I love him to pieces

Li Xuan didn't think he was used to running away, and he hadn't encountered many obstacles in his upbringing.

If Su Xingchuan's mother hadn't shown up, Li Xuan would probably have remained confident that he was fearless.

Seven years ago, the winter vacation ended early, Su Xingchuan and Li Xuan spent New Year's Day together, and then went back to their own homes.

After returning home, Li Xuan was very bored alone, sighing all day long at home, bored to death. He had gotten used to Su Xingchuan, used to Su Xingchuan being by his side all the time, and when he was lying in bed, he suddenly missed Su Xingchuan.

So, he made a bold decision.

Take the bus to Su Xingchuan's house and look for him.

It was snowing heavily that day, and the snowflakes were falling, Li Xuan followed the map on his cell phone to find Su Xingchuan's home, and he deliberately didn't tell Su Xingchuan, he was going to give Su Xingchuan a surprise.

It was only when he got to the bottom of Su Xingchuan's house that he called Su Xingchuan, the corners of his mouth curled up high, and when the call was answered, he was about to pamper himself, saying triumphantly, "Su! Chuan! Chuan! Guess where I am? I'm downstairs at your house!"

Instead, an unfamiliar voice came on the other end of the line.

"I'm Xingchuan's mom."

Li Xuan's smile froze at the corners of his mouth.

"You're downstairs aren't you? I'm coming down now."

A few minutes later, Li Xuan saw a woman in a black-and-white checkered down jacket come down, and he immediately recognized it as Su Xingchuan's mother, because Su Xingchuan's eyebrows resembled hers.

He Ning, who was not yet retired and worked as an accountant for a construction company, came up to Li Xuan, not looking very well.

Li Xuan was not a very polite child, he looked at He Ning blankly, and it was only half a day before he remembered to call out, "Hello, Auntie."

He Ning seems to know him already.

The snow was already so thick that Li Xuan's ankles were almost submerged, and he felt so cold that he thought to himself, "Tonight, I want Su Xingchuan to help me cover my feet, and I also want to use his abs to cover my hands.

He Ning got right to the point: "I saw your chat logs with Xingchuan, you're in a relationship, aren't you?"

Li Xuan froze and nodded.

"Are you gay?"

Li Xuan nodded obediently at that time.

Every day afterward Li Xuan regretted that he felt so stupid and foolishly naive. Because his mom and dad doted on him and accepted his sexual orientation helplessly, he assumed that all parents in the world were like that, and he kept envisioning over and over again that if he hadn't nodded his head at that time, would things have turned around?

But then he would just nod meekly, and as soon as the words left his mouth, he saw He Ning's eyes instantly overflow with disgust.

"Xingchuan is not gay, I know my son best, he received a love letter from a girl in middle school and was happy to tell me about it, so I'm pretty sure that he's not gay."

"You made him like this!" He Ning gritted his teeth.

Li Xuan's face lost its color little by little.

He couldn't refute it.

"Li Xuan, that's what I'll call you."

Because of the cold weather, He Ning's voice was slightly shaky but firm: "I know parents shouldn't meddle in their children's relationships, but in your case, I have to intervene, I don't agree with you being together, no matter if you're just playing around or if you're sincere, I won't allow it!"

"I don't understand your group, I think it's a psychopathic disorder, how, how can you like men? It's just disgusting, I don't want my son to get sick, please leave him and don't give him those messed up diseases!"

Li Xuan froze in place in shock, "I--"

He Ning's emotions couldn't be stopped, and all she could think about was the unintentional chat on Su Xingchuan's cell phone two days ago, where Li Xuan asked Su Xingchuan when he was going to the hotel.

She flipped through her son's photo album and found it full of pictures of Li Xuan, even some while he was sleeping.

He Ning stumbled back and crashed into a cupboard, she couldn't believe it and she didn't want to believe it, not realizing that the next day this boy named Li Xuan was looking for her and she had to do something about it.

She couldn't let it go.

She said angrily, "By all means, don't drag your feet and leave him as soon as possible! If you wish to see our family become disturbed and torn apart because of you, if you wish to see me die in peace, you can remain with him!"

Disgusting, fragmented, and dead.

Her every vocabulary is foreign and frightening to twenty-year-old Li Xuan.

He just liked Su Xingchuan, why would he let Su Xingchuan's mom die in peace? Li Xuan couldn't figure it out, his heart hit the mouth of his throat one by one, and he felt pain all over his body.

