the cafeteria, Li Xuan followed Su Xingchuan to the dormitory floor, and before Su Xingchuan went up the stairs, he said, "Help me untie this." He raised his right hand in front of Su Xingchuan.

He finally doesn't have to his little piggyback sellout.

"What's with the sudden need to unravel?"

"Shower, please."

Su Xingchuan pulls him over to the garage where the bicycles are kept and, by the light of a street lamp, unties the gauze from Li Xuan's hands.

Su Xingchuan felt uneasy when he got closer, and when he looked up, he found Li Xuan staring straight at him, and then nudging his mouth.

"Can I kiss?" Li Xuan asked.

Su Xingchuan didn't blow up this time, he bowed his head, restrained his emotions, and refused Li Xuan : "No."

Immediately afterward, he added, "Kissing in the face is not allowed either."

Li Xuan gave an "oh" and didn't say anything.

Unwrap circle after circle of gauze.

Li Xuan's right hand was finally free, the thin bloodstain on the back of his hand had scabbed over and healed, and he opened his hand towards Su Xingchuan.

"Who wants to see your paws?"

Li Xuan suddenly commiserated, "Fierce, you're just so mean to me, when you're obviously so gentle with your classmates and those basketball players."

Su Xingchuan was dumbfounded.

Is this evil?

He grimaced and said, "It's not like those guys kissed me."

Li Xuan's defense: "Kissing on the face doesn't count, not on the mouth."

He always pouted unconsciously when he spoke, his lips looked rosy and soft, in Su Xingchuan eyes a burst of vaporization a clear.

Su Xingchuan bashful panic, dumbly said, "pro wherever counts, are very bad."

Li Xuan glared at him, "You obviously care about me."

Su Xingchuan panicked, raised his voice and denied, "Who said that?"

Li Xuan couldn't tell you why, but could only say sullenly, "Anyway, you just care about me so much that I won't argue with you."

He threw the gauze into a trash can and walked away, leaving Su Xingchuan alone by his bike, lost in thought.

Heart beating wildly.

It was half an hour before he regained his composure, and with the evening summer breeze blowing, he returned to his dormitory in a state of disorientation.

Before going to bed at night, I received another message from Li Xuan.

Cat's Head: [image]

Cat Head: [My mom got Boo Boo little wings.]

Li Xuan's silver tier cat is nothing like Li Xuan, fat and silly, with a face as big as a pot. Su Xingchuan thinks: Li Xuan is not a silver tier, he is a Ragdoll cat, like a little princess.

He'd never had a Ragdoll cat, though, so he didn't know if Ragdolls had good temperaments or not, but Cat's Head had a terrible one anyway.

He replied: [Oh, lovely.]

Cathead: [He's super well-behaved and very affectionate, you'll know him when you see him someday, good night.]

Su Xingchuan thought he wouldn't be able to sleep.

But thankfully, it didn't take long to close his eyes before he fell into a sleepy state.

He had a dream.

Hazily he walked into a strange space.

In the background is the living room of Li Xuan's house, white sofa, by the fireplace, reddish brown chevron blanket, he looks around and suddenly he sees Li Xuan nestled in the sofa, his head tilted as he is dozing.

In his arms was a chubby silver taper, and the kitten was sleeping soundly in his arms. Sensing Su Xingchuan's proximity, the kitten opened its eyes alertly and then ran away with a swoosh. Li Xuan woke up in a daze and stretched out his hand when he saw Su Xingchuan. Li Xuan woke up in a daze, and when he saw Su Xingchuan, he stretched out his hand, which looked no different from a cat stretching its legs.

The palm was warm and the fingertips were soft.

Li Xuan collapsed into Su Xingchuan's arms, his arm resting on his shoulder, and cooed, "Su Xingchuan, so sleepy."

Su Xingchuan sat down, and Li Xuan quickly found a comfortable position in his arms and lay down with a crooked body.

Li Xuan's body was soft and hot, his waist was so thin that even through his pajamas you could see the slight curve of his sag, making you want to put your hands on it, and his cheeks attracted Su Xingchuan's attention.

It's tempting to pinch him.

Instead of being pissed off, he should be pouting.