He asked in a trembling voice, "Auntie, what if Su Xingchuan doesn't even like girls in the future?"

He Ning was directly furious, she red eyes, pointing at Li Xuan scolded: "I have never seen you such a shameless person! I've never seen such a shameless person like you! At such a young age, you do such disgusting things. I can't even look at the messages you sent to him, please stay away from him!"

Li Xuan opened his mouth, but no words came out.

His whole body was shaking, he hadn't been scolded like this since he was a child, and for the first time he felt like the bad guy.

"I can accept that he's not married and doesn't have children, but I can't accept that he likes men, not in this lifetime!"

Li Xuan felt desperate.

"Xingchuan is a dutiful boy, and if you want to see him in a dilemma between affection and love, and want me to hate you till the day I die, you can yell at him to come down and pretend that tonight never happened."

Li Xuan's tears were falling down.

At that moment he was so hopeless, so scared, he cried in his heart, he was at a loss, thinking: Su Xingchuan, what should I do?

"If you knew better, you could leave now." These were the last words He Ning said to Li Xuan.

That night, Li Xuan left Su Xingchuan's house with a big gift box, stepping on the snow that didn't reach his ankles, alone. Later, he told Su Xingchuan that he broke up with her, not daring to say why.

He grew up overnight.

He hated his own childishness, cowardice, do not understand things, if he is a little more clever, can talk, know a little more flexible, know first cheat perfunctory past, and then with Su Xingchuan together to think of ways, Su Xingchuan's mother may not be so angry.

But he was too scared and just wanted to get away.

It's his bad.

The psychological shadow brought by He Ning to Li Xuan has been overshadowing him for the next seven years, so much so that when he went abroad, he would subconsciously avoid hearing people talk about homosexuality, fearing to hear their judgmental words.

He thought he would slowly fade away, counteracting the childishness of that year with his current maturity, but when he saw He Ning again seven years later, he was still frozen in place, his lips opening and closing, but unable to speak.

"Why are you here?"

He Ning walked towards him.

He Ning's gray hair is more than before, and the wrinkles on his face are more than before, but he doesn't look old, and when he gazes and frowns, he still carries a majesty that scares Li Xuan.

He Ning looked up at the sign in the hallway and his face changed instantly, raising his voice to question him, "Why are you here? Don't tell me you're with him again!"

Li Xuan is trying to escape again.

He subconsciously took a step back and reflexively said, "Not ......"

"Then why are you here?"

Li Xuanzhuang stammered and couldn't speak.

In fact, he had a lot to say, he wanted to tell He Ning that he and Su Xingchuan truly loved each other, even though they had missed each other for seven years, they still missed each other, and there was no one better for each other than them, he had grown up a lot, and wasn't as naïve as he used to be, and wouldn't unilaterally enjoy Su Xingchuan's care, and that they could help each other out, and stick together like a normal couple to old age.

But when he looked at He Ning's face, he couldn't say a word. He even began to miss his uncle and his mother, like a little child, hoping on others, unable to make his own decisions.

He felt so bad.

"Mom?"

Su Xingchuan's voice broke the deadlock between Li Xuan and He Ning.

After Su Xingchuan finished the phone call, he thought about going to see Li Xuan, but when he went downstairs, he saw Li Xuan and He Ning standing opposite each other.

He walked up and was about to introduce himself to his mother when he heard He Ning coldly question, "Xingchuan, are you with him again?"

He Ning had found a photo of Su Xingchuan and Li Xuan together, but she didn't say anything at the time. Su Xingchuan thought that his mother would be more accepting of the matter than normal parents, and thought that it would be a good opportunity for Li Xuan to meet his mother.

Before he had a chance to speak, he heard a chortle from He Ning, "You disappoint me so much!"

He froze, while Li Xuan stepped back in fear.

Li Xuan turned around and left.

Su Xingchuan tries to pull guard but He Ning drags him back down.

"Why are you like this?" He Ning asked him with tears in his eyes.

Su Xingchuan was already confused, his mother, who had always been gentle, was like a furious lioness, he had never seen his mother show that kind of ferocious expression, he only felt confused inside, and then he came back to his senses at his mother's questioning voice.

Mother already knew? She even knew Li Xuan's name and mentioned "seven years ago" a lot. And Li Xuan just turned white and ran away, looking scared.

Is it--

"You looked for him?"

He Ning jerked to a halt.

Her silence had revealed all, and Su Xingchuan felt the blood freeze throughout his body as he grabbed his mother's arm and asked incredulously, "You went to him? What did you say to him?"

He Ning's eyes are averted.

"So he broke up with me."

"Aye! I approached him, so what? You were still in school then and I didn't want to influence you!"

Su Xingchuan could no longer control his emotions as he angrily said, "What exactly did you say to him? Why didn't you tell me? Why didn't you discuss it with me? You don't want to influence me, so go ahead and influence him? He was raised by his parents too!"

"What do you want me to do? I don't want him to ruin you."

Su Xingchuan was so distraught that she could hardly speak.

What had twenty-year-old Li Xuan gone through and endured to withdraw from his life in silence?

He grabbed his mother's arm and said, word for word, "Mom, I'm telling you, I wasn't influenced by him to become gay, I liked him first."

He Ning said, "No way."

"I hadn't been attracted to any girls before I met him, but the first time I saw him, I couldn't take my eyes off him."

He Ning blanched, "You've been good, don't say that Xingchuan, you just haven't met the girl you like yet, listen to mom, break it off with him-"

Su Xingchuan said in a mute voice, "Whether you believe it or not, the fact is this, I am with him, confirming the relationship was my mention, everything that happened after that was my initiative, I like him, like him so much that I have recognized him in my life."

He Ning pulled Su Xingchuan's jacket, "Xingchuan!"

"I'm going to find him now, I have to find him," Su Xingchuan said to her mother, "Mom, I've been waiting for him for seven years."

.

Su Xingchuan called Li Xuan, but there was no answer.

He was heartbroken to the point of insanity.

A few hours ago, he said on the phone that he hoped Li Xuan would have a smooth life and not have any bumps in the road. It turns out that seven years ago, Li Xuan experienced the first bump in the road in his life, but it was actually brought by him.

Li Xuan such a petulant crybaby, usually a little heavier tone of voice, he has to be aggrieved, to be angry for a long time.

How could he bear a mother's scolding?

Seven years, about the reason for the breakup, Su Xingchuan countless times malicious speculation Li Xuan, even once did not think that the problem may be in his body, otherwise the day before the whispered that New Year's Day to set off fireworks together Li Xuan, how would it be inexplicable to mention breakup?

When we broke up, Li Xuan cried, "No."

He should have sensed something.

He continued to call Li Xuan, who still did not answer.

Li Xuan could not be seen on either side of the neighborhood, he guessed that Li Xuan should have gone home, but he did not know the address of Li Xuan's home, after thinking about it, he could only call Xu Zhengdong's driver, under the pretext that there were documents to be delivered, to set up the address of the Xu family's old house.

As soon as he got the address, he drove there.

The villa area didn't allow outside vehicles to enter, so he had to park on the side of the road and walk in.

He was all over the place on his feet.

He knew Li Xuan must be sad and scared.

It was hard for him to get the words "I miss you" from Li Xuan, his seven years of waiting had just seen the light of day, he couldn't lose it like that, he had to see Li Xuan, even if it meant stalking her and throwing away all his pride, he had to get Li Xuan back.

As he walked, he suddenly saw a familiar figure.

It's Li Xuan.

Li Xuan ran forward with a pile of things in his arms, and when he wasn't paying attention, he fell, and his whole body tipped forward and fell on the ground, the things in his arms scattered all over the place.

Su Xingchuan rushed over to help him up.

He held Li Xuan's wrist and asked nervously, "Are there any injuries? Do your elbows and knees hurt?"

Li Xuan froze for a moment when she saw him, then she was busy picking up things on the floor, "Has your mom left?"

"What?"

"I want to see her."

"No, Xuan, I'll take care of my mom."

Li Xuan, however, looked at him, her eyes bright with tears, and said obstinately, "I'll go and say it myself."

Su Xingchuan hugged him painfully.

"I'm sorry, I won't run away this time, I just wanted to come back and get my things," Li Xuan said to Su Xingchuan as he huffed and puffed as he picked up the things on the ground one by one and put them in his arms:

"These are my certificates, my degree, my physician's license and license to practice, my awards from last year, my medical exams, I've been living seriously all these years."

Su Xingchuan stared at him blankly.

Obviously, Li Xuan's face was not much different from before, and his tearful eyes were still very cute, but Su Xingchuan felt for the first time that Li Xuan had really grown up.

Li Xuan cries, "I want to tell your mom that I'm not messed up and sick and I'm not a bad person, I just like you."