Li Xuan is a pampered woman, and she's the best at whining.

Li Xuan finally woke up after sleeping shallowly in his arms for a while, he tilted his head up to look at Su Xingchuan and said in a sticky voice, "I'm hungry, I want to eat tomato beef brisket over rice."

Su Xingchuan pinched his face.

He finally felt what Li Xuan said, "My skin is fine".

It's really good.

Li Xuan pouted and said, "Kisses first."

Su Xingchuan lowered his head to kiss, Li Xuan became active, his arms tightly circled around Su Xingchuan's neck, grunting as he endured Su Xingchuan's kisses, he was too petulant.

Su Xingchuan pressed him onto the sofa and he didn't resist, only when Su Xingchuan lifted up the hem of his pajamas and probed inside bit by bit, he suddenly asked, "Su Xingchuan, are you still straight?"

-- Su Xingchuan, are you still straight?

Su Xingchuan felt a violent shudder run through his body.

He opened his eyes and saw the ceiling of his dormitory.

The charm of the dream is still lingering, Su Xingchuan's chest can't stop rising and falling, and his breathing is still chaotic.

That's crazy.

He actually ...... actually had that dream.

The protagonists of the dream are him and Li Xuan.

He woke up the next day and messaged his nemesis: [Ask you a question.]

Deadpool: [You say.]

Su Xingchuan : [It's just that, you know, I'm a straight guy, there's no doubt about it, but it's possible for a straight guy to dream about another guy, right?]

Deadbeat: [? ]

Su Xingchuan : [Nowadays, in this society, we should respect and tolerate all kinds of niche groups, and some boys do make people protective, so it's normal to have a little bit of intimacy and kiss or something, don't you think?]

Deadpool: [Chuan, when did you bend it?]

Su Xingchuan: [...... I'm straight.]

Deadpool: [The kind of straight guy who goes straight when he sees a man?]

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Su Xingchuan could never have imagined.

The person being chased suffers instead.

He waited for twenty minutes at the entrance of Cafeteria No. 1, but Li Xuan was nowhere to be seen. Yu Qinglan passed by him and asked him what he was standing here for, and Su Xingchuan also wanted to ask himself: what am I doing?

Waiting for Li Xuan to eat?

A mixture of annoyance and remorse and a bit of hidden anticipation had kept him distracted for the past few days. Last night Li Xuan asked him to have dinner at Cafeteria No. 1, and as the pursued he not only came, but stood at the door waiting for twenty minutes, only for Li Xuan not to show up.

He took out his cell phone and tried to send a message to Li Xuan.

After thinking about it, I still haven't sent it out.

He turned around and went in with Yu Qinglan, who asked him, "Where's Cutie?"

Su Xingchuan frowned, "What cutie?"

"That boy, ah, he's so good looking, I heard he's from the medical school, I can't even dare to imagine him standing on the operating table, it feels like cutie pie pretending to be cool," Yu Qinglan squinted her eyes and fiddled with two chopsticks pretending to do surgery, she said, "Originally I thought you suddenly became gay This matter is too ridiculous, but once I saw that the subject was a cutie pie, I thought about it, why, it's understandable!"

Su Xingchuan : "...... I'm not gay."

Yu Qinglan looked like she had heard a big joke, she said in a conspiratorial and pretentious manner, "So what flavor do you like to eat? Don't try to be nice. You're pretending to be nice again. Why? You're not my date. Are you hungry? Are you hungry? Are you hungry--"

Su Xingchuan was so upset that he directly interrupted her, "Bother you, you can't even stop your mouth from eating!"

Yu Qinglan raises an eyebrow, "Look, what are you doing to me and what are you doing to him?"

Su Xingchuan thought to himself, "That's it, he still thinks I'm mean.

As I was talking, I looked up and saw Li Xuan standing not far away with his backpack, looking around.

Su Xingchuan was actually a bit weak.

The next second, Li Xuan saw him, and then saw Su Xingchuan opposite Yu Qinglan, hesitated in place for two seconds, suddenly cold face, twisted around and went to the window alone to get food.

Su Xingchuan watched him take the tray and walk to an unoccupied corner.

Sit down and eat alone in silence.

Two minutes later.

Su Xingchuan sat down across from him.

Li Xuan raised his eyes, looked at him, and grunted.

"Just playing the poor guy."

Li Xuan glares at him, "I'm twenty minutes late for an experiment and you're eating with the other girls."

Su Xingchuan shrugged, his tone indifferent, "It's not like I agreed to eat with you."

Li Xuan turned his head.

Su Xingchuan couldn't help but say, "Why are you so grumpy?"

"I'll be good if you'll be my boyfriend."

"......"

Li Xuan started selling himself again, "I definitely won't be mad at you in the future, and I'll take care of you."

He pushed the small bowl of pickled fish he had specially ordered in front of Su Xingchuan, "I'll buy you something delicious."

Not skeptical.

Li Xuan He was just playing pathetic to lure him in.

Why else would he buy an extra order of pickled fish on purpose?

Li Xuan is too good at holding him.

Su Xingchuan couldn't help but ask, "How many have you ...... you talked about?"

Li Xuan didn't understand: "What?"

"I see you're quite skilled," Su Xingchuan says, aggravated but curious, "How many boyfriends have you had?"

"Haven't talked about it, you're the first."

Su Xingchuan doesn't believe it.

"It's really the first one!" Li Xuan was eager to prove it and didn't know how, so he could only say, "Lying is a puppy!"

He bumped the toe of Su Xingchuan's shoe with the toe of his shoe.

"I haven't talked about it, really."

Can't really prove it, but Li Xuan never lies.

For some reason, Su Xingchuan felt a tingling pleasure spreading throughout his body, indefinable, as if something had been greatly satisfied, and he hooked the corners of his lips.

Li Xuan picks up a piece of pickled fish and puts it on Su Xingchuan's plate, who doesn't push back this time and picks it up and eats it.

Li Xuan was happy again, wobbling around on both legs, occasionally bumping into Su Xingchuan's leg as he began to sway from side to side again.

Su Xingchuan didn't mind him, but said, "Eat quickly."

After eating, he and Li Xuan walked out of the cafeteria.

Li Xuan dragged him towards the grove, Su Xingchuan knew exactly what was going to happen, but still let Li Xuan manipulate him, Li Xuan tugged on his arm, put both hands on Su Xingchuan's small arm, and said miserably, "My hands are so sore, I've been experimenting all morning. I've been doing experiments all morning."

Su Xingchuan asked him what kind of experiment he was doing.

He answered truthfully.

One by one, out-of-the-way terms came out of Li Xuan's mouth, and Su Xingchuan suddenly thought of Yu Qinglan's words.

--shuddered to think of him standing on the operating table.

Su Xingchuan couldn't imagine what Li Xuan would look like when he grew up.

What will it look like five years from now, ten years from now?

Will it turn out to be a very boring adult?

And then he wondered if he would have been so carefree if he had been loved with all his heart and lived in a loving environment.

Li Xuan's hand slowly slides down, his fingers touching Su Xingchuan's wrist, and uncontrollably, Su Xingchuan opens his hand and grabs him.

Li Xuan's hand was slightly clenched in a fist, and Su Xingchuan's hand was a bit larger than his, just enough to wrap around him.

Li Xuan froze.

Time stands still, and Su Xingchuan can hear Li Xuan breathing.

Li Xuan looked into Su Xingchuan's eyes, blinking, wanting to come up and kiss him but not daring to, Su Xingchuan's expression didn't change, neither did he refuse nor acquiesce, his breath entwined, the temperature rising.

In the end, Li Xuan could only fall on Su Xingchuan's shoulder, cheek to cheek, cooing, "What's wrong with a kiss?"

Su Xingchuan said in a deep voice, "Li Xuan, I'm not like you, I can't easily take another path, I'm afraid of regretting it later."

Li Xuan understood this time, and he let out an "uh-huh".

Su Xingchuan did not say "good" or "bad".

Just say, don't dare.

He's only twenty years old, he doesn't dare to be responsible for Li Xuan.

Instead of laughing at his timidity, Li Xuan leaned on his shoulder and said, "My uncle said that if you say yes to me at once, it means that you're not a good person, so I think you're good."

The sound of birds and birds in the grove stirred the pool of two hearts.

Li Xuan said, "I'm in no hurry."

June is coming to an end in River City.

With the summer vacation coming up in ten days or so, and with the most painful exam week before the summer vacation, Li Xuan and Su Xingchuan are both busy.

During the weekdays they only occasionally had dinner together or studied together in the library.

The reason why they can't be together every day is because Su Xingchuan realizes that Li Xuan is too easy to distract him. Li Xuan just sits next to him and shakes his leg, and Su Xingchuan can't help but keep looking at him.

Or Li Xuan reminds him, "Have you finished reviewing?"

Su Xingchuan snapped back to reality and said with a stern face, "I finished reading it a long time ago, this subject is my best."

Li Xuan grunted.

Su Xingchuan hummed like him.

In the library, Li Xuan is afraid to speak up, so he takes out his cell phone and sends a message to Su Xingchuan.

Cat Head: [You peeked at me.]

Su Xingchuan: [Narcissistic.]

Cat Head: [You're just peeking at me, I look good sideways.]

Su Xingchuan snorted out a laugh.

Li Xuan cherished his quota of ten messages a day and wasn't going to poke Su Xingchuan, who put down his phone and continued to read.

Su Xingchuan looked at him squarely this time.

Sideways is nice to look at.

Li Xuan should not have grown up completely, the side face looks cute, if the baby fat is gone, the outline of the features to fall more clear and three-dimensional, it should be better to see.

After the last test, Su Xingchuan waited for Li Xuan downstairs in the laboratory building, but he didn't come out for half a day.

He glanced at the time, it should have ended long ago by all rights.

On second thought, go in and look for Li Xuan.

Instead, they found Li Xuan, who had been shouted at, around the corner on the second floor.

Li Xuan stood at the corner of the stairs with his backpack on, twisting his head to look behind him at the boy, a boy a little taller than Li Xuan.

The boy asked him, "Do you go home on vacation?"

Li Xuan thought that was a strange question, "Of course."

"I ...... Can I add a contact with you? I ...... I have some experimental questions I'd like to ask you."

The intent is clear.

Su Xingchuan's eyes instantly turned cold.

He turned slightly sideways, standing in the blind spot of Li Xuan's field of vision, and waited for Li Xuan's answer.

"But I already have a boyfriend." Li Xuan said.

He said it bluntly and earnestly.

Like an oath.

Su Xingchuan felt his heart beating two beats faster.

The boy also understood and didn't dwell on it.

Li Xuan walks down and sees Su Xingchuan on the corner of the first floor, his eyes widen in surprise, then he rushes down at a fast pace.

For a moment both men forgot to distinguish themselves.

He rushed into Su Xingchuan's arms and Su Xingchuan hugged him.

The boy poked his head out and saw the scene, Su Xingchuan raised his eyes to look at him, the boy's face darkened and he turned around resentfully and went back upstairs.

Li Xuan was smart enough to ask, "Did you hear that?"

Su Xingchuan didn't answer.

"Are you happy?" Li Xuan asked him with a smile.

Su Xingchuan felt that something had been calling out, something stupid that came out along with the jealousy, and he wanted to squash it, to squash this incorrect, off-track, and likely-to-be-regretted relationship.

But Li Xuan's eyebrows and lips were close at hand.

Is it really necessary to take this step?

Su Xingchuan is not a capricious child, unlike Li Xuan, he has been a standard "other people's children" since he was a child in elementary school, he has been the class president since elementary school, he has gone through the middle school exams and the college entrance exams, he has been promoted all the way to the University of A, he comes home with his parents during holidays to watch TV, he helps his parents to clean up the house, and all the family members and neighbors like him very much. ......

Su Xingchuan never imagined that one day he would have to face: do I want to become gay for this boy in front of me?

Homosexuals, the unknown group.

Want one?

He still couldn't make a decision.

He let go of Li Xuan and walked forward in a hurry, Li Xuan followed him, quickening his pace and grabbing his hand, "I won't ask anymore, I won't ask anymore, okay? Su Xingchuan, wait for me!"

He used to think Li Xuan couldn't chase people at all.

It's only now that I realize how rare Li Xuan is. He rejected him for a month, and Li Xuan chased him for a month, not slacking off for a day.

He slowly turned from being upset at first to being heartbroken.

In fact, many times he didn't want to withdraw his hand, in fact, he had dreamed of Li Xuan several times, the scale was bigger than once.

He knew that any longer.

Sooner or later he's going to fall.

He had always been a decisive man and did not like to waste time, yet he hesitated and hung back on this matter.

He packed his bags with an evasive mindset.

Li Xuan sent him a message.

Cathead: [It's my birthday in a few days, and you're going home so we won't be able to spend it together].

Cathead: [I bought a cake and we're having an early birthday at the restaurant next to the school, okay?]

Li Xuan has backed down to this level.

Su Xingchuan felt his heart sink more and more, so heavy that it choked with pain.

He replied, [I bought a ticket back to my hometown this afternoon, at 2:00 p.m., so I shouldn't be able to make it.]

Li Xuan never replied.

He bought the ticket a month ago, before he met Li Xuan, it was hard to get a ticket from Jiangcheng back to Ling'an, Su Xingchuan couldn't get a refund, and his mom was still waiting for him to go home.

Su Xingchuan said to himself: Whatever.

Let's pretend Li Xuan never existed. I can't become gay. I can't fall in love with a boy.

His lack of knowledge about the group and only hearing negative news made him fearful of the unknown.

He has always been calm and down-to-earth, and he can't do anything out of the ordinary.

He was at the station at twelve o'clock for the two o'clock in the afternoon train.

Sitting in the waiting hall, he checked the time repeatedly.

The flow of time became faster because of his anxiety, he wanted to reply something to Li Xuan, he knew that Li Xuan must be very sad at the moment, he wanted to calm Li Xuan down.

But there's still twenty minutes to go before the train leaves.

Eventually he couldn't help himself and sent Li Xuan: [I'm about to get on the bus.]

Soon, Li Xuan's side shows "the other party is in the process of typing".

CAT HEAD: [Good.]

Su Xingchuan: [I wish you a happy birthday in advance, and I'll bring you a birthday present when school starts].

Su Xingchuan: [I'm sorry, Li Xuan, it's not you, it's me who can't do it, we can continue to be friends].

There was no reply from the opposite side for a long time.

Su Xingchuan thought: I guess I'm going to hate me again.

Probably ignore him for a long time.

A few minutes later, the phone vibrated and Li Xuan's reply finally came through, which Su Xingchuan immediately clicked on.

Cathead: [Then be friends.]

Su Xingchuan's pupils are trembling.

Instantly the face was ashen.

He thought he had misread it, but a few words stood out clearly on the screen, and it was Li Xuan who had sent it.

Su Xingchuan, pretending to be calm: [What do you mean?]

Cat Head: [If you really can't accept liking boys, I can't force you to be friends.]

For the first time, Li Xuan was understanding, but Su Xingchuan couldn't stay calm.

Obviously it was in his favor.

And he wasn't happy about it at all.

At this moment, he realized that when he sent that sentence to Li Xuan, his heart was actually expecting Li Xuan to say: don't.

Expect him to say, I'm not going to be friends with you.

In his usual petulant tone, he glared menacingly at Su Xingchuan and then bumped Su Xingchuan's leg under the table.

But Li Xuan gave up.

He gave up.

Su Xingchuan has thought of many endings to his story with Li Xuan, but never imagined that it would come to an abrupt end. When his roommate reads male novels, he often complains about the story's bad ending. Su Xingchuan used to be unable to empathize with the story, but now that he is in the middle of it, he can feel it.

Really ...... that's it?

Radio alert: "Tickets are being checked for train G7096."

Su Xingchuan looked at the time, there were still five minutes left.

He glanced at the high-speed rail ticket in his hand.

From Jiangcheng to Ling'an, more than four hundred kilometers.

The radio alerted once again, "Ticket checking for train G7096 is about to end, and ticket checking for train G7096 is about to end."

Su Xingchuan stood up and threw away the high-speed train ticket.

Dragging the suitcase in the direction of the exit.

He thought: at least give Li Xuan his twentieth birthday.